Chapter 17: Without A Doubt

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~(Y/N)~

It was the next day, a rather cloudy but warm day. Andrew and I decided to go outside and walk along the shore. The cold seawater would hit our feet when it pulled back in. In my right hand I held my shoes, beside me Andrew walked.

We hadn't talked much since yesterday in the women's bathroom. My hopes for a relaxing trip was shot down when Andrew kept pushing me to be with him. I didn't want him, not like that but nothing I could say would convince him.

If only Levi were here. As we walked along the shore I soon stop and turn to look at the setting sun that peeked through the clouds just now. It made me think back to the time at the lake with Levi.

~Memory~

Levi held my wrist as he tugged me along in the woods. "Okay, seriously where are we going?" I ask.

He lets out a sigh and looks back at me with an annoying tone. "You've asked that for the tenth time... and I'm gonna keep giving you the same fuckin' answer." he says.

Rolling my eyes I start to slow down only causing him to yank me forward. "You're in a hurry." I say.

As he pushes some branches away he revealed something beautiful. It was a large lake, fireflies were out floating around while the sun was setting. "Oh wow." I say softly as I walk past him. Walking up to the waters I strip of my boots and step into the water, it was chilly but nice at the same time since it was a warmer day today.

With weeks before the expedition, I had grown a little more nervous. I don't think I'd be able to make it home before then. I hear his boots hit the ground a little ways behind me looking back I find him walking through the sand in slight disgust. "You didn't have to take your shoes off it you didn't want to." I say.

He ignores my words and stand beside me as the water rushes up hitting his feet. We stood there for a moment before I got the idea to splash water at him. Chuckling softly I watch him slowly turn his head over to me, his expression was annoyed. Thinking he'd yell at me I back away and watch as he sticks his hand in the water and flicks his wrist up. He splashed the water back at me so I kick water back at him making the bottom of his pants wet.

I laugh loudly and watch as he looks up with a devilish smirk. Turning away I start to run from him, turning my head back slightly I find him chasing me as expected. I turn and start heading the other way until he grabbed me by the waist. Lifting me off the ground he then carried me out to the water a little further than before. "No!" I giggle.

Dipping me into the water I grab onto the collar of his shirt bringing him down with me. The water pulled back as we laid there looking at each other. But moments later the water came rushing up causing me to get soaked. I looked up at Levi who was towering over me, my heart pounding at his closeness and seeing the position we were in.

His finger came to my neck and pushed the wet strand of hair away. He sighs softly as his eyes move back and forth across my face. This was like the other day with me falling from the tree. When the water rushed back in I splash him right in the face before laughing loudly. With his right hand he goes to wipe his face allowing me to roll out from under him.

Quickly getting up I turn back to find him standing up and brushing himself off. I was covered in sand and drenched. "We should head back." I say as I grab my boots. Levi nods and grabs his as well and starts walking beside me back to the headquarters.

~Memory Over~

"It's beautiful." Andrew says, bringing me back to reality I shake my head slightly and look back at the reddish sun.

"Yeah...it was." I mutter.

As Andrew stood there continuing to watch I turn away and walk on back to the house. It was getting colder and I didn't want to stay out any longer than I have to. For some time now I knew that it was going to be hard to move on... but as the days grew closer to the anniversary it was becoming more clear to me that it was impossible.

I didn't want to fall in love all over again, or give my heart to another. Since leaving Levi I felt dead inside, and as stupid as it sounds that a guy could affect me so much. It was true. Since coming back the people I used to be close to have all just annoyed the hell outta me. I began to question why I ever left Levi in the first place.

Now that I think about it I'd rather forget all this, these people, this place. I should consider myself lucky that I don't have to deal with Titans anymore but. I'd rather live in that time where I had real friends... a real purpose than spend another day here in this time.

As I walked up the stairs to the house I turn back finding Andrew still standing at the shore. These people here have no respect for me or my choices. No matter how hard I try to keep these relationships from crumbling, it is out of my hands.

~Andrew~

I watched the sun disappear behind the dark clouds. I regret the things I said, and now I've hurt (Y/N), at least that how it seemed due to her lack of words throughout today. With I sigh I look down at my feet as I draw in the sand alone in the dark.

I wanted to much to be apart of (Y/N)'s life, I fought as hard as I could but she wasn't letting in. Ever part of her was shut off and lifeless. I hoped it would be me to brighten up her life, make her happy. I wanted to love her and help her through this but she wasn't letting me. And I didn't know what else I could possibly do.

I loved her completely...wholeheartedly. Without a doubt. 

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