1994 I turned 6 on the day of my birthday, my mother and brother celebrated with the 3 of us with a handmade cake that my mother usually bakes for special occasions, she took pictures of me and my brother together, it was sure is fun but I wished that my father would be there to celebrate on my side. Although the abuse continued at that time I was clueless about anything, I rarely saw father since he would spent his time drinking in a pub on his own or meet up with his friends. I was afraid of everything that surrounds me and I was even scared that I might not wake up the next day, it became pretty serious that it made my own mother worried on how I was acting; in those days it was the beginning of me going to therapies appointments, medical check ups and get intections to prevent deseases (I used to cry of fear when a nurse used to that needle in my skin). My mum and dad booked a family holiday for a week to Tenerife and they were the amazing moments to able to enjoy it, although I still drinked my milk on the baby bottle (I can't believe I still remember that)... yeaaah... moving on we spent the whole vacation in going to the beach those times I was petrified of cold water so it was difficult for my mum and dad in trying to get in the water but I was too scared so I decided to play on the sand with a bucket and a shovel; one morning we went to the beach and my parents made a plan to go the Loro Parque which means Parrots Park in Spanish to see the parrots and it's like a zoo with all sorts of parrots, during that week someone stole my swimming suit so on the last day in Tenerife I went to the beach wearing my panties (I was a bit shy because since I was a girl I felt weird for a girl wearing panties just like a boy but thankfully I had a longer locks of hair) and no shirt because of the heat. After the times went by it became pretty serious when it came to headlice overtaking my head where I would stratch my head constantly and so my mum decided to cut my hair which I cried that because I was a bit scared of the scissors for a some reason I never understood why and then next day my mum decided to cut it a little more shorted where it reached under my ear to make it easier to get rid of the headlice and she tried everything with using and buying every single anti-headlice produces she could her hands on but it was pretty much useless -_-. There were also sad times when my mother's boss Mr. William & Michael my mother's friend's husband died. I remember one day my mother booked tickets to see a Chinese circus act that was performing at the Roundhouse in Camden, their performance amazed me that made my eyes glow and became bigger on how fascinated I was looking at each of the acts.

1995 I turned 7 on the day of my brithday, I woke up with a couple of presents from friends of the family which made me very happy and of course kids love it when they get gifts (please try not deny yourself I know you were also like this when you were kids n_n). Day by day I saw less of my father in the house and my brother was starting to go off the rail, my mother and I continued to go to a evangelical church after 3 years of going and the nice people that attended to church always found me adorable and maybe because the fact that I'm a tiny person for a 7 year old to be. At the time I was diagnosed with a condition called 'Dyslexia' which is a common thing I guess, but I had trouble reading and writing so the teachers hired a help assistant to keep an eye on me and she helped me a bit with a reading I remembered it wasn't good at the time but I tried my best and even at home my mum continued to teach me Spanish so I can perfect it and it was a struggle T_T them times *sigh* thank God those days are over. On April my mother, my brother and I travelled to Madrid to celebrate my cousin's 4th birthday and we lasted for a week there then we returned back to London.

