Guess what? IM NOT DEAD! Or am I? I don't know about you guys but "I'm not dead" sounds like something a dead person would say. Plot twist I was secretly a ghost all along. That's all I came to update about I hope you enjoyed this very rare ghostly presence ok bye

Ok so it's been a while. Understatement, it's been over a year a year since I updated anything on any of my accounts. And after all this time, that was probably a stupid way to start up again lol
That's just me though so ehhh

So yeah I don't know if you've guessed, but a lot has happened over the last year so this is probably gonna be a big update so hopefully you have time

First of all, kinda a serious thing that is less happy, and I'm sure that most of you who read that last chaptersode of naos are wondering about it
For those of you who didn't and therefore don't know, Hammer was based off my mums (now ex) partner, and then in the last Chaptersode i completely ignored the votes and decided to make Hammer quit
I'm not getting into detail or anything, cause it's a personal family issue, but I feel like I should have some explanation since it was very sudden and I very clearly had no plans of doing that at any point before
Basically last year that dick was supposed to be marrying my mum, but he left us a week before the wedding, and then we found out he was cheating on her with this woman who he had been in an on off relationship with for 30 years. Obviously my mum was very upset after this happened, but this was almost a year ago, and I'm very happy to say that she is a lot better now

Ok naos
So uhh I've been thinking about it a lot, especially recently
And honestly I'm not even sure if I'm going to continue it
Don't get me wrong, I loved making naos, and coming up with ideas for it and I kinda fell in love with the stories and the characters but
Well first of all I'm not as much of a writer anymore. I do love writing, but frankly I've been more into comics recently (which I should update on my art book soon)
Then there's the fact that I'm just not very active on here anymore. I was meant to update this months ago and I've only just gotten around to it. Even updated aside, I'm still not even that active in the comments or anything anymore, which really sucks, cause a few years ago this was definitely my favourite website, and I made so many amazing friends on here and had so much fun, but now with the amount I'm on here, most of the time I might as well not even have an account, which really sucks
And then there's also just the fact that I've handled naos so poorly. Honestly, when I first introduced those characters to you guys, I had no idea how much I would change them, and then I updated those changes but still. Even though I haven't been doing much to do with it recently, I have been thinking about it a lot, and frankly I've just handled things so poorly, if I could just restart from the beginning I know exactly what I would do differently. Honestly I just really hate how I've done things already, especially how I've handled Mask. Despite his happy attitude almost all the time, he is a very serious character who should have been treated more carefully by me before, especially considering everything about him that I know that I haven't revealed. Even if I could change just one thing about how I've done these characters, I would instantly pick him because he really deserved more than how I've gone about introducing him as a character
As I've said though, I really don't wanna completely end this story, cause I really love these characters
So I've been thinking of a possible alternative
I was thinking about maybe just completely redoing it
Not as a book though
And not on here
I had this idea to maybe remake it as a comic blog on tumblr
I'm on there almost all the time, and I don't even have to be on there to draw in my free time
I got the idea from this comic blog I follow called Ask White Pearl And Steven, a blog for a Steven Universe au, where almost everything that has happened (apart from a few small things) is the same up to the past 14 years, but instead of Rose having Steven, it's White Diamond. If you like Steven Universe and have tumblr I highly recommend, it's definitely my favourite comic series, and it updates every Saturday. Even if you don't watch Steven Universe, I still highly recommend it, it's got a really great story and things are explained pretty well. Tons of people who don't watch su still read this comic series which is really cool and I do really I'm just fangirling over this amazing comic series now and not getting on with my point
So the way I see it, I love drawing and I love my story that I've started making but not finished, but I don't like how I've started it, so why not start again from the beginning in comic form on a platform that I'm more likely to be active on
I might still update my art book with the different comics for it
I might even make it into an Ask Eyephone and the rest of NAOS series, rather than a competition. The format fro ask White Pearl and Steven is really cool, and works really well. It would be awesome to give that format a shot
Or I might still keep it as a competition but also do the ask everyone format so then it keeps in the plot
I know that some people might be disappointed in this because maybe you liked naos, and don't have tumblr or something, but honestly if I'm going to continue with it, this does look like the most likely way I'm going to continue with it

