I've been stuck in this house for four fucking days

Todays the fifth day I'm stuck here with no conversation and I'm loosing my mind 

Right now I would do anything to go to school, may sound weird but girl I'm in dying need to fucking talk.

I've been stuck home, with no people since my mom has left me home alone for the majority of the time, and when she is home she's on meetings or calls or busy with herself.

I had food on Sunday, none Monday or Tuesday, a little on Wednesday, a little on Thursday, and now it's Friday and I'm in dying need of throwing up.

I've been listening to the tortured poets department non stop and it's getting annoying.

And the worst part is... I haven't even picked up a book.

Right before I got sick i got the new Holy Jackson book and a Lynn Painter book, I haven't picked up either of them and I'm ashamed of myself.

I'm gonna start the Lynn painter one today in hopes it will get my spirits up 

My older sister Lilly comes home today from college. I'm so fucking excited. 

1) bc that means more alcohol 

2) bc I've been going insane without her

3) it means summer is getting closer 

And dam I love winter but summer means I get to go to London and Japan and Spain and California.

My mom promised me we would go to Europe this summer, I've been but I barely remember it except for when I went to France for my seventh bday. Other than that I have zero memory of Europe.

My mom also promised me the one thing I've been wanting to do since I was a little kid, like 5 or 6.

Go to all the Disneys 

Florida, Paris, Japan, and California. I've been to three of the five and this summer I'll get to finish the only thing that's ever been on my bucket list. (If you're confused there's two Disneys in Japan that's why I said five)

I've been going to Disney world every year since I was 2. I've been to Disney Paris twice and to Disney land once. So now the last two, the Tokyo Disneys are the only thing on my mind. This summer is going to be awesome and definitely the best bday ever.

For my bday I'm going to London for the eras tour 

I haven't had a bday like that since my seventh birthday.

I don't carry a lot of memories from when I was little. I remember my first memory when I was two and it was my little brother being born. I don't remember anything after that till I'm five. I remember moving to Puerto Rico and nothing else

I just remember summers and my birthdays basically.

For my fifth bday party I had all my friends over 

For my sixth i went to New York City for the first time 

When I was seven I went to France and Paris Disney 

For my eighth I went jet skiing/ boating 

For my ninth my whole family besides my brothers and me went to the Maldives for Lilly's bday, mine being laid forgotten.

For my tenth similar thing, Lilly went to Dubai and I can't tell you a single thing that happened for my bday 

For my 11th I went to Disney world w my friend 

And now for my 12th bday it's either London or Japan, I still haven't decided yet.

That's all I have to say for now 

Peace out suckers