Life is so strange. It's going to give you hurdles which you think are impossible to cross, and when you do cross them, you'll know why that hurdle had to come your way. You're always going to learn things the hard way. Slowly, it will all start making sense. Don't rush into it.
And if it doesn't make sense already, learn to be patient. Maybe that hurdle hasn't reached its end yet. Don't forget to evaluate yourself through the whole process. Don't just focus on finishing the hurdle, because that wasn't the whole point of it. Focus on learning from it. Focus on discovering yourself from it. And when you finally do, the hurdle too will have fulfilled it's purpose and would have gone before you know it. It'll all make sense and you'll know a little bit more of what you are and what you are becoming. Just like the moon changes its phases, you do too. And it is necessary to take a moment and know about how you are feeling and what you should do about it. And when you come to 'know' yourself, you'll realise millions of things which you never gave a thought to. So spend some time with yourself and let your thoughts surprise you! :)