Here's my second story for you all, I've been thinking about this story and has been stuck in my mind for about a month, lol. I hope you will all like it!

Summary:

Santana decided not to fall in love again after cancer took away the very special person in her life, but someone came and tries to knock in her heart, will she let her in?

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Just another ordinary day in Lima. I decided to get up early to start and ready a warm bath. As I was pouring hot water into the tub, I dialed the Berry residence and asked if Rachel's already awake. Leroy, one of her fathers says that he just went to Rachel's room and said she's waiting for me, so I told him that I will be in their house in twenty minutes.

After a warm bath, I immediately put a shirt on and got in to my pants, don't care what do I look like. I ran down stairs, not even bothering to greet my parents a good morning. I got into my car and drove off. As I drove to the streets, I decided to make a left turn to stop by the market and buy some fruits and flowers for Rachel.

After exactly twenty minutes, I was at the front of their porch. I knocked three times and was greeted by Mr. Hiram.

"Santana, so glad to see you again," he greets with a big smile on his face "Come in, she's waiting for you upstairs."

"Thanks!" I replied and ran excitedly to the second floor.

As I entered her room, I saw her asleep facing the other side of the bed, can't see her face. "She must have been waiting too long" I mumbled , so I decided to shrugged it off.

I walked towards Rachel and leaned closer to kiss her side forehead, and so I did. "Wake up little Rachela" I sing song.

I let out a chuckle when she didn't move. "I know you're awake." I smirked. I know her, ever since she was diagnosed of cancer, she always tries to make me cry pretending she's dead or can't see, or pretending to have an amnesia.

"I bought you flowers by the way and it's your favorite." I beamed as I arranged the flowers and put them in a vase as I went on talking . "Quinn is going to come, she said she's fifteen minutes behind me so it'll be kind of noisy in here again." I told her, but I was starting to feel something different. "Rachel?" I called. Still I didn't get a response.

And now I'm getting pissed again, I closed my eyes and sighed "Rachel, come on. Don t play with me this time." I said in a serious tone.

"I swear I'm gonna walk out on you this time." Now I'm bothered, and nervous. I can feel fear inside me so I walked to her side and looked at her face. She was pale. "Rachel?"

I shook her many times but she won't move, I hugged her and whispered "Rachel, please wake up baby." I don't want to panic yet, but the tears started to stream down my face. "Rachel!" I shouted hoping she could hear me. "Baby, please don't leave."

This time, reality came to me... She's gone. Rachel's gone. "B-baby, please try to wake up. P-please!"

"Santana?" I heard Quinn's voice but I didn't bother to look. The next thing I heard, she was shouting and calling for help.

I heard her ran downstairs and called Hiram and Leroy, she gets back and I felt her hold me. " San..." She sobbed.

"Th-this isn't h-hap-happening." I say to her.

Hiram and Leroy were stopped at the door.

"Hiram, please call an emergency. Leroy commands, and his husband replied a nod.

Leroy walks towards Rachel and felt her pulse point and started to sobbed "No!" He breaks down.

"No! no! no! She's n-not d-dead!" Santana sobbed on Quinn's shoulder "She's not dead! Please Q, lie to me!"

"She's gone, San...".

"No, no, no" I can feel my lips quiver.

"Santana!"

"Rachel."

"San, you're dreaming." and with that I realized I really am dreaming. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Leroy.

"You okay?" He asked and I just nodded.

"Sweetheart, your dad called. He wants you to go back to your house. He's begging me to talk to you." he says.

I turned my back to him "You don't want me here anymore?"

"It's not that. You can still come in here anytime. Besides you have every door keys in this house." We both chuckled and I looked back at him "They miss you too much."

"I know. But I want to stay here more and sleep in this bed." Tears fell down from my eyes.

"I heard you mumbling her name again in your sleep." He told me.

"I dreamt of her. The last time I saw her." I sobbed "It hurts so bad."

Leroy hugged Santana, "Sweetheart, you have to let her go. It's been two years."

"I know, I know. I love her too much, dad" I told him. Ever since Rachel and I became official, Leroy let me call him dad. He's very nice to us and he spoils me and Rachel a lot. With Hiram, he's very nice but strict.

