A SAD BIRTHDAY

Today is my birthday
And I'm sorry to say,
"I so much want to share
And happiness to bear
But it is a dark day
And the sky appears gray.
I'll try hard not to cry.
You will understand why.
It is only ten weeks
Since my husband did die
And those tears they do speak.
I've no vim; I feel weak.
I miss him so badly.
When I smile, it's sadly."

How can you know my fears?
Alone, after fifty years?
Gone is that gentle touch
His helpfulness, my crutch
His kindness, his affection
That constant protection.
First thing on my birthday
He would smile without delay
Reminding me, "Your birthday,"
And what, dear, is your wish?"
"Will you please cook the fish?"
And he never let me down;
When he did cook,
He went to town.
Will time ever heal
The heartache I feel?

Gail Runschke, August 19, 2016

Revised, August  14,  2017

Second Revision, August 18, 2020

Third Revision,  August 24, 2023

          Part 2

It is now four years.

They have seemed so long.

I've shed many tears

But I've learned to be strong.

I've looked to my friends

To help me through.

They've gone to all ends

To make each day new.

My heart ache has eased

But not really gone.

Memories have teased

As my life goes on.