》my feelings are officially messed up《

"Starting today, you are my girlfriend! You are mine. Do you understand that" I let out chuckle before pushing him on the couch behind him. I sit on the teapoy opposite to him and begin to wipe his bloody face with the wet wipe I found in Lilah's closet.

"Answer me" he demanded coming closer. Seriously uncle Jeon needs to do a check up on his own son instead of menacing his other patients like me. "I don't know what's going on, but I am leaving to your house, come back soon" Lilah apprised while going out of the room with a huge ass bag on her back.

We had planned to stay at our house the night before the trip. And once again why trip and Jungkook are more important is because Aunt Jeon was the one who planned the road trip, along with arranging us a beach house near the woods, with a great view.

If they come to know about this, it will take only second to cancel the plan. I huff before pulling out a foundation from Lilah's makeup pouch. "I asked you something" he hissed grabbing my hand and also my attention.

"What's wrong with you? And no thanks I don't want to be your girlfriend" I protested applying some foundation to obscure the bruises. "Why! I am hot, rich, cool and sexy don't you know?" He boasted. How egocentric is this man. "I don't like boys" I naturally responded to make him shut the fuck up but I was totally wrong.

"Are you gay?" He gasped. "Yes I am so what?" I ask, putting extra pressure on his bruises just to make him groan in pain. "I know you are straight and just accept me as your boyfriend alright. I'll make you happy" dear lord I don't think I deserve this kind of punishment, why didn't you make this boy Mute. I hope you are regretting your decision.

"I don't need you to make me happy" I scoffed while he hauls me by my wrists, making me sit over his lap, our faces just an inch away. He shifted closer, brushing his lips over mine, sliding his hand to my waist and grabbing it tightly, I gasped by the arrogant way of having me by his side.

"Yah! I told you, I don't want to be your girlfriend" I bleat shunning the fact that his lips were so close that if I move I'd literally kiss him. "From the day I saw you, I....have had fallen for you. I have this urge to make you happy, see you happy. I wanted to be by your side all the fucking time and when I saw Amber kissing you, I couldn't help but to punch his damn face. I know I can't force you but...from today on you are my girlfriend" he completed leaning back on the couch.

This feels inappropriate, me sitting on his lap while he is staring me, I feel bare. He is a nice guy, if I was some normal girl with a habitual future I'd have patently tried dating him but realizing the currant situation I can't risk his life nor could I let some boy break my heart...again.

"I am gonna act like this never happened" with that I got up, well I try to get away from him but his hold on my waist is real tight that I can't even move. This is actually hot.

"Aerin-ah, you can't get away from me" he said in a dangerously low voice. "Neither will I ever let you go" he continued. "I don't know what's stopping you but you are gonna end up with me no matter what" he bragged before leaning forward. He then slipped his hand at the back of my neck, tilting his own head he moved closer until our lips connected.

Before he could deepen the kiss I shove him "Jungkook, I can't do this" I mutter finally getting away from him. He sighs before leaving the room. I follow him by locking the door and going downstairs.

When we reach the entrance of the dorm, I saw Taehyung throwing his bags inside his car, I think he is going to my house. Instead of following Jungkook to his car, I bolted towards Taehyung, who the fuck wants to be with the man who just forced you to kiss him. Not me.

"Where are you going?" He shouted when he saw me walking away from him. I sigh getting inside Taehyung's car without asking him. "Are you gonna go with him?" He asked before I could even close the door.

"Fine let me come with you" he groaned when I didn't answer. "Jungkook!" Taehyung snapped pulling him back. "Leave her alone" he sighed pointing at Jungkook's car and I am so grateful. Jungkook did as he was told, he walked to his car and waited for Taehyung to start his car, when he finally did, Jungkook followed us to the road.

"I think you should let it out" Taehyung mentioned when I didn't utter a single world since I got in. "I don't want to talk about it" I whispered. "If you keep everything packed inside of you, don't you think you'll just explode? Like boom" he stated, emphasizing the Boom.