"Can I stay here for another two weeks?" I asked him. After my mom and my abuela disowned me, the Berry's family are the one who catched me, they let me stay in this house, treat me like their own daughter, they give me weekly allowance, they pay for my projects, everything that parents would do for their kids. My real dad still gives me money everytime I visit him in the hospital. He's a doctor and he's the owner of the biggest hospital here in Lima. Okay, maybe I'm thinking too much.

"I'll talk to your dad. Is that okay?" He asked with a smile.

I smiled and nodded "Thanks!"

"Don't thank me, yet!" He laughed as he got up and walk towards the door.

I shook my head "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!"

"Silly, Santana." he commented and left.

I sighed and looked at the the wall clock in front of me. "Gotta get up for class." I said to myself and prepared.

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I was standing in front of my locker with my headphones on, trying to remember my locker combo to get my books when someone poked me from behind, I was startled a little and turned around.

She was saying something.

"Huh?" I asked.

She takes my headphones out of my ears.

"You are ruining the moment Santana, I was asking if you miss me?" She asked and I smiled.

"Of course, Lucy!" I said calling her in her first name.

"Ssshh, I told you not to call me that! I have a reputation, you ass!" She playfully hissed.

"Okay, okay. I miss you too, Quinn" I emphasized and smirked. "Now, did I still buckle?"

Quinn shook her head "Come give me a hug, Satan!" So I stepped closer to her and hugged her.

"Lesbos!" We immediately pulled out from hug and turned to see that person.

My eyes rolls when I see..."Puck!" I muttered.

"Come on, I missed you both! So can I also get a hug?" He asked with his Puckasaurus smirked.

"No, after you called us lesbos!" Quinn hissed at him.

"What? It's the truth! I know you got something-something for my Lezpez here," he teased and Quinn punched him hard on his arm.

I laughed at them "You both are cruel to each other." I said as I turned my attention back to my locker and put back my headphones to my ears. When I finally saw my book in calculus, I put it in my bag and turned back around to tell Puck and Quinn that I'm ready.

"Let's go gu-" I kind of heard everyone gasp. I felt pain all over my body when someone crashed and knocked me down on the floor.

I took off my headphones as I grunt in pain...

"Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry!" I heard her say. I was about to yell at her when she offered me her hand. "I really am sorry, please let me help you." I looked at her and immediately got lost in her eyes. Her eyes is Ocean blue, and it calms me better. Her face is like an angel, so am I now in heaven? Eerr, did I just threw a pickup line? She's still waiting for my hand to take hers as her other hand pulled a strand of her hair to the back of her ear. She's blonde, I never appreciated blonde before until now.

Puck and Quinn ran towards me and helped me up.

"I'm really sorry. I was following someone and she ran, so I ran and I bumped-"

I cut her off "Crashed. You literally crashed on me." I yelled at her this time, realizing that I have a reputation to protect and I just got embarrased. I looked at everyone, and I know it was me they're whispering about.

"San, calm down." Quinn says as she rubbed my back.

"Britt!" Someone who looks Asian called her.

"Mike!" She beamed and started to ran towards the asian guy. She turned around and was walking backwards "I have to go, and I 'm really sorry! I'll make it up to you... Err, San?." She furrows her brows in a very cute way.

I was surprised by myself when I replied back at her "You better be! Do not walk backwards! You might bump onto others." I smirked.

She smirked back and waved goodbye.

Quinn and Puck looked at me in amazement.

"What?" I asked as I'm confused why they are looking at me like that.

Both of them just shrugged.

As I walk to my first class with Puck and Quinn behind me, the three of us were met by Tina.

"Guys, you are back!" She squeezed each of us into a hug. "I can really say that this was a real big come back day." She beamed. I was confused a little, but then realized that we are what they called The Big Three.

"Well of course... Bitches and dick are back!" Quinn exclaimed.

Puck scowl at Quinn and I cracked into a laugh.

"Not only you three." Tina says into a serious tone.

Hmmm, what does she mean?

"Someone's ghost is back." she whispered that made me pissed off.

"Okay, that is not a very good joke Tina! Do not make any joke about Rachel!" I hissed at her.

"What? I'm not talking about a dead person." I glared at her "I-im sorry" she mumbled.

"So, who are you talking about Cohen-Chang?" Puck asked frustratedly. Well, all of us were very frustrated to know.