1996 I turned 8 and my mum decided to do something a bit different was that before I went to school that I wore my brand new dress for her to take pictures with my homemade birthday cake made by my mother which made me smile for a bit and it was going to celebrated at the primary school that I attended at the time and it was such a long time since my father would participate next to my mother on my birthday, so many memories that I can remember that has makred my life which were good and bad. That year was the year when my parents divorced and at the time I didn't know divorce was or what it meant, all I knew was that my dad lived over a friend of the family who is like a grandfather to me even though he's not really my grandfather so the only way to continue see my father was that he would phone me at home everyday and on the weekends he would take me to the cinema, shopping, going to the fun fair, going to the fast food restaurant well let's just say to have that Father & Daughter quality time and it felt great those days and I sometimes miss them. I would even sleep over my father's place and I would pout the fact I wouldn't see my father for the rest of the week. One day my father booked tickets to go to Disneyland Paris which was a dream come true because I was really obssessed with Walt Disney as a child at the time and I think you all were like this when you were little too (be honest and don't feel ashamed n_n), we were in France for a week and it was an awesome experience I have ever had in my life and I even brought a Sleeping Beauty costume along with a crown that goes with (I wanted a Pocahontas cosntume originally but they didn't had my age size ;_;) and I loved it (if I'm correct I think I still have the costume somewhere). My mother took me to see a good old friend of hers who works at the elderly home that used to be in Bishop Avenue, she had a son who was around my age and we became friends on the same day well at first I was bit shy and afraid that the boy might not like me to be his friend but I was mistakenly wrong he was a charming young boy showing me around the place and it was the place my mother used to work when my third oldest brother was a baby, my mother even took a picture of the two of us standing in the garden which was really big like a fairy tale. On December my mum and I travelled to Spain on a cruise ship and it was an exciting journey I have ever done in my life (Watched a movie in the theatres on the ship and even slept over) to visit my aunties and cousins in Madrid to find my third oldest brother that has moved to Spain and has lived there for a while and has caused trouble so my mother decided to travel to take him back to London and with him we then travelled to Barcelona to visit my older sibling who lives there and then after a week we travelled back to London by plane. My mum and my oldest cousin went to the airport of Heathrow to wait for his sister obviously who is my cousin as well would come to London for the first time, during the long wait a darked skin man came out if the doors where the passengers come out of those doors, I thought my cousin would come out of the those doors so I stood next to my cousin and my mother; my mother stared at the darked skin man rushing out quickly with a contagious smile on his face he was wearing a winter coat with a white shirt along with normal casual black shoes with a simple pair of jeans and she then asked my cousin who he was because he looked pretty familiar, he then replied to my mother's question telling her that's the world's most famous football player of all time Pele and I remember it clearly as if it was yesterday that my mother made me to shake his hand and my mother took out her camera and took 2 photographs. My mother even had a conversation with Pele as if they knew each other and after he left the airport we continued to wait for my cousin to come out of the doors, an hour later has passed and she finally arrived and my other cousin helped his sister with the luggages and put them in his jeep (I actually puked inside the jeep how embarrasing). My cousin had a great time in London we went places with her and she even took me to the cinema to see Toy Story. 2 months later she returned to Colombia and around that month of December my mother and I travelled to Colombia because another cousin middle sister of my cousin that came to London and the cousin who live in London with his Polish girlfriend who also travelled a few days earlier to spend Christmas with his parents as well as introducing his girlfriend to the family for the first time, for me it was my second time travelling to Colombia and I was felt shy as soon we arrived there and I received a lot of Christmas presents from the family (my favourite present was a plushie of a dalmatian) and it was the last time I have felt itchy hair along with the nits or headlice.

1997 it was my cousin's wedding day and I was dressed in white because I was in charge of holding her wedding dress tail and at the same time to hold a basket of pretty flowers, it was a beautiful ceremony that stuck to me for life to remember; I really enjoyed my vacation in Colombia with spending a lot of time travelling to countryside to countryside where most my mother's family relatives all lived we even celebrated my birthday along with my mother's since she also born on the first month, after the we returned to the capital city it was nearly time to return to London and of course I was upset but I got over it quickly as the plane landed in the English land. It was time has passed and my mother and my older sister took me to place that looks like a house but it's a school and it was a school for special needs children in other words where the disabled ones attends, I was scared at first when I visited the school for one day; it was already the summer vacation from school and my cousin from Madrid travelled to London to spent the summer holidays and it was a lot of fun, of course we argued played all day long and we even travelled to Paris, France for an conference in a church for a week and during that week we went to Disneyland Paris. That year was the death of the world's most beloved Princess Diana which was pretty sad to be honest but my cousin and I didn't really paid much attention to it because we spent the whole day playing, summer was over and it was the first day of my new school which was in Hampstead and to be honest I was pretty nervous since I was new but as the door opened in front of my very eyes what received was a warm welcome from the students and teachers at first I didn't know that the students had health issues because most of them looked pretty normal but then I realized something different about these kids at the time was that they had to take their medication at certain time which I found amusing and odd.

1998 I turned 10 years old and things started to change around me like attending to a school where sick children go to, praying before going to bed and pray before mealtimes which we never did in the past, my mother's friends from church told my mother I should throw away all of the Disney movies I had because they said it was from the devil and told her that I should avoid watching TV shows for children and they told my mother not to take to McDonald's because they heard that the founder of the restaurant was a devil worshipper and this person put innocent people blood as a sacrifice on the famous meals, of course I didn't understand why so the only option was to watch my TV shows that I enjoyed watching when my mother was out or when my father takes me out on the weekends he would normally ask me where I would like to eat so i would reply "I want McDonald's" and of course I only said that because all I cared about in McDonald's was the Happy Meal like every children that goes in get theirs to so that a free toy can pop up. My cousin from Madrid returned to London during the summer holidays since school's out and yeah it was a lot of fun that we got to go to another trip from church which was to Sweden taking my thrid oldest brother with us, we were there for a week and then we all returned to the UK. My mother started to have a female to female conversation that I will no longer be a child but become a woman and at the time I didn't unserstood it at the time. So from that time I was waiting for any changes of my body to take place.