To my savior,

I've never been good with words. You know that. Yet you never laughed when I stumbled over my words or made fun of me for it. For that, I'm thankful. I am thankful for that and so much more.

I was on the brink of destruction. I've never told anyone this. At night id lay awake thinking about ways I could end my miserable and meaningless life. The day you ran into me on that bridge, I lied. I wasn't walking home. I had planned to jump but you saved me. That night you saved me and every single day and night after that you continued to save me.

Our minds are so fragile. When things become imbalanced it's a constant battle against the dark thoughts that circle around your head, but you hold them at bay. These last few months, the time we've spent together, the stories we've shared have been amazing and I can't deny how I feel any longer. I've fallen in love with you. The way you tap your foot when you're concentrating and rub the back of your neck when you're nervous. Every single thing about you.

I know that you might not feel the same way about me. I understand if you don't. It may hurt but I'll survive and move on. Because of you, I am so much stronger. I know that I am smart. That I'm beautiful. That I deserve to be on this earth. I won't waste the precious moments I have on this earth. I'll continue to fight every day because I'm worth it. My life is worth living and thanks to you. I finally realize that.

Thank you, for everything.

Love,

The girl whose no longer suicidal

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My entry for to all the boys I've ever loved before contest