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I'm ceded-I've stopped being Theirs-

The name They dropped upon my face
With water, in the country church
Is finished using, now,
And They can put it with my Dolls,
My childhood, and the string of spools,
I've finished threading-too-

Baptized, before, without the choice,
But this time, consciously, of Grace-
Unto supremest name-
Called to my Full-The Crescent dropped-
Existence's whole Arc, filled up,
With one small Diadem.

My second Rank-too small the first-
Crowned-Crowing-on my Father's breast-
A half unconscious Queen-
But this time-Adequate-Erect,
With Will to choose, or to reject,
And I choose, just a Crown-

-EMILY DICKINSON.

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After it felt like years I finally got his attention on me.

His dark brown eyes staring at me with a little frown formed on his face.

I can see that he is already dressed up with his tux and his hair gelled up. It took at least a minute for him to register that it was me who was standing in front him.

In order to bring him back from his trance I faked coughed.

But to my annoyance,  I actually started to cough badly; my coughing could have easily given shame to an old man's whooping cough.

I mentally cursed myself to act so stupid.

Suddenly I heard footsteps nearing towards me and to my surprise Mr Randhir Millenrai himself came for my help with a glass of water. My eyes popped out of my head and I silently let him make me drink water.

After drinking the whole glass I stared at him more like glaring at him and my eyes landed on his hand which was resting on my head, while I quickly shuffled away from him.

"Are you alright dear? Do you want some more water sweetie"

Mr Randhir Millenrai chirped these words with so much affection and care that no one will ever believe that he is acting.

He deserves an Oscar for this!

"Who are you and what have you done with Mr Randhir"

I asked after recovering from my shock, still I was in awe that why he is acting like this with me, why the sudden change?

Looking at my sudden outburst he started laughing at me just like those villians in those high budget movies.

"Oh dear you caught me!"

He waved his hands as if sliding away fake fog and then his old self was back as he yanked up my hand with such a force that I can feel his nails dig inside my hands, it definitely will leave some bruises in the morning.

"Have you forgotten your way out of this house or should I show you myself!"

He hissed yanking my arms brutally giving me a mental shock.

It took me some time to recover in digesting the facts that currently I'm getting hurt by this man who had enough of opportunities to hurt me and this is it I'm going to stand for myself.

"Not this time devil", I hissed and with a backlash I made him fall on the ground.

"Ouch! What the hell kiara!"

"Not anymore you swine, to your question no I'm not going anywhere! You hear me right!"

I yelled at him standing beside his fallen body on the floor towering him I can see a grim of shock written all over his face.

He got up from the ground dusting the imaginary dust and glared at me.

"Very well than Kiara let's talk this in a more systematic manner. May I ask you what are you doing here?"

Finally he managed to ask me a question with those penetrating eyes as if talking to my soul itself.

"I like that idea of you trying to be a little civil, but honestly you're failing pathetically in it, back to the topic I'm here to talk some business!"

As soon as I said the word business I can sense that my so lovely and dear step uncle suddenly found some interest in these matters and arched his eyebrows.

"Business is it...very well so you're here to discuss business and not actually came here to tell me you have returned?"

"Well I assure you that I have no intention in returning back to this hell hole and my true intention is to just discuss strictly and primly business".

"As you say so...Than tell me what's the matter and take a seat please, I don't do business while standing"

He said that and went to the opposite side of the table and seated himself while putting his hands crossed rested on the table and leaning .

Soon I seated myself and took a deep breath and started my discussion.

"So I have these scholarship papers for you to sign."

I simply stated as if it was a matter of a fact. And removed the file of papers I bought along with me.

"As much as I know dear I have already signed your scholarship papers last year. So don't act smart and spill it out!"

He snapped at me.

"These are the scholarship papers of my new school I got admitted , so they require this guardian allowance letter signed by my guardian"

"So you have changed the school without informing me Kiara?"

I can see the tension rising in the atmosphere, I can see my step uncle getting impatient second by second as if telling me that if I didn't act fast he will blast!

"Yes because I won this scholarship with my hard work and I'm telling you to sign it-"

Before I could even finish he slammed his hands on the wooden desk so hard that I shivered.

