My mom is making me fucking fear the world because im black.....

Shes making me scared of white people .....

And that hurts because my girlfriend is white and i trust her and i know she wouldnt wanna hurt me but my mom keeps saying white people are untrust worthy

EVEN my grandmother! I never thought she would say some cruel shit like that

I dont wanna ve scared of people i dont wanna live in fear but hell my mom isnt making it easy and

And i wanna tell my girlfriend about it but im scared

Im now more scared to tell my mom about the realtionship just because of my lovers race!

Im fucking starting to get of white people and hell i already have bad trust iusses im already scared of people officers! Im already scared of people looking at him! For fucks shake

Im already living in fear of people its hard to trust my friends because most of them are white its hard to make friends and tell them to my parents

Because my mom is becoming a racists and its rubbing off bad on my

And its effecting my relationship! I wanna tell my girlfriend i really do but im scared at what she would think of me ...and i dont wanna hurt her ....

Ive already hurt some many people in my life and i dont wanna lose her....

Fuck i wish i was white i wouldnt have these problems i wouldnt be scared if i was white

Im starting to hate my skin color its a cruse in my opinion and its scary having to fear for your life outside and inside your own fucking house i hate it im scared i....i

I dunno what to do anymore ....i feel like living alone will be better for me ...and maybe call things off with my girlfriend ....its gonna hurt but i dont know what to do im scared