WARNING:
rape/assault (only beginning bit, nothing graphic or anything, and barely any real description of it, but be careful when reading at the end of this chapter), slight drug mention
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     the next week went by surprisingly fast. my dad caved and let me back in the house after three days. bonnibel has been trying to make conversation with me and she's moved next to me in both of the classes we have together. she's more determined that i chalked her up to me. well, determined or stubborn, i can't quite tell which it is. ash and i have also been talking quite a bit. he's much cooler when he's not high as fuck. still a failing high school dropout, but he is into music, so that helps redeem him. ash and i actually planned to hang out, something i never do. people tend to see me as too much of a sarcastic twat to spend time with, i guess.
     i stood outside my house, waiting for him to pick me up. i'm not sure what his plan was, but he promised it would be fun. walking into his car, i got a strong sense of unease, but i shrugged it off. he turned up the radio and sang along to an obscure song from an obscure band. the drive felt short, but according to the clock it had been almost half an hour.
     we finally pulled up to the destination, a drive in movie. there was a few cars parked on the grass, all crowded around the front. ash took his car near the back of the field and parked it.
     "i'm gonna go get us some snacks. the movie should start soon. don't have too much fun without me." he laughed and stepped out of the car.
     i propped my boots up on his dashboard and looked around the car. it was a mess. there was fast food trash thrown about the front, along with a few empty baggies. while the floor in the front was a disaster, the back seat was almost spotless. he must never go back there.
     "knock knock, i'm back." he said, tapping his knuckles against the glass. he opened up his door and slid in, handing me a soda cup, lid on and straw stuck in with the top on the wrapper still on. fancy fancy. he placed the popcorn bucket in between us and gestured to it. the movie soon started, intro music filling my ears.
     about halfway through the movie i noticed ash looking over at me quite a bit from the corner of my eye. i finally looked at him and it wasn't long until he grabbed my collar and kissed me intensely.
     "woah, what the fuck dude?" i spat out angrily.
     "don't do that. you know you've been flirting with me all week. you know you want this, let it happen honey. you'll like it, i promise." he said, grabbing my face with one and and gripping my hip with the other. he pushed me into the back of the car, his lips slowly moving down from my lips to my neck. i tried to fight back, scream, do anything, but my vision started becoming fuzzy. there was the pressure of his hand on my neck, the feeling of his other hand fiddling with my button, and then nothin but darkness.