"I am okay with that" I reply and the car went still. It was quiet until I "he confessed"

"Wha-"
"He kissed me"
"Daebak-"
"He asked me to be his girlfriend!"

"And?" He waited for me to continue. "And I don't want to be his girlfriend" I yelled in frustration. "Oh wae?!!" He questioned. "Why can't you people just listen instead of questioning me like what the hell is wrong with you all" I fumed making him jump.

"Yah calm down" he frowned. Jungkook was still following us and I can't believe I am go on a road trip with him for 10 freaking days. "He loves you" Taehyung started after a long break. "Excuse me?"

"Jungkook, he loves you, very much" he begins.
"The day you came to our college, he wanted to be near you, everywhere you go. When he first found out that you were in Spanish class, he wanted me to sign him up in that same class so he could stare at you all the time. On the day you disappeared from the hospital, he got so mad that he nearly killed the officer who was in charge of your case, he so badly wanted to run to you, search for you inspite of having no idea where you have gone. I've never seen him that miserable. His feelings for you are true and also you have every right to be mad at him. I am just asking you to think about it and stay calm alright, and know that he will never ever hurt you" he finished holding my hand.

Okay now my head is messed up.

After parking the car, we got inside my house, immediately blessed with the tang of grilled chicken along with the sound of giggles. I see Val, Lilah, Aecha and Aria baking something with Jia and on the other side I see Eugene playing his game with Jimin and Jhope. "TOOK YOU LONG ENOUGH!" Aria growled as soon as she saw me.

"Sorry, caught up with something" I answer uneasily as Jungkook was right behind me acting like nothing happened. By the way Aria is glaring at Jungkook looks like Lilah have told her something.

"I am gonna boil your brain, just wait and watch" Aria grunted right on his face. "Kids, come on in, the dinner is ready" Mum calls from the kitchen. Why so soon? It's just 7 in the evening, I thought. "We have to leave early in the morning and our bulldozer brother and his bulldozer friends are hungry, so they prepared the dinner early" Aria explained dragging me into the kitchen.

"Jia taught us how to bake cookies" Aria grinned pointing at the cookie tray. "Try them" she says bringing the tray to my face. I swithered before picking up a cookie, realizing that Jia was the one who guided her I quickly take a bite without worrying about her amateurish skills in cooking. And the cookie, that was damn amazing.

"Omg, did mum and dad tasted this?" I questioned thrusting the whole cookie in my mouth. "Yess, and they loved it" she jumps. "We've made like 3 boxes of them, for the trip" Lilah smiled showing me the neatly packed cookie boxes. As soon as she mentioned the word 'trip' I realized that I never got time to pack my bag. "Have you guys packed your bags?" I asked. "Yes, I have packed your bag too, don't worry" Aria imparted. Great. Perfect.

We sat down on the dining table, to quickly finish eating and then go back to sleep, so we could get up early in the morning. We have to leave at six in the morning, because the place we are going is 15 hours away and our parents clearly doesn't appreciate us driving at night time.

"It's good to see you kids here" Mum remarked while serving us some lasagna. "Yeah, you guys should come often" dad agreed sitting on his chair. "While we are here, let's share something good that happened today, shall we" uncle Jeon started.

"I am so happy that I learned to bake cookies" Aria boomed out of nowhere.

"I am glad that I taught you guys how to bake" Jia grins from ear to ear.

"Even though I was confused on which outfits I should pack, I am grateful for the arrangement you guys made for us" Val said.

"I am so happy that Jin, Suga and Namjoon hyung aren't coming" Jimin laughed.

And I didn't wait for my turn, what good happened today anyway, oh yeah, Vilina.

"I am so happy that mum made lasagna" Eugene said with mouthful of food.

Then it was my turn, dad stared at me, waiting for me to say something. "I had Vilina arrested" I said proudly to which he smiled at me. And it was Jungkook's turn, but, why the hell is he sitting next to me.

