"Sarah...listen to me...." I tried to say while she was hung on Cathy. Cathy was smirking totally like it was some competition going on between me and her...like grow up woman!

"Iris, Cathy is good.... Caths will you stay with me too?" Sarah asked her innocently.

"Of course.. is that even a question. I'm so sorry you have to go through this but you are not alone don't worry" she said tucking some of Sarah's hair behind her ears. Sarah beamed in happiness. Of course! Now who am I kidding again, how will I ask her to help me get rid of Cathy...here she made a team with her already.

"Um I think... You guys must leave..." I said hesitantly.

"Oh why....you need some dark magic to do here.?" Cathy said eyeing me her worst. What's wrong with this woman?

"Cathy......really....get over me!" I said as the blood inside me was boiling with rage.

"Yeah caths.... Iris don't do occult and stuff...why would you say that...?" Sarah said and I felt my heart swell with happiness, so it's not that weak huh... whatever between us.

"Honey you are innocent.....ask her why she can see you and nobody else...ask her?" Cathy Cathy Cathy you bitch....imma re-kill you someday!

"Oh she told me already. She was....." And I shrieked before Sarah could complete. Obviously, I had to do it.

"Iris...what's wrong....." Sarah said in a tensed voice moving a little towards me. I held my bump and faked a delievery. Cathy was looking at me tensed too. I told ya, she was not that bitch as she was being with me.

Before they could come closer to me, I heard knocks on the door. Sarah got scared suddenly.

"That.....that must be......Naomi...." I said difficultly completely drown in my acting.

"Oh yeah yeah..." Sarah said and stepped back while I acted  great difficulty in walking and opening the door. The moment I opened, everybody was outside. Naomi hurled upon me.

"Iris.....what's wrong.....are you....are you ohkay.. ?" She asked me holding my shoulders. I had to continue the act for a while longer.

"Oww it's hurts............it's hurting so much down there......." I said while they helped me lay down on the bed.

Everybody came inside the room and stood around the bed looking at me. I was so hating myself for doing it first and then I shifted it to Cathy.....that girl deserves it.

"Should we call ambulance....." Mrs.Woods said with her tensed voice. I was hoping she won't start crying again, it was too much for her already.

"Or Derek......should we call Derek....?" Jeremy said.

"Oh no no.......no no.....it's not the time.......it might be a fake call....really.... " I said before they would really freak out.

"What happened" we all turned to the door and found a panting derek standing there holding the wall looking at me. Oh lord, too remorseful now. Never leaving this man!

"Derek.." it slipped my mouth in more of a whisper. He looked at me and nodded.

"Are you......are you fine...?" He said coming to the bed and sitting beside me. For a second I totally forgot about the act.

"She got the pain...maybe labor one" said Naomi holding my shoulder and that was my cue to shriek in pain a little more. Totally bad actor!

"Call 911..." Derek yelled behind him immediately.

"No no......Derek......it's not the time....wait....." I said as I knew it would turn disaster going to hospital with me as centre of attraction.

"But Iris.....it could be true as well...." Derek said holding my hand.

"Derek.......relax......." I said assuring him a little.
Now it was time for me to drop the act.
After like two three minutes more of acting I dropped it off.

"See I knew its just an alarm one, a fake one...don't worry im fine...." I said getting back up all normally and holding his hand. Oh how much I missed that.

"Well....you got me there for a second..." He said but glooming-ly and patting my cheeks he left to gloom alone back. Am I going to fake that again? Holy yes! Why the hell not, if he is gonna stay distant like this I'll have to do it for some Pats on cheeks.
Don't worry I'm just kidding, I'm a ghost not Lucifer hah! Hope he haven't heard that please bigger god...you killed Sarah...let's make it even!!!!!

"So someone's considering me satanist huh!" My mouth left a sudden squeal when I heard this voice with gush of sudden air right beside my left ear. Darn it! He was already here. What a wrong time person.

"Uhhh-huhh. Totally wrong." He said eyeing me his total creepy sexy but more creepy sexy creepy eyes. Oh lord I'll go insane! Oh wait, haven't I already?? Yeah that's right.

"Iris...I....I think you should sleep ohkay..." Naomi said lookin at me weirdly. Of course becuase of the squeal, otherwise, I'm an amazing actor. I nodded to them as they offered thing I wanted desperately, space. They left the room assuring me to call them immediately if I feel anything weird or bizarre or let's just say, PAINFUL next time. I nodded assured. Naomi closed the door lightly and switched the lights off but once they left I immediately turned on the night lamp. Duh!! Lucifer is here...!

