Mahir

She is stubborn. I know that well but that feeling of not being loved is angering me to no extent such that l had to yell at her now.
A sob escaped her mouth while here l was feeling to pull my hair. She says she loves Vikram and now saying it as an infatuation! She also says it hurts her when l yell at her. All this is making me have a tsunami of thoughts. Why does it hurt her!? Why should it affect her!?

Bela-I can't!! I don't understand myself from the time l've seen you! I don't know what shit you did to me such that l am even having a war inside me!!
She said, looking at me while l was shocked. It was more like accusing and l didn't feel guilty about it.

Bela-Why didn't you come in my life before!? Why didn't you yell at my face about your feelings!!? Why didn't you....
She accused, holding my collar but stopped resting her forehead over mine.

Bela-......be possessive instead went on to take away your life!?
She asked and l looked at her. Her eyes held some sort of an emotion which l couldn't read.

Bela-I myself can't read my feelings so how can you!?
She asked, sarcastically and l sighed.

Mahir-Bela try to understand! I've moved on.... I have realized my mistake!!
I said, with no bit of honesty. Moving on is never a thought after loving her like mad but still l've to push her. I don't know why!? Is it due to my anger or my love for her thinking that atleast she'll be happy.

Bela-What Mistake did you do to realize!?? And that too YOU Moved on!?
She asked with a humorous chuckle at the end.

Bela-As far as l clearly know.... You went to your room after our conversation.... Did your shit stunt and came to the hospital!! In between how did you move on Mr.Seghal!?
She asked and l sighed looking down but she pushed my chin up making me look at her beautiful face, still with our foreheads on each others.

Bela-How did you!?
She asked and l sighed.

Bela-I know l've hurted you and l swear l am sorry.... I know a sorry isn't gonna change the fact that l am the cause of this and your imaginary heart break.
She said and l was shocked at the mention of imaginary heart break.

Mahir-What do you mean!?
I asked, calmly.

Bela-I want to give this a chance!! Us a chance!!
She whispered, looking straight into my eyes and my breath hitched registering her words. I should get my medications. I am dreaming a little too much.

Mahir-Your guilty! Doesn't mean you have to put yourself into a meaningless relationship.....
I said but in the inside l wanted this to happen. I took a deep breath, nodding in No. This won't work out when it's just asking and trying due to it. Not in the case of Love atleast.

Mahir-This isn't gonna work Bela!!
I whispered, pushing her hands off my face. She was shocked while I moved my face away from her pulling the needle slowly from my skin through which l got my saline. She hissed, concerned while l didn't give a damn about me.

Mahir's-You gotta agree... that life isn't easy.... Humans makes mistake... some leave a scar while some is a deep wound Bela!! And about mine it's a deep fresh wound which will forever reside here!!
I said, pointing to my chest.
She was about to say something before which l stood up along with her in my arms. She gasped as she quickly got hold of my neck.