"TELLING YOU!! Seriously Kiara do you really think that you're capable of telling me and besides may I ask the name of your new school and where is it ?"

"Umm..",I thought for a while and finally gave in the answer "Elite high-",that name was enough to make my step uncle go hella mad and an unbelievable expression flickered through his face his eyes grow dark, his lips twitching into curves as he started laughing.

"Are you actually thinking of leaving the country!!"

After a few minutes of my step uncle's hysterias he stopped laughing and that ugly scowl was back on his face.

"And do you really think I will allow you to leave?"

"Yes you will or else there will be consequences"

"Consequences?" he questioned.

"Yes and you'll regret that won't you my dear uncle, after all I play games when both sides are even."

I smiled viscously at him; definitely he was taken aback with my confidence.

I didn't let him continue.

"Now listen to me! I don't give a shit about what you think, if you love your life or perhaps your image in this society shut the f*** up and sign the papers!"

"If I deny then..." He continued.

He got the guts to even ask such a question to me who's so called beautiful and charming gentleman image is on my fingers tickling to get ruined.

"If you don't I swear you won't be alive till next morning!".

"What!" By this time he was surely taken aback with my reply, he stared at me with horror as if thinking that I'm joking but as he very well have known me all these years he should definately know that I don't joke.

"I...I-I don't understand", finally he managed to form some sane words.

"Definitely you don't understand and definitely u won't understand when the minister comes after you to kill! After all you were the one, sleeping with his wife"

"What!" I swear if you had seen his face, you would have thought that he just now saw a ghost. Pale as white slate was his face, he got this vulnerable look that I can see him literally shaking out in panic.

Of course if I would be in his situation, I would better kill myself rather than dying in the hands of ministers man.

The Minister was actually a big celebrity, not just any celebrity well known for their pretty looks, he was a celebrity because of his power. He can easily make anyone disappear from the surface of the earth without any traces, one can say he was a dangerous Man.

"You are lying Kiara! You are bloody lying there is no proof against me!"

This son of..... Really needs to learn a lesson so next thing I did was I threw the photographs in front of his face.The image of him drooling over the ministers wife.

"H-How do you get those!"

"Really! I can easily touch this send option in this e-mail and send these images directly to ministers PR do you want me to do that?"

I questioned him but right now I was so much enjoying myself that I couldn't let myself stop smiling and laughing like a maniac yes that much fun I was having.

"You won't do that Kiara you-u-u.... w-won't"

"Yes like hell I will do that as much as I hate you and tempted to screw your life, I will resist myself and will talk about a deal. You sign these papers and agree to behave when the authorities come for a guardian meeting. And in return I will promise you that I will not send these images to minister that will be our little secret so deal?"

"Yes! Yes! Deal!"

He said so excitedly as if I just saved his life.

I always knew that this plan will work out but never thought that easily, later he signed the papers agreed to meet the authorities.

Funny part is that when he tried asking me about how long I'm staying to which I quoted 'Till eternity' and that look on his face was worth a million I should probably clicked some pictures. He looked like somebody stole his bananas!

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Later I went straight to my room and boy! Did I tell you my house is a labyrinth, it took me about twenty minutes to reach my room with the help of one of the maid's.

Not my fault, even though I had stayed there before but I can't remember anything  sometimes I forget some stuff, I remember only useful things and I don't think remembering my way to my room is something important is it?

I was so lost that eventually landed myself into 'the great royal kitchen' and everyone stared at me as if they have seen a monster.

Of course what do you expect when they see a girl drown in the sea of flour! Not my fault again, I slipped onto the kitchen floor and was choking out the flour powder like hell as if I was drowning in it.

You see I'm not used to those slippery and polished floors.

Later after humiliating myself enough, again I went onto the adventure of searching my room and then when I found a door open of some room, what I found was shocking.

I found myself to be a victim of live 'make out session' two souls kissing each other how romantic! Such a bliss!

Well that would be my reaction if I would be a romantic person but unfortunately I'm not and you won't believe what I did next..

