i toss my damp hair into the baby-blue towel and twist the door handle absent-mindedly.

i could hear muffled voices in the room next to me.

"is someone at the door?" i ask, confused.

i look over to see vertigo in the door way.

"can you come in..so we can explain?" he asks her gently.

her face was scrunched in a confused but angry way.

i could feel the heat on my face.

"can someone please tell me what the hell is going on?" vertigo asks.

i look down at the floor.

he looks over at me.

he then lets out a sigh.

"you see, me and her have a past together."

he points at me.

vertigo waits for him to specify.

"i broke her heart. and when i saw her the other day...i just saw something. i don't know." he says.

"well, you could've at least told me. i would've really appreciated it." she snaps.

"vertigo...i'm sorry." i whisper.

she glares at me.

"i would've expected it less from you." she says.

i close my eyes.

i could feel guilt settling in my bones but i also could feel the longing for her to just leave.

i'm a horrible friend and i knew it.

"vertigo, you're a nice girl and you definitely don't deserve an asshole like me." he says.

he bites his lip in frustration.

i bite back jealously.

leave vertigo leave.

horrible friend. horrible friend. 

i had so many thoughts in my head.

"you love her, don't you?" she says, looking at the both of us.

he takes a breath.

"it's complicated."

she stares at him for a brief moment with confusion plastered on her face.

he still is pretending we have nothing for eachother?

something inside me snaps.

"i love him. i've loved him for years. he knows he loves me, hes just too much of a self centered ass to admit it." i say, the familiar feeling of tears pressuring behind my eyes.

i stomp out the room, leaving them staring.

i could hear their muffled voices and then i hear the door shut and vertigo was gone.

i could then hear him pacing the floor.

he mumbles a few cuss words and knocks on the door.

i lay there on my bed and try to ignore it.

i close my eyes and listen as he calls for me.

"come on let me in. baby let me in." he says.

the word 'baby' causes my heart to ignite.

"let's talk about this." he says, trying to convince me.

i reach over to unlock the door and remain laying on my bed.

the door opens and i turn to face the wall.

i feel his weight dip down on the bed, next to my back.

his fingers run through my hair.

"look, i'm sorry." he says.

"you'll never love me, will you?" i ask, my voice hoarse.

he's quiet for too many seconds.

i sigh and move away from him.

i run to the bathroom and shut the door.

the tears flood my cheeks and my heart breaks for another millionth time.