He took a glance at me before "Aerin and I are dating" he revealed. And the room went quiet until "WHAT?!!" shouted Aunt Jeon. And she looked happy? "No we aren't-" I was cutt off by her "I am so happy for you both"

"Wait a damn second, my babygirl is so young to date" dad protested. Oh my god yes. "Oh come on Grey, they are mature enough don't you think" uncle Jeon beamed. "What? No! She is still a baby" dad argued looking at him in shock.

They continued arguing while Jungkook just smiled like a freaking clown he is. I am fully convinced that he never graduated kindergarten. "I hate you so fucking much!" I grunted poking his thigh with the fork. "I love you too babygirl" he smirked eating his lasagna.

Dad kept glaring at Jungkook the whole dinner, and uncle Jeon kept scolding him to quit staring at his son. Mum didn't even utter a single word while Aunt Jeon started making plan for our future, from our wedding to our kid's name. Just cool.

After the dinner I went to my room, that's were Aria and Lilah were going to sleep tonight. "Why didn't you tell us that you were gonna date him" Lilah chuckled rolling over my bed.

"I am mad at you for thinking that I could date that douche bag" I sternly stated. "Alright alright but the way he announced at the dinner made me choke on my food and I have chugged 5 glasses of water and I am bloated" she whined.

I slapped my forehead before going to her "can you please hide the bruises on Jungkook's face tomorrow" I requested.

"And Aria can you say something, why are you so quite." I questioned when she didn't utter a word since the announcement.

"Give me a break, I am just recalling what happened at the dinner" she says closing her eyes. "Whatever happened that's not true so stop it and come to bed, we have to wake up early" I scolded dragging her to bed.

Next day- [1-Mon-Aug]

05:55am

"Did you guys pack your brush and paste" mum asked while taking our bags outside. "Do not remove your coats, how come it's freezing to death" she shrieks running back inside.

"Don't skip your meals and stop by places regularly and make sure to call us" Uncle Jeon affirmed. They've literally downloaded a tracking app in all our phones to track us 24/7.

Dad have rented us a mini van, and Jungkook and Taehyung will be driving that. Along with the mini van, Jhope and Eugene will be driving their cars. It's a 15 hours long drive to our destination and just a mini van isn't enough for 10 human beings.

After an another long note from our parents they finally let us go. And just like that we are on our way to everywhere. I am gonna freaking enjoy this because the greatest part of a road trip isn't all about arriving at our destination, instead it's all about the wild stuff that is gonna happen on our way.

As soon as Taehyung started the van, Aria went to sleep, saying that she wants to save energy till the time we arrive. I am just gonna watch the others from the backside of the van.

"Eugene-ah you look ugly!" I shout not realizing that I was disrupting Aria's sleep. "Is it? But you look hot sista" he screamed back making Aria whimper.

"What's the other hottie doing??" He laughed. "Well, the other hottie is sleeping like a fat cow she is" I yelled. "Yah Jimin! I thought we were saving the cookies for the next 5 to 6 days" I questioned when I saw Val and Jimin stuffing their mouth with those delightful cookies.

"Oh I was planning on making some when we reach the house" Val winks. I clearly see their mini date in Eugene's car. Behind his car I see Jhope irritatingly driving the car while Aecha and Lilah were busy chatting, I mean barking at eachother.

"Yo Jhope, you doing alright man!?" I tease gaining a scowl on his face. The highway is dazzling and cloudless, I throw away my jacket because that thing was making me sweat in this weather. I let my body feel the cool hair.

Taehyung was driving the van a little slower than usual, there were bumps and he kept glancing at Aria who was busy sleeping and this looks like he doesn't want to wake her up. Just nice. I wish Jungkook was like him. Ew what the hell Aerin. My mind is actually messed up. "Can he go any slower than this?" Eugene complained jumping in his roofless car.

"He clearly doesn't want Aria to wake up" I yell gaining his chuckle. I closed the back door of the van and went inside to the driver's seat. "The thing is, if you go in this speed, I don't think we will ever reach at time" I groan sitting next to Jungkook. "This is a fucking highway bro, drive faster" I whined stomping on the accelerator.

