|'claim'|

i should've known when i made the choice to give you my body that you wasn't content in just me.

i should've known that even though you promised you wouldn't hurt me, you'd end up doing so anyway and you'd move on to the next like i meant absolutely nothing.

there are so many things that i should've known.

when you claimed my body and i claimed yours, i never thought that you would go on and claim someone else's.

i never thought love could be so chaotic yet so cruel.

i never thought that losing someone could hurt so much.

and even after months and months of being without you, you'd think i'd move on and that your face wouldn't be in my mind any longer.

but that's not it. you still are in my every waking thought. and i can't sleep the pain away either because you find your way in my dreams and make nightmares that suffocate me and make me drown in the sadness and knowledge that you'll never be mine ever again.

the pain is unbearable even months after and you still don't care.

and i now realize that you'll never come back.