"I can do things in light as always..." He said while taking a pillow from my behind which made me falter a little in my comfort, I frowned and adjusted back. He, putting his elbows on the pillow more like butchering it, leant on his hand and laid his legs to my side. Oh-oh he is comfortable now, he will stare all his ways while talking and creep me out. Where's Angela.....why this woman leaves such a man alone.?

"Grow up kid....you are not worth staring...." He said making his little pathetic face.

"Baabllaablala" I mocked him by making a pathetic face myself.

"Uh-uh...you don't have to MAKE one....you already HAVE one" Lucifer said in his flaunting way and I got so angry that I wanted to throw another pillow at him but stopped thinking he would keep it and use and I'll become pillow-less. Pillows are important, save them! I just gritted my teeth and drank my anger otherwise that mister would have been gone by now. Ohkay fine..no more jokes, Serious matter it is!

"Now will you just tell me already what to do or just gonna make jokes on my face..." I said in emphasising on the significance of the things we got here, which is not my face apparently.

"Um see Sarah had to die because she saw what was unnatural and forbidden. Now, you just have to use her better way you can. And hate to say this but I'm glad you came out of some smart work and handled her nicely but...now Cathy is here too I presume and that would be difficult." He said all Seriously.

"Lucifer...do I.....do I really have to do this....I mean....I mean can't we just move away from here back to Brooklyn.?" I asked and honestly I really thought about it.

"Do you really think Derek would want to leave his family at such hours...?" He said and I felt like wow I'm a bitch..!

"Alright...so have to do it. Ohkay...go on" I said rolling my eyes.

"What do you mean go on...can't tell anything more than that." He whined like a little girl who just revealed a small part of a hidden secret and can't tell more than that.

"Oh come on please you didn't tell me anyyything..." I said.

"Now who's whiny eh?" He said while smirking.

I just looked at him with my plain face that, people have told me, looks pathetic which can make someone else go down on knees with sympathy. Yeah someone told me I look like a poor helpless begger with my plain focussed eyes. I kept staring him for a while and I could see him getting a little weird.

"Alright fine....fix your bugger face... Take Sarah on your team and dig out MORE about Cathy, you need more to get your answers, don't loose your focus...and make sure they believe whatever they are believing about you NOW...and never come to know the reality..ohkay coz that would be..the end of your game." He said raising up and throwing the pillow back at me with his last words. I was so happy that I had the smile on my face all the time.

"And about jokes on your face....." He said but I stopped before he could apologies to me because that would have been really weird, after all he is my saviour.

"Oh come on....no apologies buddy..." I said raising my hand for a hi-fi.

"I was gonna say, noone can resist the jokes iris...that's just, your face" he said and shrugged his shoulders while my mouth left drop open when he went away leaving his googy-boogy air or whatever. Hate this man! SERIOUSLY!

It was evening by now when I went outside and asked everybody, who were now in Mr. And Mrs.Woods' room, to eat something because neither them nor me had eaten a single bite since morning.

"No really we don't wanna eat" said Mrs.Woods wiping her nose for the nth time.

"Mrs.Woods (I zoomed towards her on the bed and sat there, Alex made some space immediately) I cannot even fathom how much grief and melancholy you all are in, cannot because I'm not a mother yet but trust me...im a daughter and I know how I would feel, a daughter would feel seeing her parents her family like this...not eating and crying all day. I know you can't help it, but you all have to. We have lost her which is beyond something we can ever get back but...don't you think you all still have each other who's left. Alex....Naomi....Derek....they are still here...you have to let go...if not for them, if not for you...then for Sarah because it's even more hard for her to die and even see her family suffering like this for her. I'm sorry if I spoke overboard then necessary but I'm gonna go make sandwiches, that's the best I do after cereals, I would love if you all just eat it and then throw me out of the house for ruining your mouth. Please!"

They looked at me for a second definitely thinking why Derek why, why her....but then surprisingly Jeremy patted my back and said half smilingly "put turkey with mustard, Derek loves it" and I beaming-ly nodded and left the room for kitchen.

After like half an hour I made three sandwiches, Naomi, my lifeline in this house, came in to my rescue.
"Thought I would check by" she said coming to my counter looking at it.

"Oh yeah yeah...made three of them already...how fast am I" I said and rolled my eyes in a sarcastic way.

"Yeah right...now move let me do it we all are starving since you reminded us that we are......STARVING" she said and I looked at her and left the counter.

