》Alexa turn my feelings off《

Chae won's mother along with copious amount of people are over the hospital, protesting and asking justice for Chae Won. Her mother truthfully articulated that she wants me dead or she will kill me herself. I admit that she is vexed but why kill me? They got no actual testament against me.

College website is blowing up with this pseudo news of me being the homicide. What in the world are they thinking. Honestly they are just jealous of me because I am the new girl, the principal's daughter and they think that I'd effortlessly get way from this murder. I wanna go back in time where everything was just fine.

"You bitch!" Somebody cried out outside my door. "Come out you fucking murderer" I think it's her mother, it does sound like her. They are gonna keep saying this until they find the real killer.  They couldn't get the CCTV from that area as the electricity was shut down and it feels like that was premeditated.

Nonetheless Ms.Emi have proved me above suspicion, Chae won's family doesn't believe it or give up. No mother would give up but this damn woman needs to chill. Out of nowhere the door slammed open and she entered ditching the officers on her way. "Hey..."  Mum groaned when she was pushed on the floor by Chae won's mother.

She grabbed my hair which caused the stitches to expand, I try to hold her however she dodges my hand. "I didn't kill her can't you fu▪king understand?" I yawp trying to push her with my body although she wouldn't move, she just stood there like a steel wall. Jungkook attempted to move her away still she refused to leave me so he poked her hand with the needles he found in the dust bin.

She was kicked out as soon as Jungkook pulled her. Mum groaned in pain while dad helped her stand up. Aria and Eugene are looking at me defenseless. Aunt Jeon checks my injured head while Jungkook is locking the door. And everyone is fu▪king exhausted just because of me. Just so fu▪king great. I can't see them like this, if everything is happening because of me then I'll just leave.

Jungkook brings me dinner just when I was about to text Ms.Rene. "Eat up" he kind of groans. Sounded like he was being forced to bring me food. He went out as soon as he kept the tray on my lap. What the hell? I didn't even ask him to bring me food. Rude bitch. I take my time and text Ms. Rene.

•I want you to get my plane ready,
At the international airport.
 Asap!!

•Yes ma'am

Great. I like how she doesn't question me like my other staffs at my house. I am alone in my room, everyone's out dealing with my other hitch. The press, the protest, her mother, college website and so on.

Ms.Rene calls me asking me to be at the airport in an hour. Sneaking out when all the people from the entire planet is here right infront of the building is going to be immensely complicated.

"Hey, where are you going? Just stay in you've already caused enough" Aria's frustrating tone stops me. I just stare at her dumbfounded, does she even realize what she is saying. Why in the hell are they even mad at me when I didn't do anything. "Going to the bathroom" I reply before walking away.

I let out the tears. Tears which I know will never stop. Maybe I deserve to be hurt this way. No, I fu▪king don't, I haven't done a single thing, I haven't hurt a single fly in my life and I do not deserve to be hurt whatsoever. I didn't raise and move along with my past to get into new mess.

I am a strong woman, everything that's hit me in my already jumbled life, I've dealt with on my own. I have cried myself to sleep, picked myself back up and wiped my tears. I have grown from things that were meant to shatter me. I get stronger by the day and have myself to thank for that. It still hurts but guess what...I am used to it.

I wash my coat which was soaked in blood on the collar side, my tshirt is ruined as well but I got no time for mourning over it.
"Noona, are you okay?" I hear an unfamiliar voice. When I turn around I saw a little boy standing few distance away from me. "Why are you crying?" Well where do I start?

"Here eat this, everything will be alright" he handed me a toffee. "Thanks" I sniffle kneeling infront of him. "If you keep crying monsters will come and take you when you are sleeping" he wipes my never ending tears.

"Jinjja?" I gasp, he doesn't know that monsters have already taken me, ruined me, destroyed me. "Ye noona, I am going to bed, let's talk Tom, my room number is 29, next to yours" he says before leaving. I ignored the fact that he used girls washroom. Just when he left I saw some workers coming up from the stairs, that must be the fire exit.

I am successfully out of the hospital. I need to go to the airport before I get caught. Even though I am alone I feel like I am being watched. I get into one of the taxi which was parked near the back gate. "To the airport please" I say as soon as I get in.

"How much time will it take?" I ask the driver when Rene texted me saying that my people are waiting for me in the airport. "It will take just 20 minutes" he made known before starting to drive.