If I do decide to do this, don't worry I will update both this and my actual naos account with a link to the first comic or to my naos tumblr account

And now a bit more happy but still kinda big one. I was gonna update about this as soon as it happened (literally in March), but you guys know the drill by now
I'm not gonna post a recent pic as it's faded a lot, so I'm just gonna post my first pic with it. Unfortunately the lighting is a bit weird but it's still ok

I DIED MY HAIR YEET!
Yeah unfortunately most places don't do permanent dye for unnatural colours like blue, which means every few weeks it fades and needs to be redone which sucks, but when it has been redone it looks pretty cool. It's kinda like a lightning effect which I love
Eventually I'm planning on dying it all blue, but for now I'm happy with this. Thought it all being dyed would be a bit extreme for my first time dying it ever

Also another happy big one, actually quite a bit bigger than my dyed hair idk why I put this after that
But
IM 18!!!!!!!!!
Yeah I was also meant to update this on my actual birthday but I got busy so ehh
But yeah
I'm actually an adult which doesn't seem real cause I'm an immature piece of shit who can't even talk properly half of the time like how the fuck does society consider my worthy of the title "adult". I mean "adult"? More like "a dolt"
Yeah I know I just stole that from sanders sides but in my defence it's a good show that's a good joke and I'm a dolt so yayyyyyyy

But yeah like I can buy alcohol and stuff like wtf
It's weird
Like I'm just in the shop buying a wkd cause they're delicious and the person at the till is just there like "do you have id" and I'm just there like "yeah I do here you go it sure if fun doing the adulting things yes I am actually an adult this is real" except I don't actually say that cause anxiety I just pass it over silently, but that's just what's in my head and I actually can buy it like wtf how am I not still just a kid why do the the other adults just look at me like "ok this girl is 18, yeah we can trust her with this drink for adults only it's fine we don't know her maturity level and she doesn't even have a driving license yet or anything so she has to carry around her passport everywhere for id, but yeah she's gonna be fine"

About the only thing weirder than the fact that I can now legally buy alcohol is the fact that none of my friends can yet. Like I'm the least mature in my friend group, look the youngest and am shorter than all of them, but like they're still too young to legally buy a drink and yet the law thinks that I'm mature enough to get it like wtf

Honestly just going to a shop and buying a drink and being able to get it. That will never get old

Hmmmmmm what else

College

Unfortunately I didn't get the grades to do my second year in my courses (thank fuck when it comes to photography, but I kinda do miss English and psychology). The trouble with me is I don't study, and I can't really remember a time where I ever did properly, so I'm stuck in this stupid habit of "oh it's fine" when it isn't and I knew it wasn't. Luckily I am allowed to do a different course, this time only 1 rather than 3, and rather than a big exam to revise for I'm gonna have to do a lot of course work (which kinda sucks cause I know I'm awful with homework, but I've decided I'm gonna get my ass in gear). I'm doing media this year, which is great cause like so far it's been just mostly making short films and updating our blogs with our progress, and every Friday we get this lecture about the subject but sometimes in those lectures we get to watch a film which we're supposed to get some inspiration from or something but it's just a film which is great. Also it gives me a chance to maybe get into animation properly cause honestly I think that's what I really wanna do with my life. Like honestly just cartoons and stuff are my favourite things in the world and they have just been such a huge part of my life that I just wanna do that. I mean, it's not really the greatest of starts to animation so far cause everything we've been doing so far has been live action, which was pretty cool, but still not animation, and plus I don't have any animation software (or even know which one would be a good one to use), and I'm only really good at traditional art, I'm awful at digital art, but I'm thinking of at some point getting myself a graphic pen/tablet, and I definitely will look into different animating software at some point. And even though I haven't done what I want to do yet, it's still been really fun. Everyone on my course is just really nice. And it's been a fun experience. Plus the timetable is great. I have to stay in till 4:30 everyday which sucks, but Monday and Friday I don't have to be in until 1:30 and I get Wednesdays off, which is great