"Want some babygirl?" Jungkook spoked handing me his banana milk. Taehyung let out a chuckle until I glared at him to make him shut the fuck up. "You, don't even talk to me and quit calling me that" I demanded snatching the drink from him. I feel like the worms are growing in my skin whenever he calls me that. Argh...

"Sure honey" he chuckled. I chugged down the milk and this made me more hungry, I don't see a single restaurant or any shop here, and I don't want to finish up the food which we bought for the trip.

"Why is there no shop or a restaurant?I am hungry" I fretted caressing my stomach. "There is one, 10 kilometers away, let's stop there for breakfast" Jungkook mentioned scanning the large paper map. "10 kilometers away? That's so far, I'd literally die until we reach there" I groan leaning back on the seat.

"Here, have this" Jungkook taunted handing me a small box. When I opened it, I was freaking blessed with a yummy looking donut. My stomach starts rumbling in excitement by the smell of this donut. I've never been this happy in my life. "Omg!! A donut?!! I love you so much!" I beamed before taking a bite and instantly my hunger died.

"I- I mean- I love- the donut" I muttered quietly going back inside. God, I am such an idiot, what the fuck is wrong with me, I am so freaking embarrassed, an empty stomach with a hungry feeling is one of the dangerous thing in this entire world.

"I love you too" Jungkook screamed. "Oh shut up!" I groan going back to open the back door.

We have stopped the car infront of a restaurant to have breakfast, "what'd you like to eat" Taehyung asked Aria who was half asleep. She nearly tripped while getting off of the van. "What do you have?" She questioned yawning. "Pancakes, waffles, sandwiches and juice" he replied carrying her inside the hotel.

"How can they be this cute?" I gasp, wiping my fake tears, as I realize that they have met their soul mates. "I am so-ahh oh my-" I screamed when Jungkook picked me up in his arms just like Taehyung.

"You don't have to be jealous baby, I am here for you" he smiles brushing his lips over mine. "Jungkook! Stop kissing me and put me down I am wearing a freaking skirt for lord's sake" I sigh trying to fix my skirt. "We are almost there" he tittered making me sit on a chair.

"Just so that you know, I hate you so as my sister's boyfriend" Eugene disclosed before pulling out the chair for Lilah and Aecha like a gentleman he is. "Even though I know this isn't real, you both look cute" Aecha honestly announced while sitting down.

Since it was breakfast time, they only got pancakes, waffles, sandwiches, juice and milk. Jungkook brought us milk before the actual breakfast. And I can't enjoy my breakfast if Aria keeps snoring like this.

"Aria, wake up, drink your milk" I whine and in the mean time, Taehyung was adding crushed kit kat in her already chocolate milk. "That's enough, she is gonna get Diabetes" Eugene complained stopping him from adding more. "Oh is it?" He frowns before mixing.

"Yumm, it's amazing" I moan chewing my chicken sandwich. "Taste this" Jungkook feeds me a spoon of his spicy vegetable pancakes.

"Woah, that's great" I gasp with a mouthfull of food. I make him taste mine just when Eugene captures this moment in his phone. I shun thinking why would he take my pics, he hates it whenever Aria and I ask him to click pictures. Well it's not our fault either, when we ask him to take a pic, like take millions of pictures, from different angles but no he isn't that kind.

"Should we get some more of these? We can eat in van while watching some dramas" I question Jungkook who was still facing me. "Absolutely" he agrees calling the waiter.

"Weren't you both fighting? I mean I heard it" Eugene teases before paying the bill. Yes we were so what? Back then he was being a nincompoop and I was hungry, right now I feel good, I feel happy and he is being kind.

Even though he was being rude and dense yesterday, I really love having his company, I realized that when we had dinner and watched movies and then slept together in the same couch.

Nevertheless I appear frustrate, I eventually end up wanting more however I cannot have more. I deserve it though still I can't risk anything, I cannot fucking let anybody hurt my only family.

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By 10 human beings I mean [Jk, Aerin, Aria, Tae, Eugene, Jimin, Jhope, Aecha, Val, Lilah]

Eugene's Aesthetic ❤