Smut warning! Mild not full on and feels warning as well! I have a good feeling about this chapter! Unedited

*Jonathan's P.O.V*

"D-Delirious s-s-stop...b-being a f-fucking t-t-te-ase." I hear his sickingly sweet sexy voice moan as I pulled away from his neck, leaving a hickey in my place, letting him know he was mine and mine only,"You want me to stop Evan, do you really? We are just getting started babe" My voice was husky as I bit his earlobe and traced my tongue where my hickey was and blew on it, causing a shiver to run through Evans body, I loved the feeling.

But, the words weren't my own, they came out of my mouth, they formed in my throat, they talked in my voice, it was me, but yet it wasn't. I didn't want to do this, my mind screamed "STOP YOULL HURT HIM" but my body screamed "TAKE HIM".

A part of me wanted him to tell me to stop, I really, truly didn't want to do this, but if he doesn't tell me to stop I won't be able to, and he will hate me for it all later. Even though he loves it now, he wouldn't later and he'd be nothing but scared and disgusted, I don't want him to be scared of me. I want him to run to me when he is sad and scared, not run away. I know if I do this, I'll not only hurt him, but I'll hurt myself. My body seems to disagree, however.

But, Evan didn't speak, and I could feel my cheeks getting wet as I sobbed silently, he had made the wrong choice, and we are both gonna pay. My hands didn't tremble the least as they ripped his shirt off, and I could already see the fear sparking in his usually soft, loving chocolate brown eyes. I'm already hurting him, and it's already tearing me apart.

I kiss up his neck and all over his jaw line, playfully placing one at the corner of his mouth but he tilts his head, and his lips catch mine. I can't even describe what it was, he kissed me with what seemed like everything he had, like he knew this would be the last he would see of me. Did he know I was gonna hurt him? He knew, but he hadn't stopped me? He wanted me to do this? Why?

"E-Evan....y-you have t-t-to s-stop me before I-I c-can't stop m-m-myself." I knew it was to late but I had to make him try," I-I'm going to h-hurt y-y-you." He locked his eyes with mine at the small statement, how could he know what I was gonna do and not just run? I knew I'd give chase but he had to try. I didn't want this, but Evan did?

He shakes his head quickly," I'm not scared of you Delirious." He doesn't even stutter and that's what scares me. Evans not even scared that I might be raping him. What's that saying, it's not rape if you enjoy it? Well, he won't be enjoying it for long. The longer I go with out him stopping me the more brutally I'm going to get, I'm going to hurt him. And he doesn't care. Who does he think he is? The terminator?

"E-Evan..." I trailed off as he grabbed my neck yanking me down to his level on the bed," Shh..." He whispers and pulled me down all the way, so instead of hovering over him I was practically crushing him with my weight, I was taller than Evan which technically makes me weigh more, and apparently makes me top, though he had his dominate moments.

He tugs on the hem of my Vanoss shirt, I chuckled at his eagerness, he was so adorable and I couldn't help but let him sit up and lift my arms in the air, he gave me a creepy grin before slowly pulling off my shirt, it was only to my neck by the time I was getting really impatient. I need it off me, it's just a barrier blocking my way to my Evan and I need it gone.

I can't help but yank my shirt off the rest of the way and throw it somewhere to the left before hungrily looking back at Evan and practically jumping him, he looks surprised but pleased. With his breath fanning my face I can't help but plant kisses all over his own handsome face.

Getting brave I trail kisses down his neck to his collar bone where I nip at it lightly before continuing my journey down his smexy body! My mouth finds his abs and nipples and I can't help but play around a bit. Bite, lick, nip, blow. All over. Evan couldn't seem to get enough, his hips bucking up and grinding against my own, making me have a hunger filled hard-on. I heard a moan and I kissed his v line by his boxers and unconsciously bit a little bit of skin to hard, look at me, I'm already getting brutal.

I almost let the thought of me getting Evan away slip from my mind, but when I was about to tug down his boxers I had to force myself to stop, earning a groan. I look up to see Evan looking at me lustfully, it makes me want to take him that much more," W-why'd you s-s-stop?" He practically squeaks and I smile at that, my sanity coming back to me slowly.

And I remember. Evan, get away. Need to get Evan away. Hurt. My head was banging with thoughts and I couldn't take the pain and let out a small whimper," Delirious?" I hear a voice say, but I can't recognize it, the voice sounds to far away for me to hear it clearly and only makes the banging worse," Shut up!" I yelled, making my head hurt worse, I close my eyes tighter and bite my lip tell it bleeds, my whole body trembling, I only have one thing I can think clearly. I need to get out of here.

Trying to stand I manage after a few tries, I can still hear the voice calling my name but the more I walk, the quieter it gets, and it helps stop the banging but the pain is still there, it's all I can think about. I manage to find a door, more like light and step out almost immediately falling on my face. Getting up I turn my head and my eye sight gets blurry, when it focus I see steps. Since when did my house have steps.

