"was i hard to love?" i ask, as i sit in the tub.

his hands lathered shampoo, and gently spread the white foams all over my damp hair.

"not necessarily." he says.

i was turned away from him, so i couldn't see his face.

"then tell me...what was i?" i ask.

"well your beauty is mesmerising." he says, as he kisses my shoulder.

"and how does that have anything to do with being hard to love?" i ask, confused.

"it doesn't. it makes you hard to resist." he says.

i turn to look at him, and his hands tilt my chin to kiss me.

i spin around, and grab his face and kiss him more intensely.

as he pulls back, his entire shirt was damp.

he had a light in his eyes, that i knew so well.

"i have to get this shampoo out of my hair, you know." i tell him, with a smirk.

he swallows, and nods quickly.

he watches me intently,
as i rinse my hair.

"you deserve someone great." he says, randomly.

"define great." i tell him.

i outstretch my hand, motioning for him to hand me a towel.

he hands me a towel that was the colour of baby blue.

i wrap it around me, and make my way out of the tub.

i wait for his answer in silence.

"you deserve someone who will make you smile instead of cry. you deserve someone who will tell you how beautiful you are each and every day and will never take you for granted. you deserve someone who will laugh at your jokes even when they aren't that funny and someone that will value your every breath." he says, his eyes looking into mine the entire time.

"well that's nice." i say, speechless.

"and, lastly...you deserve someone who will love you til the end of time and will make sure to prove it to you everyday. the good days and the bad days. you deserve someone who will look into your eyes, and they'll see everything they ever searched for. and they'll feel complete, trust me." he says, his hand now holding mine.

i stared at him for a few brief seconds in silence.

i could feel my heart fluttering, and i didn't want it to stop.

he kisses me on the cheek,
and leaves the bathroom without another single word.

i watch as he shuts the door gently, and i am alone with myself looking in the mirror.

i smile widely for the first time in a long time.

except this time, it felt more powerful than ever.