bonnie reached for some snacks and then the remote. she put on some tv show that neither of us payed attention to, since she was scrolling on her phone and i was watching her screen. i leaned against her. it was just to see her phone screen better. i usually hated physical affection, but something about this girl calmed me. i lifted my head and scanned her face.
     "you look like your busy making plans, what are you gonna do?" i asked, my voice timid and shaky.
     "nothing you need to worry about. it'll all work out. i know those words often sound hollow and disingenuous, but i will be by your side to make sure it's okay. y-you-" bonnie pulled me back into hug and mumbled something against my shoulder.
     "what was that?"
     "you're important... to me."
     after a while, bonnie pulled away and walked over to her bed. i wasn't sure how long the hug had been, it felt like it lasted forever but also not nearly long enough. i watched her hand reach for the remote and press the buttons on it. she always seemed so sure of every action, not hesitating. i could see her lips moving, but in my hyper fixation i didn't hear what she was saying.
     "marcey!" she said loudly and quickly, reaching for my arm.
     "oh shit, sorry. i was, uh, thinking. sorry." i responded, stumbling on my words.
     "it's okay. relax the best you can, i have a movie up but i don't wanna start it until you're comfortable." bonnie said softly, gesturing her head slightly to the tv screen.
     "oh. thank you, bonnie." i don't remember the plot of the movie because the calming soundtrack and the soft fairy lights put me to sleep. the combination of the stress and tears and yelling had tired me out so much i was surprised that i didn't fall asleep standing.
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(p.s. i'm gonna be trying to make the next updates longer)