Karofsky came into the scene, standing behind Tina and puts his arms around her. I rolled my eyes. "What's up babe?" He asked and put a kiss on Tina's cheek.

Now I want to vomit!

I sighed "So?" I asked Tina.

"It's Brittany! Brittany S. Pierce" she says and did a make out with Karofsky. We are grossed.

"Brittany S. Pierce?" Puck mumbled. "Is that the person who bumped onto you?" Puck asked me in realization.

I think again and yeah... Some asian dude called that blonde girl "Britt" I whispered.

"She bumped onto you?" Tina squeals.

"No, she crashed on me! And what's with your tone? You act like she's kind of VIP. We didn't even know her!"

Her eyes rolls on me.

Hmmm what the fuck?

Karofsky butt in "Remember when Rachel got sick?" He started asking.

"Okay, what the hell?"

"Santana, we will appreciate if you just listen for a minute and stop rolling your eyes" Tina says to me.

"Okay, go on!" I said and crossed arms.

"When Rachel got sick, the three of you decided to stop in the middle of that school year, right?".

We all nodded.

"When you three were gone, Coach Sylvester and Coach Beiste never had a player who were exactly as great as the three of you. So they decided to add another sports".

"What?!" We all asked in shocked.

"They cut off the two teams?" I asked in high pitch.

Karofsky and Tina nodded

"They replaced them with what sports?"

"Soccer!" They both says and added "And for girls!"

"Such a bunch of lesbos!" Puck muttered just enough for me to heard him so I glared back at him.

"And I'm assuming this Brittany S. Pierce is the team leader?" Quinn arched an eyebrow.

"Correct!" Both of them answered us in unison.

How can coach Sylvester and coach Beiste decide like that so easily. I mean, they just cut off two big teams.

"But don't worry guys, I just heard coach that they're putting back both cheerios and football team since you three are now back." Karofsky says.

"Hmm, w-what about the soccer team?" I asked worriedly and as Karofsky was just about to answer...

"Well, I'm cutting off the soccer team!" We all turned around and saw the grinning coach Sylvester. "Welcome back The Unholy Two and you too Mohawk!" She pointed each one of us.

After a second, a blonde girl shows up. The girl who bumped on me earlier, yeah maybe that's how you better say it...

"Coach! You cannot just cut off our team!" She yelled at coach.

Nooo... She didn't just yelled at her like that.

"Well hello Tweedle-Dum and friends!" She greets her with her friends sarcastically.

"It's not fair to cut off our team and put back the cheerios and football!"

Whoa! Anger all over this woman's face but I can still find her very endearing. What? Uuhhm. No, I take that back.

"Well, let me cut this down to you. You never win Nationals, not even semi, and after two months you quit for whatever reason I don't wanna hear!" Coach glared at her.

"I got under surgery!"

"And got back after a year, because Oh, you got a boob job like, Santana? I see!" She smirked as she looks back at me.

"These are not fake!" I snarled as I pointed on my boobies.

"I didn't get a boob job!" Brittany shouted and now she really looks frustrated. "Soccer is my life! Our life!" She defended as she looks back at her team members sadly.

"Yeah right. If that's your life then go find another coach but I bet no one will coach you and your friends 'cause fields are for football now. But I'm still very nice 'cause I want to offer you something." Coach says twitching her lips.

Puck leaned to my ears "Do we really have to watch this?"

"Shut the fuck up, Puck!" I hissed, lowering my volume.

"What offer?" Brittany asked with knitted eyebrows.

"You tweedle-dum can join in my team and I will put you as a co-captain with Sand-bags here" she looked at me winking and looked at Quinn "And you, Lucy Caboosey will lead them again as the captain of the cheerios." She says smiling goofily at us.

"I can't cheer!" Brittany complained.

"But I heard you can dance. Just shout and you'll be fine! Go cheerios!" She let out a devilish laugh "Becky!" She called

"Yes, coach!?"

"Make sure you call our sponsors and make them deliver all the uniforms to the members, please include to the list this cat person, lezpez and preggers."

"Got it coach!" Becky confirmed to her and looked at us "Bye, bitches!" We all let out a breath we didn't know we are all holding when they left.

"How did she know that I'm a cat person?" Brittany asked, puzzled looking at all of us.

"She knows everything!" Tina says.

Oohh I just remembered Tina is here.

