Ocean

I came here with the intention of putting an end to it.

But the truth is, we are not able to finish something in reality before we definitely finish it in our head.

I think the greatest stories of all time are hidden behind that point. When we think that it is all over. Only then does the real beginning of all our adventures begin.

His fingers gently tightened the strands of my hair entangled around them. I felt my heart pound in my throat and the frantic pulse vibrated through my body like a storm.

His manly and intoxicating scent swirled around me, making me tremble like the flame of a candle in the wind. His proximity was like some drug, the higher dose of which was extremely dangerous to me. Deadly. Killing every gram of self- will in me.

Beneath the thick rows of black lashes, his blueness shot through me.

"Do you want to make love to me tonight?"

I took a deep breath, putting my hand on his face. The sharp features of his manly face almost cut my palms with beauty.

In his words I felt some tenderness that I could not recognize until now. As far as I could tell, this feeling was foreign to him too.

"It seems to me that we are both so broken, I'm afraid we're going to cut each other until we bleed."

I said looking at him deeply, almost penetrating to his soul. My plea to him sounded almost like a prayer.

I knew what my secrets were and how they could destroy both me and him. But what I didn't know was what was hiding beneath his surface, what secrets he was hiding.

He unraveled his fingers from my hair and caressed my face. I leaned toward his touch, melting under his palm.

''I think. . . ''

He said leaning even closer to me, trampling me with some soothing expression in his eyes.

''. . . the two of us are parts of the broken glass of one and the same whole. If we start assembling ourselves piece by piece, we will eventually get US. Made up of thousands of broken parts that fit together perfectly. "

He smiled and slowly approached my lips, almost like a thief imperceptibly taking his prey.I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck and uttered through kisses.

"Make me yours."

The moment he heard my words, he picked me up and carried me in bridal style up the stairs. We moved to his room in silence, my hands dangling tightly around his neck. I rested my head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat, which seemed to be playing some symphony just for my ears.

He opened the door of the room still carrying me in his arms. My face lit up and I felt tears slowly build up in the corners of my eyes.

Expecting me tonight, he prepared a special atmosphere for both of us.

Flickering flames in the depths of the fireplace lit up the room, alternating shadows and beams of warm light. There was something like white fur on the floor in front of the fireplace with lots of pillows strewn around the edge. There was a bottle of chilled wine in the ice bouquet, and next to it two glasses.

At that moment, I had the feeling that we were on a mountain, surrounded by snow, just the two of us. As we melt in each others embrace.

Unconsciously, I tightened my grip, getting one smile from him.

''It's beautiful.''

"I was hoping you'd like it."

He slowly lowered me to the floor as I slowly sank between the pillows, positioning himself between my spread legs. My arms were still around his neck as we were only inches apart, looking at each other incessantly and without a word.

I raised my head a little, to brush his lips with mine and tuck his lower lip between mine. The softness of his lips created an addiction in me  and a need to experience him more.

Our lips twitched in waves as he unbuttoned the my shirt with his deft fingers. He began to travel along my neck, forcing me to arch my back from the sensation he was creating in me.

He took off my shirt, continuing the march with his kisses on my stomach and over the thin material of my bra under which my hardened nipples protruded.

He unbuttoned my pants and gently lowered them down my legs, leaving juicy kisses down my thighs and finally removing my panties.

I pulled him toward me, wrapping him in a sensual kiss, eagerly exploring him. Wet, aroused and eager for more.

We swapped places and soon I was above him, sitting on his hard erection, which inflamed my excitement even more.

I slowly unbuttoned his shirt, torturing him with slow and short kisses, to which he groaned loudly.

I dropped his shirt down his shoulders, sliding my fingers down his arm, feeling the strength and firmness of his muscles under my fingers.

I kissed him all over his body at the same time, exploring him with my hands, to finally come to his zipper.

I unbuttoned his pants and took them off together with his boxers. I swallowed my insecurities and thoughts and embraced his manhood with my hands.

He was hard and only then did I become aware of his true desire for me. How he longed for me, for my touch.

He raised his head a little and looked me straight in the eyes. Then I leaned my mouth towards him, first tasting him with the tip of my tongue and then taking him with my mouth. Kaden closed his eyelids  hard and abruptly dropped his head on the pillows, moaning.

"Ocean, fuck."

When I realized that I, too, was excited beyond measure, I positioned myself above him. I lowered my upper body towards him, while he unbuttoned my bra with his hands and threw it on the floor.

I straddled him, allowing myself to feel him to the end. He embraced my breasts and stood up to kiss them both alternately.

I threw my head back from the heat radiating through my body like a forest fire and a tingling sensation that completely haunted me.

I began to move quickly, moaning as our sighs mingled in the air. He put his hands on my waist following my movements.

'' Oh. My. God. ''

I managed to utter that instead of an arsenal of swear words, as an earthquake of magnitude of total devastation on the Richter scale shook my excited and sensitive body.

I fell on his chest as he removed strands of hair from my face and continued to caress my naked back.

We stayed so still and out of breath for a while. Fire blazed on our naked bodies as Kaden pulled the blanket over us.

'' At this point, I feel like time has stood still for me. It's as if it's just the two of us on the entire planet, that there are no worries and problems. Just the two of us. "

He spoke softly and sincerely, and I tried to savor at this moment. Because those were my thoughts, too. Just the two of us, away from all our problems.

"But we will eventually have to leave this nest of ours. That means we have to live with each other and together with all our problems. "

I said, hiding the bitter truth. Hiding new events in my life, so as not to endanger him. Hiding my dark truth. That I belong to the mafia just a little less than I belong to him.

He was silent for a while, as if fighting his own demons. I looked up and saw his imagined look. He looked down at me, stroking my face.

"I'm just afraid our problems won't be bigger than us."

He told me, studying my face and expecting my answer.

"That the feelings we have for each other will be able to prevail over what we both keep to ourselves. Secretly. "

"Until we are both able to open up, there will always be a thin thread between us, which can easily break."

I told him and continued.

"But I believe that the day will come when we will be able to open up to each other. From that day along, we will only be to blame for our end. Nobody else.''

We were both people with secrets, and that was clear to me now.

He didn't answer me, he just kissed me on the forehead. I was slowly falling asleep when his hoarse voice broke the silence.

"One more thing I want to tell you. I don't want you to work for Jaxon anymore. "

The dream instantly escaped my eyes and I got up to look him straight in the eyes.'' Where did this come from now? I don't think you're in a position to make such demands on me. "

Is he jealous? I don't want to let him make decisions like this for me.

"I can't explain myself to you now. You have to leave that job, Ocean. "

"Kaden, the conversation on this subject is over unless you give me one good reason why I should do it."

He looked away, then flew over my face, not wanting to look me straight in the eyes.

"I told you I just can't tell you anything now. When the time comes and when I'm ready, you'll find out. For now, you'll just have to trust me. "

His gaze was glued to the flickering light of the fireplace. His eyes burned with the color of red flame and a secret was hidden in them.

"What kind of things are you hiding from me?"

He was silent for a few moments and finally his tearful gaze landed on me.

''It is better for you to not know some things. Yet.''