Chapter 23: One Step Closer

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~(Y/N)~

I paced back and forth in Levi's office, he ordered me to stay here while he talked to Erwin. That damn idiot... I'm gonna check his leg when he gets back here and if he refuses I'm gonna-

The door opens bringing me out of my thoughts. Turning my head I find Levi walking in, shutting the door I watched his finger press into the doorknob to lock it. I stood there glaring at him with my arms now crossed. "You broke our promise Levi." I mention.

He simply rolled his eyes and crossed his arms as well. "I did what I had to do." he says.

I let out a soft scuff. "And trying to get yourself killed just happens to be one of them?" I snap.

He took a step closer, now glaring at me annoyed I was making a big deal out of him dying. "It is my job to risk my life, so others can live freely beyond the wall." he says.

I shook my head and turned the other way. "It shouldn't mean getting on top of a psychotic titan's head. She could have broken through and grabbed you." I say.

"But she didn't, why do you care so much?" he asks me.

Why did I care so much? It's not like he did die... but he did get hurt. "I don't care-

"Bullshit, otherwise you wouldn't be nagging me right now." he talks back.

"I'm nagging you because you were being a damn idiot!" I snap back.

Levi rolled his eyes and stepped closer to me again. He uncrossed his arms and seemed like he was going to grab me. But he stopped reaching when I struck him with the back of my hand, his head turned to the side after I slapped him. I watched the spot on his cheek slowly turn a bright red. That felt good.

He let out a soft chuckle before turning to look at me again. I went to slap him again but he grabbed my wrist. With my free hand I tried hitting him but he took both of my wrist into his hands keeping a gentle hold on them.

There was very little space between us now as we stared each other down. Now I struggled under his grip trying to free myself. "Let go asshole!" I snap. I try to yank my hands out of his grip but there was no use.

"No, not until I can apologize without you hitting me." he grunts.

I shook my head and continued to pull. "I don't want your damn apology, not after being so stupid today." I snap.

His grip became tighter as he yanked me forward. "What do you want me to do huh? Beg? Because I'm not letting go until you accept it." he growls.

I was now pressed again the front of his desk while struggling to break free from his grasp. I shot him an annoyed glare and tried to pull my hands out. After a couple more seconds he finally releases but takes hold of my face.

In an instant his mouth fell onto mine, I didn't have time to dodge or stop him. I stood there with wide eyes, my arms falling to my side. He continuously pecked at my lips trying to get me to kiss him back. His lips were softer than expected, and his hands remained on my face.

My eyes slowly close as I give in and kiss him back, my arms wrap around his neck pulling him down to my level. Our lips moving in sync now, my fingers combing the back of his head. Levi pulled his lips back for an instant then pecked them softly again, he let out a soft sigh after pulling back again.

Our foreheads were pressed together now as we stood there. "Say you love me." he mutters. His hands drop from my face, I could hear things crashing to the floor as he pushed items off his desk making room. Levi's hands then grab my hips gently lifting me up onto his desk, sitting there he opens my legs and stands in between them and starts kissing me once more.

Levi let out a soft groan as he lost himself in the intense kiss yet again. He's a pretty good kisser. When I opened my mouth slightly I didn't expect him to dart his tongue straight into my mouth so quickly. I nearly pull away but his hands pull my face back in keeping me from stopping. My hands slide from around his neck, I clutch his shirt nearly unbuttoning it.

I was slowly becoming dizzy from the lack of oxygen and feeling very warm all at once. I knew I should stop, that this, this moment we were having couldn't happen again. Even if I wanted a relationship with this man, it would be short lived and could hurt us both in the end. Finding some strength to stop I pull my lips back and cover my swollen mouth.

I shot him an embarrassed glare while softly sighing. Before I could scold him, there was a knock at the door. Levi stepped back before heading to the door, twisting the knob he opens it revealing Hanji. I quickly slip off on Levi's desk and rush over to, glancing up at Levi he seemed unfazed, his face wasn't flushed. "Uh, I hope I didn't interrupt something." Hanji says.

I dart my head to her and shook my head. "No, I was just leaving." I say.

I exit it office and stand beside Hanji watching his door close. I followed her down the hall, all the way to her office. We didn't say much, when we reached her office she opened the door and walked in while I followed in behind.

Shutting the door I turn back to her and find her notebook on the desk, she had been writing the information I had given her. "Is this all we've got?" she asks.

"That's all I got with Eren... I wasn't there to watch him fight the female titan." I say. I felt bad I hadn't gotten there in time to see how Eren fought.

"What about the female titan, I do have the whole skin hardening power and her fighting skills written down." she says.

I shook my head. "That's all we've got... when we get the chance and when Eren is feeling better we can run some tests." I tell her.

She nodded and looked back down in the notebook. When she looked back up her eyes squinted a little, like she was examining my face. Walking over she looked at my mouth closely. "Do you have a rash? Or- No!"

I quickly cover my mouth, the heat rose in my face to her assumption. "So that's what I interrupted, you were making out with Levi!" she gasps.

"Shh." I hush her.

She stood there softly laughing. "He kissed me dummy." I talk back.

Smirking at me she lifted her hands up. "Hey I'm not judging, you can kiss whoever you want, was he weird about it?" she then asks.

Flustered I flash her a glare. "I don't want to talk about it... it was just a kiss." I blurt.

Turning towards the door I stop. "You know... I'm surprised Levi would do something like that... he must really like you if he felt confident enough to kiss you." she says.

"He wanted me to say I loved him." I mutter.

Hanji took hold of my right shoulder turning me to see her face. "Just be careful with him okay? He has a difficult time expressing his feelings already." Hanji warns.

Pursing my lips together I nod my head slowly. "I'm gonna go check on Eren." I tell her. Before she could question me any further on mine and Levi's complicated relationship I exit her office.

~Levi~

Picking up the items I tossed off my desk, I noticed my heart still pounding. How annoying. My mind looped the moment over and over since she had left. What was I thinking... commanding her to tell me she loved me... I'm an idiot.

Picking up the last of the items I place the tips of my fingers over my mouth. It was like she left a mark there, and the feeling wasn't going away. Standing up I set the items on the desk before turning to the door. I should apologize- No- Not for that.

Letting out a sigh I lean back on the desk, with my right hand I run my fingers through my hair in frustration. Why is everything so complicated? The more I thought about the moment the more I wanted to be around her. We both had taken one step closer, or at least I thought.

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