After seeing their make out session I realised that they both were the maids in the house from their dresses.

To the fact, yes I was watching a live lesbian PDA ,personally I don't have any problem with the rainbow community, but you know me being me and watching something so wild that to live is not my kinda stuff.

And immediately I got this urge to puke and so I did! you see I don't have much tolerance level, still my violent puking and harsh wrestling voices from my mouth didn't make them stop!, they were continuing a.....whatever they were doing.

And may I tell you one of the girl was doing that much more passionately then before that the other girl had closed her eyes and her whole body was lump. I know sounds quite mushy.

So after lot of closing and opening of doors I finally found Ella, to my relief she then took me to my room and as soon as I entered the room.

I realised nothing has changed, the same old black walls stands out there, I was never a fan of all those pink colours, sounds weird but that was me, my small bed was now replaced by a queen sized bed.

But besides all of these there were glimpses of my past that emerged in front of my eyes and to be honest it was painful, because I don't have much strength to relive those moments.

I felt emotional and suddenly various images flushed inside my head my cries, my sleepless nights. Black spots started dancing in front of my eyes and as a result I stumbled backwards. It was Ella who was quick enough to hold me firm.

"Miss! Are you alright! Miss?!"

Soon I realised that I was again facing my panic attacks and quickly started counting numbers.

After finishing my counting and taking deep breaths I then realised Ella was still beside me giving me her concern look and realising that she doesn't know anything about this I finally thought to say something to her.

"Umm...don't worry Ella I'm alright it's just that I was little tired and maybe need some rest"

"Are you sure Miss? I can definitely call a doctor"

"That won't be necessary, I'm going to have a shower and everything will be alright"

"Okay as you say so, do you have any orders for me Miss? Do you need anything?"

"Yeah! First of all Ella stop calling me 'Miss' it makes me feel old, call me 'Kiara' okay and I want Aunt Maya's number so please find her phone number and leave the number on the desk that's solve"

"Okay Mi-s-Kiara...I will just do it as you want, I may leave now"

Ella turned back and went out of my room soon after finding some peace alone, I straight went to my bathroom as I was all covered up much in flour powder so I stripped out myself from my shredded clothes and dipped myself into the warm bathtub and let my muscles relax!

"Ah...It feels like Heaven!" after like thirty  minutes I wrapped a clean towel around my body and saw my image on the mirror, there I see a girl a normal girl living her life but she seems to be tired with all these false life, she knew she never belonged here but then who said life is fair!.

I quickly hoped out of the bathroom and found a note next to my bed I took it and read..

Miss Kiara,

I found out the number of your Aunt as you were not present at the sight I left the note on your bed. There is a dress I have left which Master Randhir wants you to wear for tonight's party.

-Ella'

I folded the note and tossed it aside and grabbed the dress which was on the bed and examined it.

It was a sky blue floral dress up to my knees , definitely my uncle's choice as I didn't missed the designer tag along with it, I threw the dress aside and went straight towards my closet in the search of something decent to wear I'm seriously not wearing a dress in the party to do hell with it! And besides I don't even know what this party is all about!

Finally finding nothing in my closet except some more dresses I decided to do some research first about this party, that is by asking someone off course, I need to know the information as I can't ruin some party without knowing its purpose, to your question yes I'm indeed going to ruin this party I mean it will be a fun to do that won't it be?

So I thought about my options, currently I was in my room wrapped in a towel so I can't go out to find someone and ask them as you know I have some reputation of being a respected 'princess' but who cares! it would be fun in itself seeing the so called princess being an outcast, it will be hell lot of fun if I go in towel itself in the party it will be ruined as soon as I enter.

But then I have some dignity left, so I thought to call my Aunt and ask her only.

Quickly grabbing my phone and I tapped down her number.

"Hello it's Maya Dello speaking whose this?", she chirped  as she picked up the call and soon a smile clicked on my faceas I heard her voice.

"Heya Aunt it's Kiara".

"Oh sweetheart I'm sorry that I have to leave you alone I had an urgent work out there but will be back soon.., is everything alright Kiara?"

