they had not talked all day.

even though she wondered who would speak first

she never budged to be the first.

he sat across the room from her.

he was wondering what words could he say that would make anything better.

nothing.

she couldn't help but stare out the window.

the day was bright blue and the sun shined behind the clouds.

the grass and trees were all a bright green and she could hear the small birds chirping and see them flying so freely.

he stared at her flowing brunette hair.

he watched her gaze so intently out the window.

she didn't acknowledge that he was watching her.

she didn't care anyway.

she had came to the conclusion, the fact, that he would never love her.

he wanted to love her.

he wanted to walk up behind her and hold her but he knew that would be too much for her.

she decided she'd go for a walk.

she stood to her feet shakily.

she saw him with a glance.

she walks to the door, and feels determined not to look his way.

don't stare into his eyes.

he grasps her hand delicately.

"darling, i'm sorry."

she looks to their hands.

"why apologize? you can't return the love, i get it. i finally get it." she says.

his heart panics.

his heart races.

she was giving up.

he never thought she'd give up. 

the chain wraps tightly around his throat.

he coughs with the pain he feels.

she stares at him as his hands go around his neck.

he was coughing.

she didn't see the chain around his neck.

she couldn't see the words he was trying to say.

because the chain was invisible and the words were in his head.

"what is wrong?" she asks.

"i...i"  he pauses.

he no longer could feel his hands or feet.

his throat felt raw and closed.

he looked into her eyes and could see she was worried.

she was genuinely worried.

she still loves me. she still does.

he couldn't lose her. not now. not ever.

please love me.

he pleads with his eyes.

he forces the words on his tongue.

"Please tell me whats wrong? are you sick?" she asks.

she could see his eyes shift around the room.

she could almost hear his quicken heart beat.

she could see his eyes watering up.

his coughing suddenly stopped.

he opened his mouth to speak.

"please love me." he says, he sounded like a little child.

his voice was shaky and weak.

he saw her facial expression change.

her eyes filled with warmth.

"what?" she says, in shock.

"when did i ever say i didn't?" she asks.

tears fill his eyes and fall down his cheeks.

"i..i..love you."

the words finally come out.

and the tears slide down his face.

the chain had now disappeared because he had now said it.

he had said the words he'd been dying to say.

"i love you."  he says more strongly.

"and thats a promise." he adds.

she smiles at him warmly.

and kisses him.

she kisses him again and again.

over and over.

his hands wrap around her waist

and she holds his face in her hands.

"i love you too."

"but i assume you already know that." she says.

his eyes light up at her words.

he smiles widely, showing all his teeth.

she hugs him tightly.

she had no doubt in her mind at that moment.

the words constantly running through her head.

he loves me. he loves me. he loves me.