It does suck about English and psychology, but I'm just looking on the positive side though
English was pretty cool cause in the second year we were supposed to be doing course work of literally writing 2 things whatever we liked, as long as they were the same genre but for a different audience or had a different purpose. It would have been quite cool (I was gonna do scripts for a theory on YouTube, and my first 1 would have been my newly updated ii elimination theory, which makes slightly more sense this time rather than last time when it was a disaster and was instantly proven wrong by literally the next ii episode when Test Tube wasn't eliminated). There were only 2 issues with this; 1-I couldn't think of a single other good theory to make. Literally the other theory to make (before I continue, spoiler warning for sanders sides dealing with intrusive thoughts, unless you have seen that episode or you just don't care, just skip to the next bold text) was the theory that Virgil was also a dark side, which I know isn't original, I literally don't know anyone who didn't believe that theory, but it was a good classic 1 with lots of evidence, and a complete different fandom to ii, therefore technically a different audience. But then as soon as I decided this would be my other theory, dealing with intrusive thoughts was released, and Virgil literally confirmed it himself at the end, so I had to try and think of another theory to do which sucked cause I was all out of ideas, so it's kinda good I don't have to do that now. Plus at some point I kinda wanna release my ii elimination theory (potentially on YouTube, possibly on tumblr, and if you guys are interested I might post it on here), but I was worried that if I posted it for coursework and then online I could be accused of plagiarising myself, or told it's now invalid cause it's online, so I would have to wait to post it, but I wouldn't be able to wait too long cause if the episode gets released before I'm allowed to post it, I either wasted that time thinking of that and not being able to share with the right people, or I look stupid as a post a potentially outdated theory late. So now I can just release it straight away if I want, and don't have to worry about thinking about something else to write

Ehh what else

Ummmmm

Remember how I said ages ago somewhere on this account I had never been abroad (apart from Disneyland Paris when I was 3/4), and had never been on a plane
Guess what I did a month ago :D
Yeah Crete was really cool. I got a beautiful view of the sunset from the plane window, and the sunrise from my hotel rooms balcony window (however, as beautiful as it was, I would like to ask my mum to never E V E R wake me up that early again I did appreciate the view but not the time of that particular viewing and although it was a great day and I understand that we could not have done anything fun that day without getting up early, literally the next time I am woken up that early I will admire that sunset from a shorter and shorter distance until I am part of the sunset PLEASE GOD LET ME SLEEP DO NOT EVER AGAIN WAKE ME UP AT FIVE IN THE FUCKING MORNING)
It was fun going on a plane for the first time ever
And by fun I mean terrifying for like the first half an hour and then uneventful as I try to just watch bo burnham (I download his show on Netflix so I could watch it)
The plane ride home was fun though
And by fun I mean LITERALLY A FUCKING LIGHTNING STORM AND A SHIT TON OF TURBULENCE CAUSING ME TO THINK THAT WE WERE GONNA DIE YAY
Literally I was just there I think watching angel beats, which I also downloaded, and then suddenly out of the corner of my eye I see a flash, and cue me panicking thinking something was wrong with the engine until mum says about the lightning
And the plane rides weren't made any better by literally for weeks before we went, my brother going on about final destination (for those of you who don't know, in the first final destination movie, a guy gets a vision about the plane he and his class were about to go on for a trip exploding, killing them all, which causes him to panic, which leads to him and several of his classmates getting kicked off(and 1 of the 2 teachers getting off to keep an eye on them), and then the plane crashes, and for the rest of the movie that characters start dying in first ways, in the order they would have died on the crash). Sounds cheery, right. THIS IS LITERALLY WHAT MY BROTHER WAS GOING ON NON STOP ABOUT FOR WEEKS BEFORE I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE GOING ON THE FUCKING PLANE FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER YAY THANKS A LOT YOU PIECE OF SHIT!

