"I-uh-you should not have kissed me Ted", I pushed him back. Causing him to fall. 

"ouch, C! I'm sorry, but that hurts". He stood up, brushing his ass to clean the micro dusts.

I ran off from the roof area, "Ugh no.. no.. no.. what the eff I've done! Fuck". I rapidly pushed the switch of the lift to open. Planing to literally go outta the hotel for a while.

"wait", I heard Ted's voice from behind. "C just listen to me", without looking back I could sense he's almost running towards to get me.

I looked at him and started to run off through staircases. For a second all I was wanting to fly far far away from him, here, to mom...

Running away with shoes on sometimes causes us to fall. On cinderella's case she lost her glass slipper, and I. "aahh", as a reflex action I closed my eyes. 

"You are saved again", Ted said. He's arms are around my waist. "Now you owe me two", he putted me down. "Or maybe more".

"Ted, I need you to leave me alone for a while. I-I-I", my tongue paralyzed as I was stating words faster than I could feel.

Ted gently took my wrist, " You didn't give me a chance to explain before. But today please let me do it". Our fingers entangled as Ted kept on saying, "I know what you are thinking right now. That-".

I shook off my wrist in a glimpse, " Let me go". I chin down myself and walked outta the hotel. The pool area had a bar, I went upto it. "Get me a glass of vodka martini, Please". 

"I am not leaving until I finish my words today C", Ted said sitting next to my chair. 

I gulped up three shots of the vodka martinis, "So the annoying mood only turns on around me or its occasional during one o one talks". I asked for the repeats of the drink meantime. 

"Frencia is going to be operated soon. Doc said she will have a chance to be normal like before", ted took a pause. 

"well you never really told me how that happened to her", I slided a glass towards him. "Tell me about it".

"umm", Ted kept his silence for a while. 

"If you don't wanna tell me in particular then don't", I started to get hiccups at this point.

"it was my...", Ted started to wipe his corners of eyes. "it was August, I was driving back to home from a concert with my sister, and my girlfriend. We-were, uh, I was so wasted, I could hardly see. Mia--".

I Lookes at Ted. "your girlfriend named Mia". 

Ted nodded, "yes, my girlfriend. She told me to let Francia drive cause at that time the only minor was she. For which she wasn't drunk. Due to her stubbornness I even gave her a few driving lessons time to time. That day, she wanted to drive too. Mia, was on the seat beside Francia. I was in back. I closed my eyes cursing why I brought Francia with me because I wanted alone time wirh Mia that day". 

"She crashed the car, and Mia died. You must have woke up when Mia was already buried. Leaving you with your injured younger sister. You regret the fact that you let Francia drive the car-", I sounded as If I was confirmin. 

Ted sipped in the glass, "Vodka Martini". He looked at me with his expressionless eyes. 

"You regret the fact that, even after all. She; Frencia never complain about why you let her drive that night. She never talked about it after that. right". I repeated the glasses.

"Yeah", he took a few more glasses in. Wipping the tears rolling off of his cheeks. 

"I am sure, when she'll be back on her strong feet, standing infront of you. You'll man up and talk to her about it. Mia's loss wasn't on Frencia's hand either, Ted. Accept it too". I stood up fron the bar to leave. 

"It was on me", Ted said. "Its our decisions that makes our future right". 

I turned at him, "Judging someone by their bad, sometimes worst decisions should not be your Trade Mosby". 

"I don't", 

"When the someone is you yourself, the concept doesn't change too", I took a breath in. "You know, you are gonna have a good gold days ahead If you start behaving like the Mosby I met on the bar, for the meeting we had. The Bahamas guide, the grandmas boy. My savior. With everyone else so as yourself".

"What would change then", 

"Your heavy heart will get the chance to heal properly. And for the first time in forever you can forgive yourself for Mia's death". 

"I already did, when I met you. I-", Ted paused. 

"hmm",

"Natasha is the girl, Frencia wanted me to be with someone, she took a promise from me to not be alone. And when she showed her, I couldn't say anything because she wanted me to get engaged before her surgery", I stopped Ted by putting my hand over his lips.

"If Nat is the girl then be it-Mosby", I hugged him tightly. "I am Happy for you & Natasha. I am sure after Frencia's surgery, she'll be Happy too".

Ted broke the hug, holding me by my elbows. "I wanna be with you Holy". Ted waited until I say something. 

"I can't--", Ted leaned for kiss un alarmed. "You are cheating on Natasha". I said exactly the opposite I thought I would. " The same thing that hurt me once, I can't do the same to another girl Mosby". I came out of Ted's gripe when I said those words. I simply walked back into the hotel. 

I can't do this, but Nat on the other hand. She ain't faithful with Ted either. But that can't justify what I did. Why do I have to have all the complexity in my damn life. The thinking on and on until I hit my room. I went inside and changed in a cropped top and pjs. 

I gasped as I saw Nat behind. "gosh you scared the hell outta me". 

" im Sorry, but I really need to talk to someone right now", Nat came closer the balcony and we sat there under the darken sky.

"Go ahead tell me", I said to Natasha.

" I kissed all the four boys. I cheated on Ted", she said with a shaken voice.

I breath out about the fact that this girl is being honest about it, "So Trevor, Cale and Daito knows right, Ted and you are serious about this whole engagement thing".