"Yeah everything is alright I just called up to ask about this party, I mean I don't know what kind of party this is you know, like I have to decide to look my best for this party", I grinned at myself, well that looks promising I hope my aunt buys it, that I'm really considering for being a part of this party.

"Oh yes I forgot to tell you about this party, actually it's a 'success party' as this year your uncle has worked out so hard to finally grab an important business deal, so it is much kind of a business party. But there will be your uncle's business clients, partners and associates along with their families."

"I see... Thanks aunt for the info, talk to you later.... I need to look my best now as the stake holder I got this huge responsibility towards it...", she cut me mid sentence and said "Well I'm really happy Kiara that you are really thinking about your family business with such an interest, so don't worry if you want anything you can call me and besides I will text you a number of your uncle's favourite designer/stylist he will help you, okay than sweetheart see you at the party"

"Gotcha thanks aunt and bye", I smiled at myself ,I finally got just what I wanted, now I can wear clothes which I like.

My phone beeped and I got a text message from my aunt of the stylist/designer I quickly called at that number after like a few seconds someone picked up the call.

"Hellooo thiss is Andrey Manhar the designerrrr... whoseee itt?",why the hell he is purring a strange accent !

And also I didn't failed to notice his tone I came to know he is a man with some ego.

"Hello this is Kiara speaking"

"Whichhh Kiara didn't clickedddd?", now now he is irritating me of course he don't know me, but still he can be a little polite.

"This is Kiara Matheli Millenrai speaking, I was told that you were willing to help me to choose my outfit for today's event, am I speaking to his secretary? please forward your phone to some higher authority or-", I was cut short by someone's squealing.

"Oh! Oh! Miss Millenraiiiii my apologiesss I haven't got an ideaaa that it is you who would be callinggg.. I would be really pleasedddd to help you Rajkumarijiiii..... tell me what are your orderssss?"

I grinned at myself I mean isn't that obvious reaction I thought to have from him.

"Nothing much Anty ! I just want your help in picking up clothes for today's party so you can do me a favour by sending me few options?" I purposely ruined his name I wanted to call him 'Anty Pants' but I control my urge to ruin his ego.

"Oh sure Missss! I'm all there for your serviceeee... so you talking about today's partayyy.... at your house as much as I'm awareee of that miss, Mr Randhir himself choseee a dress for you already, haven't youuuu recievedddd it yet?"

Definitely how can I forget, after all this humpy is behind it. So I decided to be rude.

"I received that dress Anty! But I don't like it", I know how to push the buttons as I can hear an angry snort at the other side of the line, definitely Anty pants is quite angry with me as I rejected his choice right on his face.

I mean whom I'm kidding it was the best dress I have ever seen in my life but still it was so not my type.

"Oh I see Misssss...so do you have any choicesssss or preferencesssss... if not I can help you again choosing some another dress",

He replied through his grinded teeth's. I was very well aware that he already decided and made an opinion of me himself that I'm that kind of person who doesn't have any sense of fashion and considering me as a princess he thinks that I'm in need of an opinion on what should I wear just like any other princess, I mean seriously sometimes I wonder why people think that ?

So to contradict his statement I said

"Actually no Anty, I already decided what I want to wear you just need to bring me the best of what you have"

"Umm...Ok thannn.... so what is your choice Miss?" he's completely caught off guard definitely never thought that I will reply him this answer.

"Cool than so I want to wear a crop top which should not be girly meaning no girly colours like pink, purple etcetera etcetera and no bright colours, colours like black and only black will be accepted you can choose Red though it's a nice colour, still the crop top should have some cool caption on it ok ! Than about the jeans I want a dark shaded jeans... pipe in with few options only your best also bring in some blazers or perhaps jackets with the same dark colours and not to forget shoes yes that's important throw in some cool and good, yes like super cool choices of shoes starring sneakers and all. Bring in quick cause I don't have much time left"

I took deep breath seriously talking can take a lot of your energy and besides I really kind of excited for my clothes this will be the first time in years I will get to wear some nice clothes of my choice and besides this is one on one opportunity god only knows when I will get this opportunity again so I decided to wear my fav style.

