I was born in the first month of the year 1988 in London, and yes I'm British but from Latin American parents.

It was a really cold winter at that time so when I was a newborn baby my mother used to try to put me in the Moses basket which made me cried a lot to let them know it was too cold, so my mother had no choice but to put me in my parents bed in between my parents... haha I know even babies let people know what they're really feeling.

In those days I obviously don't remember as much because I was a baby, duh... but I do know my mother did took a lot of pictures of me with my older siblings and cousin.

In 1989 same thing I don't remember much of course there's a lot of pictures of me so the only thing I can say I took my bloody time to walk -_- *sigh*

The year 1990 is where my memories all started and had a lot of things I was able remember to this day which is wierd because most people don't even remember what they did as a 2 year old. What I did remember at that age I used to hate going to the nursery... why? I never knew why I hated going to the nursery, but when I loved it whenever the ladies good friends of my mother used to all of us kids in those times to the park, my mother used to pick me up after nursery to go to her workplace where she used to work as a housekeeper; where her job was to look after a mansion that was owned by a wealthy elderly Englishman that was so kind to me although he wasn't fond of children but I was able to use my cute charm which we became good friends. I was very shy around people since I tend to hide from them behind my mother or my father's leg since I was a tiny person at that time. My favourite movies were Snow White & The Seven Dwarfs, Lady & the Tramp, Benji, Dumbo, Alice in Wonderland, Pinocchio and All Dogs go to heaven, so whenever I was being difficult during lunch and dinner my mother would feed me by mentioning my family and the characters names to keep me entertained.

1991 something went wrong with the flat so council housing helped us to find a temporary flat, God I remember those times where we had to move place to place just for the time being while the flat was getting fixed. At that time at one point in one of the temporary flat I broke the window I was with my third older brother whose 9 years older than me was watching TV and my mother came back from work; saw the broken window, of course she asked who broke the window and none of us responded the one who ended up getting punished was my brother, in that house I remember on a Saturday morning I was watching TV and my father woke up in his robe & saw that his car was being taken because it was wrongly parked *sigh*. At that time my mother had a very good friend who was an old lady and she was like a grandmother to me, because whenever my mother couldn't make it home on time, so the lovely old lady used come over to babysit me while my mother was at work. All of a sudden my mother fell pregnant and we already moved for the last time, my mother used to go to the hospital quite frequently so my mother's friend used to take me to the hospital where I used to take my colouring book to keep me entertained; my mother suffered a miscarriage and of course at that time I was unaware of it because I was a 3 year old whose mind was to play, colour, sing nursery rhymes, laugh with my charming cute smile. My mother used to stay and sleep at the hospital so my mother's elderly friend used to stay over night over my house along with my father and brother, so around 3 am she used carry my tiny body to the toilet and started training to control my piss since I was wearing nappies at that time & yes I used to use the potty.

1992 I've spent time playing, continued to hate going to nursery, crying, being shy around people, picky with food, going to the swimming pool wearing floaties on my arms since I couldn't swim I stayed near my mother because I was petrified swimming alone. At that time it was my second oldest sister's wedding I remember that as if it was yesterday I remembered when my mother woke me and my brother up since we used to share the same room to get ready, of course I didn't know what was going on so my mother bathed and dressed me up for the occasion... well the dress was nice but it was way too big for me at the time, we went over the house of an aunt of my sister's husband-to-be at the time and my first oldest brother came in with the wedding dress that he designed specially for my sister, all I can say it was a simple dress but it was perfect for my sister since she's quite a short and naturally skinny. We used to go into outings as a family and they were fun until when my brother and my father came in and decided to watch a horror film called 'A Child's Play 2' on a Saturday afternoon and that's when it all changed me point number one that came into my life was fear. Summer time came and my parents decided that my third oldest brother and I should travel to my mother's home country called Colombia on our own for the first time since my parents didn't had time for us and had to deal with the flat; my brother and I travelled to Venezuela which was a non-stop flight I remember something went wrong that they had to decline the other flight that was meant to go to Colombia and specially a 4 year old and a 12 year old kids travelling without an adult was crazy specially in a unknown country, thankfully a group of people took us under their wing and took us to a 5 star hotel, well duh I didn't what a hotel at the time so all I can remember was that it had a lot of rooms, the next morning the lovely people who took us to the hotel took my brother and I to the beach, then we went back to the hotel, packed our stuff well I didnt had much but my rack sack filled with toys and mini colouring books. The group of people that took care of us took us to the airport to get on the first flight to Colombia we said our good byes and went on the airplane, as soon we arrived to Colombia I saw a group of people waiting for us and I didn't know who they were and my eyes went onto a lady that looked just like my mother and I thought it was my mother at first but I then realized quickly that she wasn't my mother because my father wasn't there but I continued to stare at this particularly on that lady, she was my aunt my mother's younger sister and the other lady who was with her was my other aunt who was the oldest sister of my mother and with them was my 3 cousins. I've spent most of my summer time with my older aunt than with the younger one, aunt and her husband used to own a farm in the countryside of Colombia it was huge and had lots of chickens that laid eggs nearly everyday, although I did tried to help out with my aunt picking up the eggs I would end breaking them accidently. We used to travel with aunts with their husbands which I called them uncle to the countryside to visit many of our family relatives from my mother's side, obviously I didn't know much at that time but I know I did had a lof of fun playing with my cousins. We came back to London, became an extremely shy child and I wasn't the same person who once was.

September came and my life in a primary school began I cried on my first day because I didn't wanted my mother to leave and since she worked quite a lot and I was the last one to be picked up and I cry, cry, cry and cry a lot that day until my mother arrived, after that my parents decided to put me in a play centre right after school to keep me entertained while my parents worked, during my first year in primary I wasn't able to interact with the other kids at school I was far too shy and I used to hide under table, on Tuesday or Wednesday morning the teachers used to take us kids to catholic church that was right next to the school, the school was a catholic school it was understandable and I used to misbehave in church because I used get bored within seconds. After a week we moved back to the old flat after it was fully fixed, during at I used to get a lot of stomach bugs in which I never experienced in my life like this and it was the beginning of having headlice after I started school.

1993 I turned 5 I continued to be shy around kids and people, I was having a difficult time in making friends and trusting others specially towards my own family, in which my mother was awfully worried about my atittude. During the time I was at school and yes the teachers took us kids to the London Zoo and to the local Farm. From that age my mother started to teach me Spanish although I hated it but I had to do it, when it came to the writing exercise it took an awful a lot of time to get there. At that time I started to notice that my parents would argue constantly due to my father's drinking habits and was barely at home. From that age I've experienced the other point in my life was abuse.