So this is a book where I get to vent and let out my expression and tell everything do what I am going through but if you aren't comfortable reading these stuff I suggest you leave...

A vent:

Every five seconds the moment I wake up I always make things about my self and it's only 

Useless, neglected, disappointment, 

everyone at school make things that is worser then that...the point of living is where you get to enjoy life and some stuff that other people say...I am a type of girl who is trying to stay alive and ignore the knife that is right beside me, I could have done...i could have end it all...I could have stab myself...but inside me I knew I had too keep breathing and ignore everything...of what everyone says...of what my parents says...of what I could I think past my life...but I just ignore the knife and continue knowing that better days are coming... I knew I just need to keep breathing air and everything is alright...every day when I wake up I always say that "everyone loves me...right? I think so...everyone doesn't think I am horrible and I am a punching bag...right?" I always have those thoughts when I always step into school...

I hope better days are coming when I always think of killing myself and end all of my suffering...I know people experiencing so much worser then that and I am not saying that everyone is dramatic since throughout earth...no one is dramatic...they never been and never have and they will never be...but for myself I usually call myself too sensitive and I should stop and take everyone's words about me and don't cry in the bathrooms and hopefully no one comes.

And again...I hope better days are coming...