it was years ago

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it wasn't months or days

it was years.

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you invalidated my feelings
and constantly made me
question myself.

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you took control of my
decisions and tried to
supress my emotions.

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is it really that bad to love?
you made me feel like a
criminal.

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you made me feel like i
truly did something
wrong but; in reality
i chose the best choice.

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i chose love.
a love in it's purest form.
a love you could never have.

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i grew to hate you over the years.
at first; guilt
then; hate.

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you always tried to feel
more superior than me.
you always tried feel
like you were in power.

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i was soft.
i let you step on me.
because you played as
if you was the wounded
one and that i was the bad
guy.

but in reality; i wasn't

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you have caused anger to
build up and up and up

and i can't help but
acknowledge your presence

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because our conversation is unfinished.

there are still things left unsaid.

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but i know that you blame me,
you accuse me and judge me.

everytime i am around.

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but no matter what
you could never get what i got.

never. so why envy me?

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you said you were my friend
but really you were the enemy.

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every memory of you, every word you spit out of your mouth, i just want to rip my hippocampus out and drown it.

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do you see my rage?

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i wish you'd get out of my sight.

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...

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