I WENT home after spending the night at Kelvin's. For the first time since I met him, I slept in his arms and it was everything I imagined it would be. We slept in his living room but first, we spread a blanket on the floor and added pillows and duvet. When I laid on the floor, Kelvin joined me and stared at my face and we talked. I told him of how I had been upset when he got a girlfriend and also how I cried myself to sleep when he got engaged.

"I promise never to make you cry again," he said.

Kelvin told me of how he waited for me to show a sign that I cared when I talked to him in the car after he got engaged. I remembered how he asked if that was all I wanted to say when I finished talking. He had been trying to get me to say more. We both admitted that we were equally clueless at love. I read all his signals wrongly and while he wasn't sure of my interest in him, I made things worse by saying the wrong things.

I told him about my parents and narrated one of the many stories they used to tell me at night time. It was the story of how the tortoise got his patterned shell, they said he broke it out of greed. Kelvin laughed when I finished the story and I asked about his sisters. He spoke fondly of them and I beamed as I thought of how great he was going to be at fatherhood.

When I told him about my thought he smiled. "We could start right now," he said to me, touching my tummy.

"Too early," I replied.

I stared into his eyes and touched his face. My fingers running over his brows, nose and mouth. I was finally with him; I could touch his face whenever I wanted.

"I love you. I want to spend my waking hours with you," he said.

"That'll make me the happiest person in the world," I replied.

"Let's get married."

I laughed. "What's the rush?"

"We spent so much time apart, I don't want us to spend more time not being together."

"We're together."

"I mean in every sense."

"Okay."

"Will you marry me?" he asked.

"Yes. Will you marry me?" I proposed too.

"Yes, I will. I love you so much." He stroked my hair and I kissed his neck.

"I love you also," I said.

We were still on the living room floor and I kissed him because I'd been starved for his kisses. I could kiss him at will now, we belonged to each other. We both fell asleep in each other's arms that night.

I stopped thinking of my time with Kelvin and started picking the shattered glass of lamp on the floor. The fight seemed like ages ago, it was a new beginning. I grinned and wished I was back in Kelvin's arms. He was my best person in the whole world and he meant the world to me. Being without him in the house was already giving me a dull ache in the heart. I loved and I'm loved. I wanted nothing more, that was simply enough.

I got the phone from my jeans pocket when I heard a beep, it was a notification from Kelvin. I left him in the house sleeping, he must have woken to the note I left behind. I unlocked my phone and smiled as I opened his message, it was a lengthy one. My eyes picked on, 'It's Alex I actually love' and I dropped the phone to the floor. What was I seeing? I picked the phone from the floor and read the message, thoroughly. I read it twice just to be sure I was reading correctly. It was horrible.

Kelvin basically wrote that the day before had been a mistake. Alex came back to apologize, and he'd rather be with her because he was more in love with her. He said the love he had for me was the same kind he had for his siblings. I smashed my phone against the wall then ran to the bedroom and got a suitcase.

I was tired, and done. I shoved clothes into the suitcase and went back to the living room to get my phone. I didn't know where I was going yet, but I wasn't staying in the house alone. The phone screen was broken but responsive to touch. I called Akin and couldn't speak, I just cried and cried until I couldn't anymore. He kept on asking, 'Hello?' 'Are you okay?'

I fell on the couch and hugged myself as I started crying again. I was not breaking, I was broken. I wasn't sure my heart could mend from this. I heard the door open and Akin came in. He ran to the bedroom and got a blanket when he saw me shivering on the couch, curled in a fetal position. When he carried me out of the door, I saw the hinges were off. He must have broken in.

I was placed inside the car and he drove off. My mind was blank throughout the drive, I didn't want to think. Akin carried me into his penthouse when he killed the engine of the car. I stood as I got into his apartment, everything was in white and was pristine. I followed him to the guest room and sat on the bed, staring straight ahead.

PJ came in seconds later and stood beside Akin. "What happened?" he asked.

"I honestly don't know, she just called my phone sobbing," Akin replied. "Can you excuse us? I need to talk to her alone." PJ left the room and Akin turned to me. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asked.

I shook my head from side to side. I wasn't crying anymore. I was done with the tears, I just wanted peace.

"Is it Kelvin?"

I bobbled my head up and down.

"What did he do?"

I stood from the edge of the bed and got under the covers, then curled my knees to my chest and stared blankly. Maybe, I should have believed his sister when she said those things about him. What if he played me? I was the easiest person to fool, that was me.

Akin sat on the bed and looked at me. I waved him off and he nodded in understanding. He walked out of the room and closed the door. I turned and changed my position. I tried to think of Kelvin's fault and only came up with a handful. That was the problem, he was almost squeaky clean. Not only was he a charmer, he'd flirted with me when he first got to the firm. Those were possibly the red flags, the signs had been there, I was just too stupid to see them. The door opened and Akin came in.

"Kelvin is around, should I let him in?"

I moved my head up and down. Akin shut the door and it opened again. Kelvin walked in and rushed to my side. I shifted away from him when he tried to hug me, and he looked at me with hurt in his eyes.

"Alex sent those messages. I swear I had nothing to do with it, I would never say those things to you. You have to believe me," he said.

I decided to listen to him, he wasn't making sense but I was going to listen.

"She has a spare key to the house and I never got it back. She showed me the message when I woke, she was just trying to get back at me." Kelvin sighed audibly. "I promised never to make you cry few hours ago, I wouldn't go back on my words so fast."

"How could you even believe the text?" Kelvin stood from the bed after I didn't say anything.

Was he getting mad at me? I watched him pace.

"I can't do this anymore. You couldn't even give me the benefit of the doubt. Not even a call to ask why I would send such a text." He stopped pacing and looked at me. "Do you know how hurtful that is? You would believe anything about me without even trying to talk me."

I pulled the covers over my head and closed my eyes. I couldn't hear Kelvin talking anymore. If I searched very well, I could find the peace I was yearning for. I went through so much the past couple of years and I wanted to sleep, just sleep. My mind was finally tired. I needed a break from everyone and everything.