I'm still in so much pain.... It hurts to even move the slightest bit, I can't really move my neck that much either. It just sucks because I'm hurting so much 😢

I don't know what to do, I don't want to take pills because I would have to go downstairs where "he" is and I'm scared to go near him. I'm trying not to be afraid but I can't help it, I know I did nothing wrong but I feel like I did. My older brother (Anthony) told me yesterday night that I didn't do anything wrong and it was by accident, but I can't help feel like it was all my fault.

Blue and Panda are the only ones who know what happened to me and know why I'm in pain. I would tell the rest of the crew but I'm scared someone will let it slip and I'll be in trouble... I'm just really scare right now of everything... I'm slowly crumbling into pieces... I'm just done with this fucking pain I'm in right now!!

~Stay Strong