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Song on the side Forgotten by Avril Lavigne. Thought it was perfect for this chapter.

"Jenna?" I heard my name again. Something inside of me knew that she knew who I was. She knew exactly who I was. Turning slowly I came face to face with my mother.

Seeing my mother right in front of me made me tighten my hold on the bag with the stuffed animal, and my VS bag. I tried not to squeeze Sky's hand too hard. Her blonde hair was perfectly curled to frame her face, and her makeup looked flawless. Definitely done by a stylist I bet. I knew nothing about fashion but I did know that the dress she was wearing cost more then everything I owned. Standing in front of her dressed in a pair of skinny jeans and what I thought was a nice top, I felt all the low class that I was.

"Jenna." She breathed her voice cracking at the end. I gulped not knowing what to do. All different kinds of emotions were swirling inside of me, fighting who would be the strongest.

"Wenna?" Sky's voice knocked some sense into me. I watched as my mom's gaze left me and went onto Sky. Her mouth dropped open and she glanced back at me. I could practically see the gears turning in her head. She thought Sky was mine.

"Jenna?" Another voice said my name. My head was starting to hurt from everyone calling my name in the last minute. Turning one last time I noticed Sophia and Candy entering Build A Bear looking at me then at my mother with confusion.

"What is going on?" Candy asked coming to a stop beside me. I snuck a glance at my mother and saw she was only looking at me. I knew I couldn't walk away from her. I had to talk to her no matter how much I didn't want to. Finally I had to face my mother.

"Can you guys give me a few minutes?" I asked looking over at the two of them. I could see the questioning look in their eyes. Sending them a I'll-tell-you-later look they nodded.

"Let's go sweetie." Candy said reaching for Sky's hand.

"What about Wenna?"

"She'll be back with us in a few minutes. She needs a few minutes alone."

"Go and show them what you made." I said giving her a smile and a nod. With an excited nod she grabbed her mom's hand. Giving them a small smile the three of them walked out of the store and a little bit down, giving me some space.

"Jenna m-my baby." My mother said. She came towards me as if she wanted to hug me. I took a step back not wanting to feel her arms around me. She flinched at my action.

"Let's go outside." I said trying hard to make sure my voice didn't wobble. She gave me a quick nod before turning around.

"Tessa and Jake I'll be back in a minute. Text me when you are ready to check out." She all but yelled. I watched as they gave her a nod but that was it. Not waiting for her I turned and left the store heading to a little corner.

Jenna you can do this. Don't let her get to you. I chanted to myself. The only way I can get through this is put up my shield. The shield I took great care in making all my life.

"You are so beautiful baby. Do...do you know who I am?" She asked softly. I still had my back turned to her. "I am your mother." I scoffed at that finally turning to face her.

"My mother? You really think that you are one?" I bit out feeling all my anger towards her rushing forward.

"Jenna I-"

"How did you find out who I am?" I asked cutting her off. Folding my arms across my chest I pulled a mask over my face.

"I saw your picture in the newspaper after that I um got some information on you." She admitted looking nervous. She licked her red stained lips while playing with her fingers in front of her. "Y-You are Jenna Howard right?"

"Yes I am...mother." I could see the question of how on the tip of her tongue. "I knew the moment I saw you at the Gala a few weeks ago." A flash of guilt ran through her eyes. Yes she better feel guilty for not recognizing me.

"I am so sorry Jenna. I know you don't believe me but I had a good reason."

"A good reason?" I laughed out loud at that one. "A good reason such as leaving me to live a better life for yourself? For not taking me with you?"

"I-"

"No you don't have a good reason for leaving me when I was just 5 years old on a curb. Whatever fucked up reason you think you have is not one." I growled out trying hard not to yell. Everything I have ever wanted to say to her was waiting to burst free. After 14 years I was finally talking to my so called mother. "You do not leave your 5 year old daughter just so you can be with a guy. How fucked up are you!?"

"I didn't leave you for a guy." Karen said. I was done referring to her as my mother.

"I am not stupid. I know you left because you fell in love with Martin Brotherson. All these years I thought you left because you had to, that you would actually have a good enough reason but you don't. Because you fell in love with some guy is not good enough to make me forgive you." I was beyond caring that my words hurt her. I wanted her to know just how I felt when she left and how I still feel.

"I did not meant to fall for him Jenna. It just happened. I was a 23 year old with a 5 year old daughter not knowing what to do. I was stupid and made the worst decision of my life. The decision of giving you up has haunted me ever since."

"Not enough to make you try and find me. You left me to rot in an orphanage. Because of you I had no one. No one to come home to, no one to tell things, nothing. I was 5 when you left me and the entire time I thought it was my fault. I thought I had been bad and that it was my punishment by being alone. For years I wished you would return to get me. If I had known who much of a coward you are I wouldn't have wasted my time."