"Yeah!" Puck agreed.

"Brittany S. Pierce. " she says and held out her hand for Puck to shake.

"Noah Puckerman!" Puck introduced back "but you can call me Puck for short, or Pucksaurus, hmmm and I won't mind Puckzilla" he smirked.

"You have a lot of names." Brittany says as she chuckled.

Nah, she's just so adorable. How can a chuckle like that makes my heart flutter, like there were butterflies flying inside of me.

She turns to Quinn...

"I'm Quinn Fabray!" Quinn intoduced her self, grinning "Well, Lucy Q. Fabray is my whole name but I prefer Quinn" she shyly says " Umm, but the 'preggers' that coach just named me, it is not true."

Brittany simply nodded "I believe in you" she says beaming.

"Uuhh, we gotta go ahead guys!" Karofsky says.

"I'm Karofsky and this is Tina by the way" He says.

"Nice to meet you both!" Brittany beamed.

Karofsky nodded and waved good bye.

And finally...

"So, you're San? Hmm Sandra? Sandy? Sanny?" She tried to guess and let out a giggle.

"You almost got it right" I told her, grinning at her cuteness.

"Sanny?" She asked. She beamed when I nodded.

"Well it is Santana." I offered a hand shake and she took it immediately "Santana Marie Lopez but my friends used to call me Santana, Sanny, San, or just S." I shrugged.

"San is cute" she commented and I just saw her blushed. "Hmm, you can call me by my first name or just Britt, or Britt-Britt"

"Britt-Britt sounds awesome" I commented with a big smile.

For the second time I got lost into her oceanic eyes, it's very calming. "Gorgeous." I mumbled.

And then Quinn coughed. "Excuse us Brittany but we gotta go for our first class" Quinn says and smiled.

"Okay, no problem!" She beamed "So, see you around?" She asked but looking through me.

"Yeah, I guess so" I let out a nervous laugh.

Hmm what the hell? Why am I getting nervous in front of this woman.

"Okay bye!" She ran.

"Don't run! You might bump into someone!" I shouted, smirking at her.

I laughed when she really did bumped into a guy and I saw her mumble sorrys. She looked back at our direction and mouthed "I'm so clumsy!"

I giggled.

"Come on Puck! Seems like Santana is drowned with Brittany's smile and laugh." I heard Quinn so I turned and glared playfully.

"Yeah, someone is in love" Puck commented. And with that, I remembered Rachel.

No, I can't fall in love with someone. I promised Rachel that I will wait until I die and I promised that I will try to be a better person so we can both meet in heaven.

"I'm just being friendly." I said and walked out.

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After school I asked Puck and Quinn if they want to go and visit Rachel. Puck as usual, declined for a good reason. Whenever he visits Rachel in the cemetery, he can't fight the urge to cry. Rachel is like her sister. They were both born Jewish so they really understand each other. Quinn on the other hand, cries every after visit. She always wait until I send a message saying that I got back home safely before she can make a call and cries about how she misses Rachel and blaming me why she's crying. And me, every night... I just can't stop thinking about her. Yes, it has been two years but it still feels like yesterday that she was gone and I can still feel her hug, the taste of her lips, I can still hear her giggles, not like that I'm being crazy or being haunted. Rachel made a big scar in my heart when she passed away and its still hurts. A big piece of my heart was buried with her. I still love her.

Three years ago...

I was cuddling with Rachel in her bed while watching The Lion King. The movie was already in the scene where Scar pierces Mufasa's paws and taunts him with the words...

"Long live the king!" I heard Rachel in a devilish tone, copying Scar. I arched an eyebrow and giggled.

I looked back at the movie and the scene was where Scar finally let go of his brother's paws and Mufasa falls to his death.

"Oh my gosh, Simba." Rachel pouted.

"Babe, you have seen this many times and you're still getting upset?" Her head snapped at me.

"And you're not upset?" She pouted.

"I am, but it's just a movie!" I told her.

"Hmf..." She crossed arms. "Hmm... What if I die like right now? Will you get upset?" She suddenly asked and it stung.

"Of course!" I hate this kind of conversation so I tried to change the topic. "Oh, you want to go out for dinner?" I asked with a big smile.

"San, what are you going to do if I die tomorrow?" She asked me, still pushing the topic on me.