"Yes, but I'm feeling guilty. Even Rayan was guilty too. I know you two are dating, and things are pretty serious between you guys, too. But we were wasted completely. I'm sorry Holy", Natasha started crying. 

I went in for hug, " its okay, If you're feeling guilty I am suggesting you to talk with Ted instead. I'm sure he'll get it".

"Holy, I thought you were like the buzz head, grey haired, A lined bob bitch, who hates the model type girls. I meant me", she whipped her face. And we both fell outta laugh.

"oho, that's a rough thing", I started to chuckle like hell. "well I don't hate honest vibes, so don't worry". 

"So, we are okay right?".
"Definitely, Nat! You can be assure of it. But I seriously feel the need of you, talking to Ted about this". I said sighing out.
"If I do, will he forgive me? What you think", Natasha said looking at me.
"If he loves you, he will be mad. But definitely forgive you. Don't worry".
"I guess I just needed a push you know. This was the first time, a guy, who genuinely asked me to literally get married. No false promises. But I ended up cheating on him straight", Natasha's voice shaken up so badly, I know she's gonna cry in a few second.
I held her hands, "When you love someone truly, in the end you forgive them".
"You think that", Natasha's tears were visible due to the dimmed light around us. She hugged me in, "I hope Ted forgive me, holy! I really think he's the one". 
I hum in response. "I am sure". I smiled while breaking the hug, "I think you should go and sleep, you can even try sleeping here if you like. Tomorrow's gonna be a long day". 
"Will it be okay, I just didn't want to sleep alone. Is it okay", Natasha weakly smiled. 
"Yeah darling", I said and we stood up. Natasha made herself comfortable around her while I wrapped myself with a kimono. 
"You're not sleeping? Where are you going, holy", Natasha asked.
"Umm, Just going out for... I'm just thirsty, gonna drink up some juice. I will be back soon don't worry".  Having her said that I left my room. Only to gasp out of shock, "What the hell are you doing here, Rayan". 

"I-I- Nat inside, Um",

"Just so you know, its cool, we're nothing serious so its cool for us to have different relationships with different individuals", I smiled. "Anyways, can we go somewhere... cold and probably less crowdy".

Rayan didn't talk the whole way till we hit the separate 'attached pool' in Rayan's room. "This would work right". Rayan spoke in a lower tone. I nodded as affermative, and we sat hanging our legs into the pool, sitting beside each other. 

"What's the time Ray", I asked  throwing my feet, splashing water droplets here and there.

"Two past twenty five.... You are not holding any grudge right", placing Rayan's one hand over mine he said, lowering his chin. 

I just slowly breath out and waited to be clear to myself first. "I guess I should have been angry  about it, but to be honest I'm not feeling anything, nothing at all Ray".

"I guess the impact of mine weren't enough, the whole us isn't gonna work out. Right", 

"I think so, maybe we're just plutonic. You know", I said chuckling.

Rayan started laughing, "If we're plutonic, you would have been my wife till now". And we started guffawing. "We're -not-plutonic". And I agreed happily. 

"I honestly  think this has no relatable-ness with our situation right, Ray", I bended my head over Rayan's shoulder. "I hope you're not holding any grudge towards me either, Ray". I breath out heavily.

"I screwed up, that's all I am feeling right now. Me holding grudge towards you? Neh, I can't do that to my girl. hehe". 

"Eh, your gaal. Cliche", I faked laugh. 

"Yeah right, you know you like cliche things. You just Don't wanna admit it". 

I smiled and look away. "Yeah right, you talented telepathy-can-do". 

"You like Ted", Rayan said, causing me to look at him straight away. "You do, you don't wanna admit it".

"He's not my type, Ray. Neh". I said strongly.

Rayan started chuckling, "You surely do".

I stared at Rayan's face for a while, "I don't like him Rayan. I don't, I know". I felt a shake into my vocal cord.

"You are telling me this or tryna convince yourself, C". Rayan slidely let go of my hands. 

"I am just saying what I....", Rayan placed a passionate kiss before I finished what I was about to say. 

Rayan unlocked the lips to let me continue, "you're just saying what you feel, I get that. I just did what I felt too. Now you can sue me If you want". We both laughed, my cheeks were cupped by Rayan's hand yet. 

 I smiled chickily ,"We're plutonish--weren't we". 

"Let's give it a go until the wedding wrap itself up. If you still feel 'nothing' then we can Finally kiss each other goodbye. OKAY". 

I nodded in agreement, leaning in to continue the kiss. More like, Seal the deal. The kiss went on until the view in front of us turned out to be this.

I fell asleep around Rayan's arms. We cuddled even though the sun stroked in to our bare-skin. Our nap broke when the whole boy-gang  broke into Rayan's room, with bottle of champagne and glasses. 

"Woho, who's having cardio early morning", Steven laughed out loud along with Daito, Trevor and Cale. Daito passed us the glasses.
Cale smirked, "Buddy she's still on the field until you put a ring on it. Like Steven and Ted". 
"Definitely, bro", Daito Trevor and Steven said in unison. And poured us champagne.
Breaking the silence. Ted finally said, "Yeah, right". The subtle flirtation was clear on his face. "Until you put on a ring on it, she's on the field and everyone's gonna try". 
"Cheers", I said shrugging. And we all started the day with champagne, while I kept wondering Ted's meaning, between the lines.

TO BE CONTINUED.......