no he whispered Sebastian then raised the bottle of whiskey to his quivering lips swallowing hard as the pills struggled down his throat Sebastian Blaine screamed snatching the bottle from his shaking hands Blaine's hands rose to his temples running a hand through his gelled black curls what was he supposed to do how many had he taken how much had he drunk Blaine's mind exploded with questions that only the hysterical mess in front of him could answer Blaine dropped to his knees pulling Sebastian down with him his body was becoming limp come on he growled under his breath somehow the right idea came to him Blaine hunched Sebastian's body over the side of the bathtub his breathing became heavy in an attempt to calm himself he took his hand and forced his fingers down Sebastian's throat it was the only way wasn't it it was working Blaine felt Sebastian throat contract as he choked bring a blast of hot thick liquid up out of his mouth Sebastian croaked and wretched as the vodka the whiskey and most importantly the pills were forced back up through his body Blaine rubbed the boy's back with his free hand only hoping that what he had done was for the best Sebastian continued to heave until he was empty he was choking on air it was gone Sebastian's bod was dragged back to lean against the wall by Blaine's struggling arms he was conscious but fragile and clearly still drunk he continued to laugh weakly his breathing slowed down eventually and he mustered up the ability to speak thanks for nothing Blaine Anderson although his voice was barely above a slow whisper you should have just left me Blaine ignored the comment why did you do it why did you do this to yourself Sebastian Blaine asked a sad look on his face he was genuinely upset he felt guilty this was his fault he told Sebastian to drop dead and Sebastian tried to obey there was a pain in his chest what have you done Blaine Sebastian gave a defeated laugh again there were too many reasons to list them all i'm gay he began his voice still struggling and my dad hates me for it and my mom is she's on his side and they try to beat it out of me Blaine suddenly notices the black eye the swollen cheek and i tried to-but i can't...i like guys,like you..you're beautiful but no you have Kurt Kurt's a god boyfriend he isn't like me i'm a mess and i can hide it can't i i'm good at hiding it Sebastian croaked and his voice broke and his eyes welled up more tears that he couldn't stop Blaine felt horrible guilty he really did cause this or at least part of it he had no idea Sebastian needed help he needed help from Blaine and any other friends he had he needed professional help he needed people to stop pretending to care and actually care Blaine took Sebastian's hand in his the dispute was the least of his worries relationships could wait Sebastian was a walking travesty and Blaine would do everything in his power to help him no matter what