Love is one of those things I have to take practical, but it so hard because I want to just dive in. My experiences have told me otherwise... I just want to take the risk and not be so shy and just kiss the one I love. I want to jump and hug them. I want to put my forehead on theirs and not feel conscious about being close with them. If I don't take any risks, I may loose them, but my chest swells, I can't find my bravery and courage as they are tucked away in a cage...

I take love in a practical way so I don't get hurt, but I just want to swim and not fear drowning. Pros and cons, overthinking and crying, jealousy and distancing. That's all I've ever done.

I want to believe them, but it's so hard when they don't show any of it, when they don't tell me and hold onto me without a care... I just want to free myself and take the risks...

God, I've never been this way about someone before and I don't know if it's a good thing.