Also a week later I went London which was pretty cool. Cue my brother on the train "hey Abbie, don't think about the end of final destination 3"(for those of you who don't know, the end of final destination 3 has a horrible train crash in the London Underground, which we had to use every day to get places). Probably didn't help that I have also recently been rewatching angel beats and 1 of the characters got in a train wreck, causing he and a bunch of strangers to be stuck underground as the tunnel had caved in, and he literally died from his injuries right as they were being rescued

So yeah that was fun

Uhhhh what else

Uhhhh

I've recently fallen in love with the guy who didn't like musicals
Honestly apart from the whole "not liking musicals" part Paul is just a big mood like

"Do you wanna tryout for the company's random sport thing"
"no"

"Hey Paul, wanna come see Mamma Mia with me and my daughter"
"No"
"Oh do you have plans"
"No"

"🎼What do you want Paul?"
"ExCUsE mE?!"

"Y-y'know, the........ latte hotte" *instantly dies inside"

And just can we appreciate the fact that he is physically more alarmed at the beginning of the musical when his boss is acting very weird than throughout the rest of it when he is literally almost being murdered by alien musical zombies.

And I really wanna talk about the ending but huge spoilers so uhh skip to the next bold text to avoid those

It is just so chilling to hear him singing "Emma I'm sorry you lost" like what a fucking way to start the final song Jesus Christ
But then I heard this theory that at the end he wasn't actually infected, but had to pretend to be so they wouldn't kill him and is now trying to convince Emma to do the same but because they're there he can't upright say it
Which is just a really cool theory
And like if you look at him I'm inevitable there are just several times where this seems like it could be true
Especially since this song is just mostly referencing the previous songs that he's heard, so he's just repeating what he already knows, and when he says "are you going to tip me" (and the others sing "get your cup of coffee"), it's just referencing the start where she had to sing for a tip, so he's trying to give a hint to her. But clearly she didn't get the hint and is just screaming throughout the whole song
And just "ITS A FUCKING LOOP?!"
And just her screaming to the audience for help and "WHY ARE YOU CLAPPING" in the curtain call is what I live for

Personally though I don't believe the theory that Paul was infected at the end, I strongly do believe that he was just full alien musical zombie then, but it's still a fun theory to think about

Also another theory that it's easier to infect the goal oriented people
Which is why his boss was singing what do you want Paul at the beginning
Like the 2 hardest people to infect were Paul and Emma (like I said, I do think he was infected, and even though we never actually see her get infected just the first song clearly takes place at some point after the musical does, and in that song Emma is clearly infected and singing along. Although now that I think about it, this song could potentially be further proof towards Paul faking it cause just the line "should we kill him? SHOULD WE KILL HIM?!" With that aggressive dabbing, like if he was infected, why would they ponder killing him, as he's already dead, so maybe he was faking, but at one point after they got Emma he was discovered idk)
But just
Paul couldn't get infected until he admitted that he wanted Emma

And Emma...... well she did wanna start a pot farm. But she definitely wasn't the most enthusiastic person. Like the only reason why she wanted to do anything with her life was cause her sister died and she wanted to do something to make her proud

Spoilers over now

Also I clearly have no self control cause I don't have much of my birthday money left, and I don't have a job yet, and yet Thursday I found myself at the shop buying myself an iTunes voucher to get the soundtrack, even though I've been trying to save my money

Also I just want to take a moment to just say how amazing miraculous ladybug is. Never have I been so obsessed with a show where all of the characters are such fucking morons like seriously Marinette doesn't even change her hair she just wears a fucking mask and different clothes and other than the mask and outfit all that happens with Adrien is his hair gets slightly messier like they don't even change their fucking voice how fucking stupid can you be but at the same time you're all precious babies I love all of you precious children apart from Lila you fucking she devil with shitty piece of crap go die in a fire and burn in hell you stupid bitch I wish you all the unhappiness you deserve

And just
Steven Universe the movie
Spinel is a precious baby I will protect her with my life
And as for Rose
She was previously my favourite
Now she's down to 2nd place
I do love her
But I hate what she did to poor baby girl Spinel
I still love her cause despite her many flaws she's such an interesting character
But this is one thing I don't think I will ever forgive her for

Also Steven Universe Future looks amazing I can't wait for it

Uhhhhh

I can't think of anything else

I'm just gonna post this now so then I won't forget to later

So uhh

Thanks for reading bye :3