"Rachel, why are we talking about dying?" I asked her and sighed "you are not going to die" I told her and avoided her eyes.

"I want you to find another woman who can make you laugh and giggle like you did earlier, eat like a cowgirl, make you sing in the shower, and who can make snixx out but can make you get back to your sweet side in a snap of her finger" she smiles and her eyes were starting to water.

"Just like what you're doing to me whenever I'm with you?" I mumbled. "How can you say those words to me?" I asked her, still my eyes on the tv.

"San..."

I looked back into her eyes as my tears fell down "I'm not going to lose you, okay? " I sobbed "You are not going to die! Cancer can't take you away from me, Rachel Barbra Berry!" I pouted which made her smile bigger.

"You are so adorable" she says through hiccups. "I love you so much, Santana!"

"I love you too, Rachel..." I told her and crashed her into a big hug.

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Quinn and I drove off to the cemetery to visit Rachel's grave. When I got to park my car and stopped the engine, Quinn immediately hopped out and ran towards Rachel's grave.

"Hey Quinn! Help me with these basket and flowers!" I scowled at her.

"Rachel miss me already! So I gotta go ahead!" She smirked and winked.

"Bitch!" I groaned as I get the basket from the back seat and the flowers.

"Hey Quinn, you look so relax there, huh? Mind if you take this big ass basket out of my hand?" I asked sarcastically.

She shook her head "I'm fine in here."

I rolled my eyes as I get closer to her. I put down the basket and laid down the blanket.

I put down the flowers over the stone tablet as I noticed Quinn plopped down on the blanket I just fixed on the ground.

"Hey, you are not allowed to sit there!" I scowled at her. She rolls her eyes and lie down.

"Move, I want to sit!" I said.

"Your girlfriend is getting snixx on me, Rachel! I wish you'll come to her room tonight and say hi, besides she misses you so much!"

I gasp and playfully smacked her arms.

"Ouch! Now she's hurting me!" She complained to Rachel.

"Stop asking her to come and visit me every night!" I laughed this time "I'll kill you Quinn, I swear!"

Quinn laughed "So, Rachel. Santana met a girl in our first day of school!"

"Stop telling her about me meeting new girls!" I snapped at Quinn and look onto Rachel's grave "Don't listen to her, Rachel!"

Quinn laughed " what? I saw you two eye fucking each other!"

"Your words, Q!" I snapped again.

It's not funny! I hate her right now.

Quinn moved into a sitting position "I know you like her" she said to me in a serious tone. I was quite taken aback.

"N-no, w-what are you saying?" Now I'm fucked up.

"See, you're stuttering!" She pointed.

"Okay fine. I just like her!" I gave up and looked back at Rachel's grave "Babe, please don't get jealous..." I sighed.

Quinn also set her attention at Rachel's grave "You know, you gotta let her go." Quinn said to me.

"Quinn, how many times do I have to say to you that I don't want to, and I love her too much!" I kind of let it out loudly.

"San, it's because you don't! You never say you can't or couldn't!"

I sighed "Just drop it off Quinn, please?" I asked her.

"Whatever you say." She shrugged.

"Now, can we eat happily for Rachel?" I tried to smile. "I made two bacon and egg sandwiches, I have two soda and snacks!" I exclaimed as I wiggled by eyebrows.

"That's all fat!" She says chuckling.

"I thought you love Bacon?" I asked pouting and showing her my puppy eyes.

"Stop that! You look ugly when you do that!"

"Okay, because of that I'm not giving you your sandwich!"

"Give it back!"

"Whoa! Whoa!" Both Quinn and I turned around and we saw Puck.

"Puck!" We exclaimed.

"Mind if we join you?" He asked with a signature smirked.

I got confused, when I looked back to Quinn I can see she got confused too...

"Who's we?" We both asked Puck in unison.

"Puck! You gotta help me with these basket and flowers!"

I looked from Puck and looked where the voice came from.

No way!

"Oh! Hold on! Let me help you!" Puck ran towards her and get the basket out from her left hand.

I looked at Quinn and saw her looking at me while wiggling her eyebrows "Can I say, destiny?" She laughed and got up to help Brittany.

I looked towards Brittany's direction.

This woman, I can't deny that she really is something.

I looked back at Rachel's grave, tracing the letters on her grave "I will be okay, I promise."

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AN:

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