Chapter 12: It Was Me

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~Time Skip~

~(Y/N)~

It was a couple of days before I planned to go with Andrew on the trip. I decided only a few days ago that I should go to get away for a while, not to be alone with Andrew. Getting out of the car I walk around over to the passenger side and pull out the cat carrier holding Duchess, she would be staying with my mother while I was gone.

I watched as people came running in and out of the house. As expected since her wedding was tomorrow in our backyard. Milo had proposed a month after my return. Walking up to the front door I slip through after one of the decorators allowed me through. Then I quickly take Duchess to my bedroom to let her lose although she'd be stuck in my room until after the wedding.

Stepping in I shut my door and then open the cage door, there Duchess bolts out and explores the room. Standing up I turn away and head back out of the room, I step into the hallway and shut the door behind me so Duchess wouldn't get out. "Mom?!" I call.

"In here!" I hear her from the kitchen.

Walking up the hall I turn to the right and enter the kitchen but stop just under the archway.

~Flashback~

When we had arrived to the house she pulled up into the driveway. The house was small but big enough for her... and me. Placing my belongings back into my bag, I slowly got out of the car I stood there taking in everything. Then my mother came up from behind me and passed by me heading for the front door.

"M-mama!" I call in an unsure tone.

She stopped and turned to me shocked I had called her so. "Yes sweetie?" she asks.

I fixed the strap of my bag and looked at her shyly. "I want... to go to London." I tell her. Why was I telling her this? I could go if I wanted to, I didn't need her watching me.

"No." she says, with that she turned away and made her way inside. I quickly took off and ran after her, entering the house I immediately stop in my tracks as soon as I passed through the threshold.

~End of Flashback~

I shook my head slightly. Why am I thinking about the first day I came home after coming back? I look up to meet my mother's gaze, she had paused her cooking to look over at me and smile. "You look lovely, Andrew will be here in an hour to join us for dinner." my mother says.

I cross my arms and slowly walk towards her. "I don't think that's a good idea..." I tell her softly.

She then looks at me in confusion. "Why?" she asks.

I look at my feet then back up at her. "I'd rather just wait to see him when we leave for Scotland... he and I are just... sorta having issues." I tell her. She stops stirring the food all together and places both hands at her hips.

"And you're going on a trip with him when things aren't good? Nope- he's coming over and you'll resolve it then." she says.

My shoulders slump and look at her in disbelief. "But Ma-"

"No, he's the first boy who likes you, and I hate the fact that you're constantly alone, you don't speak to Lizzi, and you hardly are around that new therapist friend of yours. So don't 'but' me, he's coming over." she argues.

I let out a sigh then take her place in front of the stove. "You know ma, all you're doing is forcing a relationship I don't want... I just want him to be my friend."

She remained silent and I turn to find she wasn't actually in the room anymore. With another sigh I look back at the food and continue doing what my mom was previously doing. Why doesn't anyone understand that I don't want to be with Andrew?

~Time Skip~

Evening fell and dinner was being served. Andrew and Milo sat on one side of the table beside one another, after filling my plate I sit beside my mother and begin to quickly eat so I could go to my room and sleep. "This is good." Andrew compliments.

I didn't say thank you, instead I continued to shovel the food into my mouth until my mother elbowed me in the side causing me to cough, pivoting my head towards her I glare at her in annoyance before she cocks her head forward beckoning me to say thank you. I glance over to Andrew, "Thanks." I mutter.

The table fell silent as we all went back to eating. Glancing up I find Andrew staring directly at me. I'm gonna have to deal with this the whole fucking trip.

After finishing my dinner I get up from the table, walking over I quickly cleaned off my plate and spun around. "Well, I'm turning in for the night, see you guys tomorrow." I say. My mother watched every move I made, as if she was mentally telling me to get my ass back there, but I ignored her and headed off to my bedroom where Duchess would be waiting for her next meal.

Opening my door slightly I slip in then shut it again and flip the lock so no one would enter. On my bed Duchess was asleep, so I stroll over to the bag and grab out her bowl and food. Measuring it out into a small cup I pour it into the bowl and set it on the dresser, Duchess immediately jumped off the bed and onto the dresser where she scarfed down her food. God I'm really gonna regret this... but I gotta find some way to move on... that's the only reason why I agreed to go.

