I have made a few smiles today. I learned the Latino / culture, being introduced to what they do. I tried talking to Zaine today, but that's ok. I would like to know more about it, I would have told you about it, and he told me he would not have told me if he knew that I would have a panic attack. I told him it was fine, and I take things to heart too much than my liking. I also told him about my tiny crush on Marsh. I do not know why, but I did not know why. I also told him about the things happening in California. The surprising thing, though, is that he asked me how I thought how well I kissed. I actually had no idea, so I gave a scale and a five since I did not know how well I kissed. I did not know him, I was pretty good at giving him hickeys and also kiss him. I feel like I'm stuck in my life with my own heart and mind. I do not know how long my so-called "crush" on Zaine will go for, but, I hope it lasts forever.

-Nikki Greul

Poem # 3

I'm swimming,

Drowning purpose.

I'm smiling,

but I'm frowning.

I am showing companionship, 

But I want a relationship.

Why can not you see?

I'm screaming my love for you,

But it falls on deaf ears.