"Jenna don't be like that."

"No! You have no right to say my name or tell me how I should feel. You lost that right the moment you dropped me off." I clenched my jaw trying to hold back all the anger and hurt I felt. I had so many mixed emotions right now I didn't really know what to feel other than anger. It all consuming.

"Don't act like you are the only victim here." She suddenly snapped at me. My eyes widened. "I felt just as bad leaving you and for years wanted to find you but I figured that since you had a good family by now I shouldn't."

"That I am not the only victim?" I seethed. "You are not the victim here Karen. You made the choose and that is your burden alone. Your decision was about me so I have every right to be the victim."

"And you are beyond stupid for thinking that a family adopted me. I grew up in a home with 5 other children. I grew up with no one caring what I did, how I felt, what happened to me. The moment I graduated I left and had to fend for myself. For the past 3 years I have worked shitty jobs, lived in a shitty neighborhood and apartment just to make ends met. I barely made enough to eat some days so yes Mother I am the only victim here."

"I...I had no idea." She muttered softly.

"No you didn't because you are a selfish. You never once thought of my happiness. You thought that I would be better off without you when in reality I would have been better with you. You were everything I had, you were my fucking idol." A lone tear decided to make its way down my cheek. "You know I wanted to be just like you, now I hope I never will be."

We stood there silently, my words sinking in. I wanted her to feel bad, in fact I wanted her to feel absolutely terrible. I know that is not right but I didn't care. I had no feeling towards her anymore. The idea that I would be happy seeing her after so many years was completely and utterly gone. In its place was hurt, anger, and realization. Realization that I didn't need her, I never did. She did not deserve to have me as a daughter.

"You are wearing the necklace I gave you." She whispered softly. I reached up and felt the moon shaped necklace and the stone in the center. I hadn't even thought about it when I put it on this morning. I use to love it seeing as it was the only thing my mother ever gave me but now it was different.

"Jenna I...there are no words to describe how sorry I am for leaving you as a child. I should have never done that and I wish I could go back to re-do it. I know saying that I was stupid and young doesn't mean anything. When I saw your picture in the paper I couldn't believe it and have been trying to convince myself to get in contact with you. Being here is not how I wanted this to go and I know I shouldn't be happy but I am. I am happy I finally found you seeing that you are okay." She said softly.

"You are even prettier then I imagined you would be. Even though you went through some stuff you shouldn't have had to I can tell you are very strong. And now you are engaged. I just can't believe it."

I just stood there clenching my hands trying hard not to cry. She was saying all the things I have longed to ever hear. She continued saying things making my heart squeeze. My hard facade was slowly fading leaving me bare for her to see. Out of every scenario I had thought of this is not how I thought it would go.

Even with her talking and telling me how sorry she was, how she shouldn't have done what she did, if she could go back a re-do it she would; I knew I wouldn't forgive her. Having something like that happen to you changes you drastically. I am not the same person I was 3 years ago or even 2 months ago. I have learned to move on and accept things the way they are.

What my mother did to me is something that can't be undone. She can keep saying she is sorry and whatnot but it doesn't change anything. It was her choice to do what she did, it is her own heavy burden to carry. I do not have to keep holding onto it as if it were my punishment. I did nothing wrong and I need to stop blaming myself. What's done is done and that is it.

The only way to ever move on is to accept that. To accept the fact that I don't have a mother and daughter relationship like others, that I can't just call her up asking a random cooking question. I have everything I need right now and my mother is not apart of that. She is not apart of my life anymore; she never really was.

Maybe in the future I can forgive her and work towards getting along but right now is not that time. My wounds are still too fresh, they need time to heal before things can be mended. Just like after a hurricane things needed to be fixed before they can go back to the way things were. Although our relationship will never be normal or the same if she hadn't of left me; there may be a chance of forgiveness. But that had to be earned and proved once again. I am not going to blindly start trusting her again or let her into my life so quickly.

"Jenna I am so sorry." Karen said again bowing her head down. I could tell she was trying not to cry as well.

"I...I can't. Not right now. I can't just forgive you for what you have done. Maybe in the future but not right now. I need time." I bit my quivering bottom lip. "I need to go." I said quietly.

"I understand. I don't expect you to forgive me so easily. But just know that I am here now if you need me. I am not leaving any time soon and I will try to make things right Jenna, I promise. Here uh here is my number. Call me whenever and for whatever." She handed me a card that had her name and number. I took it staring down at it.

"Jenna I hope one day you can forgive me. I know it is hard to do but I hope. Maybe one day you can meet your half siblings and my husband."

"Maybe." I said softly. That wouldn't happen anytime soon.

