A Yearning Heart Vol. 1

"What is the meaning of life?". Ive asked myself that question numerous times, and yet I still can't find the answer. So now, I have come to the edge of this cliff. The cliff that is sadly, very familiar to my eyes, the radiant colors of orange to pink to red ratio entranced me as the moon made its way up in the starlit sky. Ive trotted up that faithless ridge so many times, and yet here I am, impelling myself to go up once more. I can hear the water emitting a thunderous sound from down below. A sound so compelling, its like it was tempting me to come closer and closer until i was just close enough to look down into that eerie stream of Adam's ale. My head is buzzing with thoughts, the voices whispering in my ear. One telling me to take one more step forward, and another telling me to take a step back.

Then I see it, I see the one thing that I've longed for, for the last 5 years I had to live without. My late sister that I cherished with all my heart, she was radiating a slight glow. One you would only see if confronting an angel. Every second was spent studying her radiant features, but also spent recollecting my thoughts. Thoughts that screaming internally, just waiting to burst out and shriek. I was delusional, because for a split second, I thought I heard a voice. A alluring sound saying Dont. but the voices are counteracting that pleasant sound for a deceitful cry.

My mind was circulating the roar to just mere white noise. A constant buzz in my right ear, and a troublesome ring in my left. The breath was stuck in my throat, I couldnt exhale, let alone inhale. The landscape beneath me left me feeling circumscribed or in other words, cramped. I couldnt shift my position, I felt imprisoned in a vast landscape, stretching miles along the river howling beneath me. I struggle to break free on the hold that this world has on me, but it is tenacious and wont let up. I was taking in small breaths. Too small to circulate any blood through my system. The corners of my peripheral were darkening at an alarming rate. I had a sense that I had fallen, but I didnt know, all I saw was black. My eyes were closed, but I couldnt open them.

After spending an eternity in that obscure twilight, I see a twinkle of luminosity showing through my squinting eyes. The brilliant fluorescent glow of the full-moon above my  head, The bright ball in the sky felt like an old Friend on this night. I stand with what strength I have,  and look down at the gushing water below. Then I look up at the Celestial body once again, and I asked myself one more time what is the meaning of life? Even though I asked that question, I know that I will not get an answer from another person, because I've already found it for myself.  I guess this is the end. For me at least. With that, I looked down once more at the stream of abundant rain drops. I step forward, plunging myself head first into the rapid waters.

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