4/28/24

idk if there's a reason to live anymore 

i've got friends i'm living for 

and ones i would and am doing anyhting for 

but 

i...would they rlly do all that for me?

lemme think abt it  

idk...

4/29/24

hey

i went to school today

living fucking hell

i was dizzy and had a migraine 

had these voices in my ear

went to nurse nicole abt it (we're besties)

she sent me back to class

at the end of spanish my spanish teacher told me to go to the school counselor 

AND I WAS SCARED AS HELL

I THOUGHT SHE FOUND OUT ABT MY SH

MAYEB SHE SAW MY LIMP OR MY ARM 

nah she just wanted to talk to me abt the voices in my head 

i have a fever of 102.3 degrees Fahrenheit and  39 degrees celsius 

going to the doctors tmrw

i have a shitty cough 

i feel like i'm gonna choke up blood 

i've thrown up three times today 

so fun 😁😁

i'm scared tho 

what if i go to the doctors and find out i don't have the flu or wtvr 

and that i'm dying and waited too long and might die in a week 

or some shit

i mean u never know 

i won't know till tmrw morning and the doc says what's wrong w me 

probably a shit ton 

well gotta go to bed 

mothers orders 

(oh yeah my dad, mom, and lilly came home today, FULL HOUSE)