pain and suffering

-I feel like crap rn.

-Pratically everyone I meet thinks I'm a girl-- but thats not the point, the point is I tried to draw myself but I-- MYSELF-- ME, drew myself like a girl.

-I mean if you look at this you would think "wtf thats a girl" and so now I think I'm just torturing myself!   I mean-- I dunno maybe it's because I have Asian eyes or maybe because I have long hair????   I DON'T EVEN LOOK AS SIMILAR AS HOW I DREW MYSELF >:v (myself word count: 6) which is why I'm posting this ._.

-WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF???????????????????????????? 

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