The pain is unbearable, the cut is right behind my ear and its stinging, it wasn't paining few minutes ago, I realised that it's not the pain but who it came from. I wonder why I feel I am being treated like an enemy in a place where I am supposed to  be welcome. So lonely in places I didn't even know existed inside of me.

Nobody have called me or texted me, I think they didn't even get into my room. Do they even care? I think they do, but part of me thinks they don't. If they come to know that I am gone will they cover for me? I hope they don't.

I should have never started something new here. I should have never come here. I've been causing trouble since I landed here, new start my foot. I fucked my way into this shit and I'll fuck my way out.

Just like every night, I will lay on bed telling myself it will be fine. Sometimes I feel like no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I give, I will never be good enough for anyone. Being alone with your feelings is the worst because you have nowhere to run. They are here dancing in your mind and all you can do is handle. I just wonder how can emptiness be so heavy. I hope tomorrow is the day where it feels like I am not falling apart anymore.

I pay the driver and enter the airport. As soon as I enter, my people approach me. "This way ma'am" one of them says. We walk in the VIP lane, yes VIP lane and I fucking don't know how and why. And these people are my bodyguards.

Apparently most people want me dead so Rene sent them, if I have to leave alone. Other than that two of my bodyguards keep an eye on Aria and I without us knowing. "Oscar, I want you to get me a pair of clothes" I requested poiting at those fancy stores inside the airport. "And Han, ask Ms. Rene to not attend any of my family's call or message. Deactivate all of my accounts they shouldn't know I am going back to Australia"

"Yes ma'am"

After 5 minutes of walk I arrive at the apron, I sit on my seat after changing my clothes. "Take off, now" Oscar asserted knocking on the captains door.

Its past midnight and its hurts so fucking much that none of them have noticed my disappearance. Did they even care for me? Maybe they are too busy dealing with my shit which I didn't even mean to make.

All of my eight bodyguards sit in front row, while Oscar takes a seat next to me. "May I?" He ask taking the first aid kit from his bag. I nodded moving my hair. He wipes all of the dried blood and cleans the area. "You need to check with the doctor as soon as we arrive" he casually speaks. "I don't have to, it will get better on its own" I reply.

"I was not asking you ma'am, that was an order" he contended. Cool now my bodyguard orders me around. He is Rene's only brother and my most trusted bodyguard. He acts like he owns me and orders me whenever I was being stupid, stubborn, childish and balky.

"Doctor Min will be coming home today evening at 5 till then you have to rest, I have got some food on my way, make sure to eat all of it, I don't want to see any leftovers when I come back" such an ass. He orders one of the female bodyguard to give me food and asks her to stay right infront of my face till I eat my tablets.

Why do they even care about me. What did I even do to deserve them. What did my father ever did to have me protected like the most precious diamond.

[28 July]

When I reached home all the staffs were sleeping, there were securities standing around my house as a border, as long as I know I have only six securities but they are like 30?

Bodyguards and SPG are there as well, when I asked Oscar what was happening he told me that my family have reported me missing and Chae won's mother claims that I've escaped.

Police have been searching for me. They have failed since I have everything deactivated. From the CCTV of the hospital building to all of my accounts. I have deactivated everything.

Even though they don't know I am here, Oscar called the securities, he said he didn't want to risk it. But my house looks like some president's house or some Queen's. Thank goodness, it's somewhere were people don't usually come.

Later that day Doctor Min arrived, checks my cut said that its infected and gives me tablet when I refused to get the injection. Thank God Oscar and Rene weren't there, they could've literally knocked me down then inject me themselves.

I am everywhere on the news and I am both missing and wanted. I feel like I have ran out from the problems while causing them more trouble.

I don't know about the others but aria and Eugene will eventually find me here. I feel like cutting all of my ties together with them. I wanna run away from their life since I have done enough. If they come here I am gonna fly to China and nobody except myself know that I have a place there which is safer than any place in this damn planet.

But, is that it? Lived with them, cried, enjoyed, laughed with them and now I am just like that talking about breaking our ties? How can this be so easy for me to say.

"Ms.Aerin, this boy is looking for you" Rene interrupted my thoughts.

"Who is it-...Amber?"

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No idea who Rene is...read the first chapter ❤

Why is Amber there!?

How did he even find her?

Aecha's aesthetic 💙