Since no one will read this any way I gonna talk about my day. Life is ruff to say the least. I struggled threw the day. Everyone thinks my life is fine and dandy. It's not. I was at work today and I couldn't help but feel sad. Withing the first 30 minutes I was thinking of doing bad things and this carried threw out the entire day. I dont know why I am being like this again, but it sucks and I dont plan of commiting sudoku or attempting ever again. I want to be murdered and have a mystry around my death, but there are rough days of hiding it. I have to admit that I dont belong anywhere. I have 4 friends, my bestfriend is a dog, I dont trust my family, and I am a hopeless romantic. Today I asked my friend, "Do you believe is soulmates" they said yes and I said, "I kinda do, I want there to be someone like me out there...." and that's where the genuineness stopped. I do want there to be someone like me out there. I want there to be someone who understands. I mean I have friends and all (they all say I should go to a therapist), but none of them will understand what it is like having cyclic. None of them will understand what I think or why I do something. So, yeah. I think that's all. Cya