"Aaa...absolutely excellent choice miss but you seeeee it's a successsss... partayyyy.. so may be a dress will be more appropriate and suitable for the eventttt..?"

Ugh this Anty pants seriously screwing my mood, I will not change my decision that's final but anger takes best of me yet
yedda yedda again...

"Listen you Anty pants don't fuck me up! Do what you were told and bring me what I want and if you don't hurry I will come there and kill you !"

"Emmmm...sorry Miss I will send your clothes as soon as possible ",he hanged up the phone,well he definately sounded scared but who cares.

Patiently I waited for my clothes, as I waited by sleeping on my bed.

Sleeping on my temporary fluffy bed feels like heaven, it's been years since I have slept on such a fluffy stuff but I shouldn't get used to it. It's all temporary!

After like half an hour there was a knock on my door.

"Who's it?" I asked.

"Its Ella Miss, I guess Mr Andrey Manhar has send you some clothes"

"Oh is it, wait up! Am coming",

Finally wrapping a towel around my body I opened the door and let her in she kept the stuff on my bed and left quickly.

Feeling excited I opened the parcel and found the clothes and gasped ....what should I say, Anty pants is a man of his words he actually bought the clothes of his best, there were some options for me to pick up so I did picked up the best, I took out a crop top it was a maroon coloured crop top which was not too short and not too big, just perfect but the thing I liked the most of the top was the caption on it 'ROYAL BLOOD' lol fun right, just my type. Than I chose a dark blue ripped jeans having cuts at my knee caps and a black jacket, but the most amazing thing I liked was the damn shoes ! I MEAN THEY WERE TOTALLY AWESOME it was golden and black metallic coloured shoes with a devilish black wings! Attached at their sides, I totally loved them! I just can't love them I want to marry them ! For the point being most girls are in love with dresses and heels my one love was shoes I just had a thing for them!

Quickly I wore the clothes and held myself upon the dresser and my my I was looking good I mean I was looking human for the first time, new clothes can totally change you, there was a smile on my face and my eyes shined for the first time usually it looked all tired up. I quickly dried my hair and started undoing my knots in my hair and combed it.

I was surprised to see the girl in the mirror I almost had forgotten that I have a natural straight hair, if I just comb.

I never used to comb back then, call me lazy yes I'm, they were not so long but long enough to flow till my shoulders I quickly grabbed some bobby pins ,a band and tied my hair in a high ponytail what can I say that was my signature look.

I looked myself in mirror, I guess I'm ready no need of makeup I don't want some extra weight on my face and besides who cares , but still even if I look good for me for them I will look like an alien most to the girls out there, they will be in heavy makeup and dresses but for me comfort comes first. I didn't missed to wear my piercings at one of my brows off course it's a part of me now and also I want to scare some girl's out there! But I didn't liked the jacket much it was cool but it was not so long, because my tattoos were peeping out of the sleeves.

Nevertheless with excitement I went out of the room.

The only thing I didn't knew that I will be meeting someone dearer to me long lost ago!

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I KNOW IT'S BEEN AN UPDATE AFTER A LONG TIME I ACTUALLY LOST HOPE! WRITING FURTHER BUT I DECIDED TO COMPLETE WHAT I STARTED WHETHER PEOPLE LIKE IT OR NOT!

JUST A FEW WORDS TO ALL WOMAN OUT THERE NEVER THINK YOURSELVES LOWER TO MAN WE WERE BORN EQUAL I HAVE SEEN EVEN IN TODAY'S WORLD PEOPLE TEND TO THINK WOMAN CAN'T BE AS SMART AS MAN.

BUT I AM GLAD THAT SOCIETY IS CHANGING...

REMEMBER NO ONE HAS BRAIN MORE OR LESS GOD HAS GIVEN EVERYONE A BRAIN TO USE IT AFTER ALL BRAIN WAS NEVER A 'HE' OR 'SHE' SO IF LADIES OUT THERE IF YOU FIND ANYONE WITH THIS ILL THINKING FEEL FREE TO KICK THEIR ASS AND I WILL BE MORE THAN OBLIGED TO HELP YOU!

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