Tom Holland

Slowly I open my eyes and look around, but I can't keep them open for long because my head is pounding. I shouldn't have overdone it yesterday, but the pain in my chest that I've lost someone else, I couldn't just push away. After a few minutes I was able to get used to the brightness, when I reach to the side and want to pull my girlfriend to me, the right side was empty. "Princess?".

I got up and went to the bathroom but she wasn't there either. Where could she be? Did something else happen yesterday? With slow steps I go down the stairs and hold my head. I will never drink that much again, but when y/n didn't see her in the living room or the kitchen, I start to panic. She didn't, did she, leave again? "Harrison!", I yell through the house and immediately he comes running.

"What's wrong?" he asks, out of breath. "Where is y/n?", confused, he looks at me and says nothing. "I last saw her yesterday when I was supposed to check on her. That was many hours ago. You don't really think she's gone again do you?"

If I'm honest with myself, I have no idea what else I'm thinking. I've never been at this point before. I'm just desperate. Something like this shouldn't happen to me as a mafia boss, but it did, and all because I couldn't save someone again. Harrison looks at me worriedly, but I'm just not in a position to say anything.

"Where were you yesterday anyway? I tried to call you but you didn't answer your phone. We had problems with a delivery," he says and I run my right hand through my hair. "I went to a bar and got drunk," he sighs and sits down on the couch with me, but what else was I supposed to do? Talking to y/n about Ilayda would have only hurt her, so that left me with the bar.

"I know she was very important to you, but you really need to let go. Do you know how y/n must feel when you're thinking about Ilayda all the time?", he puts his hand on my shoulder and squeezes once. "Did you still love her?"

Y/N Y/L/N

"Did you still love her after all?", Harrison asks him. I woke up from my sleep to voices and now I've already heard a bit of the conversation. My heart started beating hard against my chest at the question. Do I want to hear this answer? I went down a few steps but slid down the last step and had to hold on to the railing so that I wouldn't fall on the cold floor. Harrison and Tom turn around and look at me. Tom immediately jumps up and wants to see if everything is okay, but I take a step back and give him a mad look. Confused, he looks at me and takes a step towards me, so that he is now standing very close to me.

"Are you all right? Did you hurt yourself?" as he was about to put my hand in his, but I pull mine back and walk past him. I give Harrison a quick smile and make my way to the kitchen. Immediately, my stomach starts to growl. "Good morning Gaby," but before she could answer me Tom pulls me out of the kitchen and walks me into his office. His hand is on my upper arm, which didn't hurt much, but I'm too weak to pull my arm from his grip.

He slams the door and pushes me against it. "What's wrong with you?" he asks me angrily. He rests his hands next to my head and looks deep into my eyes. Since I don't answer, his eyes turn black and you can see in his features that he's pretty angry. "I'm going to ask you one last time. What's wrong with you?", I roll my eyes and cross my arms.

"I'm really sorry that you lost Ilayda. She was really a pretty and still young lady, but Tom finally come back to reality! We are in the here and now. I'm tired of you only thinking about her. I really don't understand anymore why I'm still here. But apparently you've already betrayed me anyway. Do you still love me? Tell me! Did you have feelings for Ilayda and did you cheat on me?", I shout the last sentence so loud that probably Gaby and Harrison heard it. "What makes you think I cheated on you?" was his answer. Is he really trying to screw with me now? Mad, I raise my hand and slap his cheek with my right hand. His face flies to the side and not two seconds later, his hand is on my neck again. You could have thought of that yourself y/n, the inner voice of me talks. "You hit me again and we'll have a big problem! Do you understand me?!", I nod quickly. He lets go of his hand and I immediately start coughing.

"Now tell me how you think I cheated on you", with slow steps he walks to his elegant black office chair and looks at me. "I was waiting for you because you were still not home so late and I was worried. That's why I went down to the living room and tried to wait until you were home, but I couldn't because I fell asleep. Sometime early you came and as drunk as you were I supported you and we went upstairs. I changed you and when I put your things away, you got a message at that moment. It said I'm here for you anytime. No matter what time.", I look down at my hands and realize how nervous I'm actually getting. When I look back up at him I was actually expecting an angry look since I gelled his message, but he wasn't angry. Or rather, not anymore.

"Princess." he started. "You really do worry way too much sometimes. The whole thing has a very simple explanation. My cousin is back in the city, and I went to see her because we always liked to go to bars and talk about our problems before. I could never cheat on you and the thing with Ilayda-" suddenly he stops and looks at me. He holds up his hand and gives me the sign to come to him. A little hesitantly, I walk in his direction and put my hand in his. He pulls me to him, because after a blink of an eye I am sitting on his lap. The strand that falls into my face he puts behind my ear and leaves his hand on my cheek, as if he were changed.

"It's a long story about Ilayda, but I'll tell you in the morning. I will spend the day with you because we are invited to a ball in the evening. Before you ask. No I won't tell you what kind of ball it is because I want to keep you out of my business as much as I can", actually I was fine with that answer and nod to him. He puts his forehead against mine and looks deep into my eyes. "I didn't love her, she was just a special person in my life and once you know why, those thoughts won't waste your time anymore. I love you y/n.

With glassy eyes I look at him and don't know what to say. I don't want to cry but I just can't hold it back. "I love you too Tom," he starts laughing and kisses me. Thinking about it, I missed kissing him and his touches don't make it easier for me not to immediately throw myself at him. But as nice as the moment is, we were disturbed by a knock. Annoyed, Tom growls. "YES!", he yells.

Actually I wanted to get off his lap, but his hands on my waist were so tight that I had no chance. Out came Harrison and To is going through his three day beard with his hand. "I really don't mean to interrupt, but we need to talk about what happened this morning," Curious as I am I look at Tom with raised eyebrows, but he just shakes his head. "That's work baby. Like I said I'm keeping you out of it," as Tom loosens his grip I stand up, which he did, but immediately puts his hand around my waist. "I've got to get going now. It's probably going to be late again, so get some rest before tomorrow is going to be an exciting day."

I put my hand on his neck and pull him down to me and our mouths move in perfect rhythm, but were immediately interrupted again by Harrison. "I'm going to kill you someday," I say annoyed, which makes Tom grin. He kisses my forehead again and goes along with Harrison.

So I just do what he said and do a day of Netflix and chill.