~Next Day~

Aside from getting everyone ready, everything seemed to be running smoothly. Walking up the carpet I go to the front row of seats and sit in between Andrew and Desiree. From the corner of my eye I could see Lizzi over on the other sections of benches on the right side of the carpet.

Some instrumental music began to play and each bridesmaid stepped out and slowly stroll up the carpet until they reach the left side of the altar. With a sigh I lean back in my chair keeping my eyes forward at Milo who was impatiently waiting for his bride.

Beside me Desiree was looking over at her husband Harry, probably reminiscing about their own wedding. Looking forward I then hear the Wedding March start to play, as it started we stood up from our seats and turn to face the bride who stood at the opposite end of the aisle. My mother stood there in all white and held a bouquet of red roses, slowly now she began to walk down the aisle as the music played.

When she finally stood before Milo, they looked at each other and smiled softly. Milo then took her hand and the ceremony carried on.

~Time Skip~

At the reception, I sat alone at one of the tables while mostly everyone danced on the dance floor. There were a few people who weren't dancing as well, like Andrew, he was sitting with some of his single buddies probably talking about guy stuff. I saw Lizzi dancing with her current boyfriend Andy, and Desiree dancing with her husband.

Letting out a soft sigh, I sip at the champagne waiting for the part to be over so I can leave with Andrew. After setting the glass down and looking back up, I watched as everyone went from partying to partnering up and slowly dancing. With a soft sigh I cross my arms and lean back only to feel someone tapping my shoulder. Looking up I find Andrew standing there in his full suit extending his hand out. I look up from his hand then shake my head. "I can't dance." I tell him.

That didn't stop him from yanking me out of my chair and into his arms. "Perfect time for a lesson then right?" he asks.

I purse my lips together then slowly nod my head knowing he wasn't gonna let me off so easily. He led me out to the dance floor joining all the other couples. As his arm wrapped around my waist he lifted me up slightly until I stood on his feet. Looking down at my own feet I wondered if it hurt him at all, before I could ask he places middle and pointer finger under my chin forcing my head up. "Eyes on me." he mumbles.

After releasing my chin he takes my free hand and starts to move us in a slow motion. I did as told and kept my eyes on him as he slowly stepped from side to side. I felt uncomfortable being this close but I didn't stop him this time. But I was in my head again, thinking about when Levi and I last danced.

~Memory~

So many eyes were looking up at me. Hanji was in the back laughing softly. "Look at those old men." she laughs. Searching the crowd for Levi I soon found him by Erwin and the judge. He already had his sights on me. He looked at me in awe as if I were some angle or something.

Quickly he pushed past people and stood at the bottom of the steps. As I reached the second to last step he took my hand in his. This time his touch was gentle and not harsh like I had known. Letting go of my hand he then set his hand on the small of my back.

People began moving again, spinning around following the beat of the music that had been placing. Levi and I met up with Erwin and the judge. "Quite an entrance there (Y/N)." Erwin says.

Pursing my lips together I stood there awkwardly. "Believe me I wasn't aiming for that." I say.

Levi pulled me toward him gentle, his warm breath hit my ear. "We're going to dance now, got it?" he asks.

Pulling my head back slightly I nod. "Excuse us gentlemen but (Y/N) and I are going to dance a little." Levi says. Taking hold of my hand he quickly led me out to the dance floor. On que a slow song began to play.

Levi's hands held my waist while both my arms wrapped around his shoulders. We slowly danced and avoided eye contact. "You know Erwin is right." Levi mutters.

Turning my head looking at him confused. "Your entrance... it was something." he says.

"Was that almost a compliment?" I tease, smirking I watch him roll his eyes.

"Tch, if I wanted to compliment you I would have." he groans.

Spinning me out slowly he then pulled me back in a little too fast. Pressed into his chest I look up at him. "Then, why don't you?" I ask quietly. His expression turned serious, his eyes trailed from my own down to my lips, seeming to almost be tempted to kiss me.

"Why would I need to state the obvious?" he asks then pushing me out slightly so we were no longer pressed together. So, much for that. As the song soon came to an end, Levi quickly left the dance floor, leaving me on my own.

~Memory Over~

I was back in reality when the song stop and I dart my eyes looking up at Andrew who was smiling down at me. Quickly now I push myself away from him and hold myself. Even now I still think about him... what must I do to move on? "(Y/N)-" Before Andrew could grab me I turn away from him and get off the dance floor leaving him there, probably wondering if he had done anything wrong. But it was me.

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