"Easy lion...well im almost done with this one...can go next. I'll go take these for Derek upstairs you make more. And hey Naomi......please tell others you were in loo and I made them.."
She chuckled and nodded in agreement. I saw her, she was really fast...like a pro or something. Bravo! Naomi the sandwich girl.

I put all the four sandwiches in a plate and little ketchup in a small bowl and left the kitchen.
Reaching to his room, the door was closed but wasn't locked so I opened it trying my so best that it won't produce any broken violin like noise. I found the lights off but the light from outside was enough for me to see through. The room was empty until I looked on the downleft of the bed where I found Derek sitting with his knees curled up and hands hanging over them. His head was straight but then he laid it on the bed staring the ceiling. I walked slowly towards him putting the plate on the bed so that if he gets angry, he couldn't harm my sandwiches.

"Derek..." I whispered. He didn't even move his eyes. He was so lost in nihilism that it didn't matter for him. Honestly, that's what I was dreading from a long time that once he will know there's no hope of Sarah coming back....he will loose all and everything will turn down nihilistic for him. I slowly and silently went near him and sat beside him, couldn't fold my knees up because of my bump but I spread my legs wide and put my head on his shoulder.
He shuddered immediately and I moved my head away from him immediately. Looks like a touch is all he needs.

"Iris...what... What are you doing here.....do you need something.. ?" He said looking at me panick-ly.

"Yes...yes I do need something... actually alot  to ask right now but I need it Derek" I said holding his hands. He was still in panick and confusion.

"Look Iris I can't drive back to Brooklyn...please ask Alex if he will drop you...I know you are not comfortable here especially after all this happened..." He was saying stuffs and I just nodded my head and clasped his mouth shut with my hand.

"Derek....you....you is all I need and as I said, I know it's alot to ask right now but no....I can't see you going all lost in the void and hopelessness. You is what I need" I said while he kept staring me. His eyes were little red because of the lack of sleep but not wet or baggy which meant he hadn't cried yet.
Sometimes people get so shocked with the trauma that their brain doesn't know how they feel and it can't just send the message to their tear fountain which makes them not cry. It's mostly because the shock, the unbelievable-ness makes them just not feel anything. They don't shut it off or stop themselves from crying.....they just get lost in the trauma so much.

I unclasped my hand from his mouth and cupped his cheeks softly. He loosed the creases in his brows which meant he was getting what I was saying but he wasn't responding anything. Still not feeling.

"What....what has happened iris...we were happy and now....now suddenly all I can think about is dea.....death and....void.....and....nothingness......
What's.... what's the point of.....of life.....when we just...loose it...someday or...or see someone else close to us loose it.....right in front of....in front of us.. what's the point.......all this money all this happiness...when it's all taken...someday..." He said and I went empty and dry. What's the point!
We loose lives over it, I lost mine and now Derek is questioning his..Sarah lost her's. This question really meant something. What's the point actually.
One and half month ago, I was at the same pedestal but now even though I had no answers but my vision was changed for sure.

"Well I don't know. I don't know why bigger... I mean God makes us his puppets and leaves us to the ground and then suddenly one day takes us back to his box but Derek.....maybe the point is to remember that loosing is way less significant than having somebody. It indeed comes with tons of beyond repaired grief and breakage but, you still have memories where you can remember her and laugh about it. You might remember holding her when she was little and that unforgettable joy.....perhaps that's the point.
When I got to know about this baby, I was surely thinking of it as my hell but time passed and one day I found a guy who loved me and my baby more, who brought me his home and announced to everybody that this baby totally belongs to him...now that I think of my guy's face when after few weeks I'll give birth to another puppet of God in this world field.....I can't think of anything else but his joy, my guy's face and his happiness of having a baby of his own although he dumps me later.....perhaps that's the point don't you think. The God, he gives us a chance to live Derek....what is its worth if it's never ending..?"

He kept looking at me and then perhaps he remembered all those memories with her or what but he surely realised that having her was more important than loosing her and it just made the nothingness go and grief take in. He shed his tear. I hugged him and practically hid him around my chest, he cried on me. I felt so proud of myself for making him cry.....oh no not that way.....god when will I learn writing.

"Um....just so you know.....I made sandwiches for you.." and he wailed louder. Would have thrown him away if it wasn't about his sister, but ohkay I just showed him my generosity, can't ruin it so fast.

"Turkey and mustard baby.....eat before you look like a hobo" i said singing the words while he kept hidden away from my sandwiches.

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Shruti!