Don't you ever wish that you could just stop time? Like if you could just pause the clock and give yourself an hour, maybe even a whole day to think and get everything sorted out without having to worry about not being productive or just using up the hours that you have left in the day before you move on to the next day. And once you do relax and feel ready to do your work and you're confident that you won't give up halfway through because you "don't feel like it," you could make time flow again and face the new day with everything that it brings.

It's also alarming once you realize how quickly the days go by now. Before you realize it, you've only got a few hours left to get everything done and keep a healthy sleep schedule and after spending roughly one-third of a day sleeping, every single day, it's hard to process that so much has gone by. The events of last Friday are still very clear, but a whole seven days have passed. That's a whole one hundred sixty-eight hours.

That's just insane.

There used to be days, almost ten years ago, when I had nothing to do and I'd spend my hours staring out the window or sleeping or just wandering around my house. It's somewhat melancholic to think that those days are gone and that I'll never go back to that time of my life, when everything was just so simple and there was never a need to manage my time. And it might sound like I'm just mulling over the past but I feel like I never get anything done. Perhaps it's just my work ethic and my lack of the ability to just concentrate on something and accomplish it without getting distracted or tired or just not wanting to deal with everything when I'm not mentally ready yet.

When I'm currently writing this, I feel like I'm just overthinking everything and I'm wondering if I should actually post this. By the way, this was just me getting my ideas down on paper, well it's more like text.

Sorry that I never update this book, I just don't really have anything to write about and I can't really put enough effort into writing a coherent part for long. I apologize for any spelling/grammatical errors as well, I'm afraid that rereading it might just make me feel stupid.

So, yeah. Thanks to everybody that actually took the time to read this far! I applaud you on sitting through that shit-storm of impromptu writing.

Until next time!

               ~Mystic