When I appear into my reflection

I see someone I can not recognize.

In my eyes, change is not a good thing.

People say it's good to feel 'okay'

They say it's good to feel "better"

but I am not okay.

all I can feel is uncertainty

and uncertainty is not okay.

empty is not okay.

what I am feeling must be

A deeper stage of pain

that I no longer can feel or tolerate.

I don't know who I am.

or what I am.

but I know I'm feeling uncertainty

and this feels like h e l l .

What do I do to feel m y s e l f again?