The pain seems to only become worse from the fall and I can't think at all anymore. My vision is in-clef and nothing can be seen or even focus any more. All I see is black, grey and yellow. I'm standing on the grey and the black seems to be lower than the grey, the yellow in the middle of the black.

Reaching out my hand finds the black thing and it feels sharp against my sensitive skin, no pain that seems to matter. I hear the voice again and the banging comes back," Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! You'll only make it worse!" I yelled out at the voice, hoping it had heard my cries, the voice comes again. But, it's quieter and seems to be shaken up.

I can't take the voice anymore so I run, I don't know where to so I focus on getting to the yellow thing in the middle of the black stuff. I'm almost there, when my vision focuses almost perfectly, like there is something meant for me to see, and the banging and pain has vanished, dafuq was that?

Then I hear a loud beep, like a car horn. Looking down I spot the yellow thing, and my eyes widen as the beep comes again. My head shoots up as the voice from before screams, "DELIRIOUS WATCH OUT!"  I look around, watch out for what?

Then I see it, oh, it's so fat, like I'm zooming in to it through a camera leans, but I'm not, it's zooming in on me, in record speed. But I can't move, I'm afraid if I do it will follow, if I run to Evan it will follow me and hurt him, and I can't let it hurt Evan.

So, I stay, and wait for it, I don't care where I go, heaven or hell, I just hope I see Evan there, cause if I don't, this was all for nothing.

When it gets so close I can see the details my chest tightens and my breath quickens, and I realize what I'm about to do. I can hear Evans cries and I just want to run to him, to hold him, to let him hold me, I need that right now. I need him. I need Evan. And the one here, he doesn't feel like the real Evan. The real Evan would have ran to save me, I'm DIEING for a fake. It's A TRAP! But it's to late.

All I can see is silver and black and in the corner of my eye, I still I quick glance at Evan, but it's not Evan at all, it's me. The last thought I think before the machine hits me is. EVAN.

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I let out a muffled scream as I slam my hand over my mouth. I almost forgot I was in a hotel. But it was terrible. All that, was a dream. I had almost raped Evan RAPED! He is my best friend and I had a dream where I raped him, then got hit by a car, but the person I almost raped turned out to be really me? It doesn't make much sense to me. Why would I have that kind of dream?

I lay back down but I can't sleep, so I give up and walk to the small kitchen, the microwave reads 1:14 am. Great. Now I'm gonna be up all night, well morning.

Footsteps behind me make me freeze as I feel a presence behind me, I feel I hand being place on my shoulder and I turn around, ready to throw a punch but relax when I see it's only Evan," You scared the crap out of me!" I chuckled but then remembered my dream, and dread washed over me, what if that really happened. What if I can't stop myself if it happens, I'd really rape Evan? I shiver at the thought, he'd hate my guts forever if I did that.

"Hey Del you okay?" I hear Evan ask me and I find myself shaking my head," Nightmare, won't be able to get much sleep tonight." I sigh and a small non-humored chuckle escapes my lips and Evan looks at me strangely," Must of been some dream." "Yeah....."

I hear Evan loudly clear his throat and look up through my hair to see him blushing a light pink as he says," Y-you can sleeps in t-he bed with me. I-if you want of course." He stuttered and I couldn't help but smile at his adorableness," If it's not trouble..." I'm not so sure I should sleep in a bed with just Evan after having a dream of raping him, is that even safe? I just need to drop the subject.

Evan gives me a small smile and takes my arm, dragging me slightly into the bedroom and sitting me down on the bed, that's when I realize, he has no shirt on. And just like in my dreams, he got some abs like damn man! That's smexy shit right there!

I blushed as he chuckled and sat down next to me on the bed, his hand tugs at the hem of my tee-shirt and it makes me jump a little in surprise, I give him a questioning look," what? You don't need it to sleep, and I don't want your shirt shedding all over the bed." Though shirts don't shed I didn't argue as I took my shirt off slowly, I eyed Vanoss. He looked at me innocently before staring back at my shirt, I shake my head at him.

I don't have abs like Evan, though there is a faint outline of abs here and there other than that I'm bare. Evan looks at me for a bit before laying down pulling the covers over him, all the way up to his shoulders and pats the spot next to him, but I lay a little further away from him.

Unexpectedly his warm arm finds his way to my waist and pulls me into his chest, the warmth spread from him to me and I couldn't help but lean back into his touch. He chuckles and I can feel his breath fanning my neck and my eyes fight to stay open," Go to sleep bab-" his sentence gets cut off by himself, was he just about to call me baby? Hahha! Evan was gonna call me baby!

He sees my growing smile and glares at me," Just go to sleep." He sighs and I smile one last time before letting sleep seep through my body, hopefully no more nightmares.

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