"C-can I hug you?" I wanted to say no but found myself nodding. Immediately I was enveloped in a hug, her arms wrapping tight around me. She stood a little taller then me even though I was in heels, her's were just taller. I stood there stiffly my hands hanging limply by my sides. I couldn't bring myself to hug her back, not yet anyways. I scolded myself for letting her hug me.

"I hope you will call me sometime Jenna." She said pulled away. Giving me a sad smile she looked at me one last time before walking away.

I stood there frozen. I hadn't thought that coming to the mall with my two friends I would run into my mother. A women I had no intentions of talking to after the Gala. Suddenly my shield started to crack. I started shaking trying to catch my breath. I was panting and looking everywhere around me. All the emotions I had held back while talking to my mother were now surfacing, overwhelming me.

Tears were now free flowing down my cheeks. Gulping I fumbled for my phone in my bag, leaning against the wall. With nothing else in mind, forgetting that Candy, Sophia and Sky were here, I hit Liam's phone number. I needed to talk to him, I needed him to make me feel better. How I became so dependent on him I don't know or care. He is only one that understands my mother with me.

"Jenna?" He answered surprised at me calling.

"L-Liam." I chocked out. I was now crying even harder, my whole body shaking.

"Jenna!? Are you okay?" He asked his voice becoming panicked.

"N-no I'm not." I hiccuped out. "I just talked to my mother." I whispered out clenching the phone tight in my hand. I couldn't see anything as my eyes became blurry.

"Where are you?" He demanded. I heard rustling in the background as he moved around.

"T-the mall in Hill Crest."

"Jenna hold on I will be there in a few minutes."

"Please hurry." I pleaded softly. I didn't hear what he said next as I slide down the wall. Putting my head in-between my legs I started really crying. My body shook as I sobbed. It seemed that everything I had held in since I was little was coming out. I couldn't stop. I put a hand over my mouth to muffle the sounds coming out of my mouth. I knew I looked terrible I've never been a pretty crier. My blonde hair fell around my faced covering me from anyone who may walk by.

I don't know how long I was sitting there crying until I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders. Taking a deep breath I knew it was Liam from his cologne. Somehow my sobs got worse as I launched myself at him. His arms wrapped around me in a hug, pulling me into his hard body. He used his body as a shield as I sobbed into his chest, probably ruining his dress shirt. One of his hands gently smoothed down my hair and the other gripped my waist.

As I stood there leaning all of my weight into him I let myself cry. Not caring that I was in the mall and people could see. His comforting presence instantly made me feel better. After uncontrollably crying I was able to stop only hiccuping now. I still pressed myself against Liam borrowing his warmth and strength.

"It is okay Jenna." He said soothingly. "Do you want to go home?" He asked quietly. I nodded against his chest.

"B-but Sophia, Candy and Sky are still here." I hiccuped tilting my head to look at him. He brought his hands to my face using his thumbs to wipe my tears away.

"That is okay. Let me have your phone. I will tell them I came to get you and that the driver will be waiting to take them home." He reached for my phone that was still somehow in my grip. Not bothering to argue or anything I just nodded burying myself back in his chest.

I heard him talking to what I think was Candy a few minutes later. He told her something had happened and that he had me. I could tell she asked what happened but he just said I will tell them later. He then told them to take their time and that the driver will be ready for them out front where he dropped us off. Liam said a few more things but I stopped listening.

"Baby lets get you home." He said softly. Silently agreeing I pulled away slightly from him but he kept his arm around my waist. We silently made our way out of the mall and to his car. The rest of the way home I stared out the window blindly. I was completely broken at the moment.

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I'm pretty amazing I know updating so soon :) And I told you, you aren't going to like what is coming. I am sorry this chapter is a little short but I didn't want to make it super long, that would just made the argument and confrontation a bit too much. I hope you guys were satisfied with Jenna's way of talking to her mother and finally telling her what she really thinks of her. This is the last POV you will see of Jenna's mother, there may be another one in the bonus chapters I plan on doing after the book is finished. This confrontation was LONG over due and I am glad to finally be able to write it. :)

I have decided that there will be about 5 more chapters left of this story! Yes 5 after this one but that does not include the bonus chapters I plan on doing. I do not want to drag this story out longer then I have to and I plan on having my new book up the very first of January. I know this may not make some of you happy but as I said before a few chapters back I do not want to make this story repetitive, boring or too long. I personally lose interest if the story is more then 50 chapters. It may be the last of Liam's POV but not to sure at the moment.

I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! I want to say a quick thank you to everyone who has commented and messaged me questions so I can use them in the block party and the Q&A for this book after it is finished. If you have anything you want to know about me personally, how I write, stuff like that feel free to ask away!

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P.S I am almost on winter break! Finals are next week yay! And I found out what I may be changing my major to. I want to be an English Teacher and I can write on the side! Just thought I'd tell you

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-Ken