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With a loud scream, I suddenly woke up and at first I didn't know what was going on. But when I looked around, I knew again. How did I get this idea? But I also just wanted to have fun and enjoy life. If I had asked him, I would already know the answer. I flip the covers aside and look out the window. It was snowing, which immediately made me smile but my smile disappeared as I grabbed my neck. Would he always be like this when he was angry?

"WHERE IS SHE?!" yelled Tom. I wince and take a deep breath. I pick up the handle and open the door. I slowly walk down the stairs and I can already see Tom yelling at someone. His mood didn't get any better. I cleared my throat and already all eyes were on me. Gaby who noticed me first, looks at me with wide eyes and puts her hand on her mouth. Confused, I look at her and go downstairs. I stop in front of Tom. I don't dare look at him because I know he is disappointed in me. "Look at me," he orders me. Slowly I look up and look into his face. He looks at me emotionlessly and runs his finger along my neck.

I'm a little afraid that he'll touch me like he did yesterday. But he looks to the right and gives the others who are in this room a hand gesture that they should leave the room. When all the others are gone, he takes my neck and pulls me to him. First I was surprised, but then I return the kiss. I put my right hand to his chest while he grabbed my wrist. He disengaged and looks down at me. "I'm sorry," I say softly, just hoping he forgives me. "Why did you do that?" he asks me, pulling me closer to him. I look down at his hands, which he has wrapped around my waist. I knew I couldn't lie to him, so just the straight truth goes. "I..I don't think I'm good enough for you. You should have someone else by your side. Someone who knows how to handle this. I'm still so inexperienced," he puts his finger under my chin and lifts it slightly so I can look him in the eye.

His thumb slowly strokes my cheek. His thumb gives me a slight burning sensation on my skin. I nestle lightly against his skin and look into his eyes. "I shouldn't have taken you to that dinner. My innocent princess. You are perfect for me. I saw you and wanted you from the beginning. You are mine and what is mine no one else gets. Forget my grandmother's words." Speechless, I look at him and I get the images of yesterday back in my mind. I wanted to move away but he would not let me. "Don't," he spoke softly, slowly coming closer to me. "Will you always be like this?", I ask him before he touches my lips. His warm breath on my lips, gives me goosebumps all over my body. "Only when I'm really mad, and I was yesterday. I was disappointed," I nod and could understand him even if it sounds crazy to many.

"Now kiss me princess," he prompts me, which I did with a smile of course. I was glad that Tom forgave me and I knew that I didn't want to leave here anymore. This is where I belong. Here with him is my place.
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All the lights are on and the whole room is lit up. Now Christmas has arrived in this house too. Tom is still working and that sucks. We never get to spend an evening together properly. Annoyed, I lean back and look outside. It's still snowing and everything outside is already white. Ilayda came over and sits down next to me and looks outside with me. "Y/N," she started. "Yes?", I look at her now and realize that something is on her mind. "Are you okay?", she took my hand and pulls me into a hug.

At first I don't realize it, but then I hug her too. She pulls away and looks at me. "It's time you knew the truth," do I even want to know the truth? Will it change everything? There they were the questions. Constantly they are in my mind and I can't get them away. "Ilayda. No!", I was pulled out of my thoughts and look to Tom. "She has to know. Believe me. She will feel better after this," she stood up and walked to him.

Her hand she puts on his chest, which I absolutely do not like. Shocked, I look at both of them. "I want to know what's going on here! This constant touching from you two is really getting on my nerves!", I yell at both of them and hold back my tears. Tom takes a step towards me "Stop right there!" but he doesn't listen and pulls me towards him. "Calm down Mi Princessa", I nestle my face in the crook of his neck and breathe in his scent. "Let's go for a walk and I'll explain the situation to you", nodding slightly I move away and walk past him and her.

So many questions and yet no answers. This feeling in my stomach what I've had yesterday since I saw Jacob won't go away. I take out a coat from my closet and the perfect shoes to go with it and go downstairs where Tom is already waiting for me. He holds out his hand to me. Together we walk out, but we were followed by four of Tom's bodyguards.

"Do they have to be there?", I look behind and feel like I'm being watched. I snuggle more into Tom his arm as we hold hands. "Only for security Mi Princessa," he answers me and gives me a kiss. "I feel so watched though," I explain to him. He turns around and gives a hand signal to his people not to come so close to us. It's quiet the first few feet but then he clears his throat and looks at me with his perfect eyes. "You must have some questions," he begins which I confirm with a nod. "First of all. Ilayda and I are really not having an affair," somehow relieved I smile and give him a kiss on the cheek. We quickly walk across the street and then continue walking. The street is a little darker than the other. Now I'm a little happy that Tom's bodyguards are there. "Before we knew each other, Ilayda and I were best friends. Our families were really good friends. They were also part of a mafia. When you grow up in a mafia, you don't have many friends, that's why you value every true friend," he says while I listen intently.

"Even though you won't like this part, I want to tell you anyway. Ilayda and I became closer. We fell in love with each other," my heart stopped for a moment. Stand still I did too, which I didn't even realize. "Are you alright? Should we go back?" he asked worriedly but I just shook my head.

"Keep talking," I spoke as I regained my composure. "Are you sure about this? I wouldn't like it if you talked about someone else either," but I denied it and he kept talking. "As I said we were in love, but then came this one day. We had a fight with the mafia from Italy. Again and again we managed to take one out from them. If we had not done this, we would all be dead by now. Because the mafia is much stronger than us. It was really a beautiful summer day. Ilayda and I had been at a party when my dad came into my room. Actually, the day we went to the party, I was supposed to check with her parents to see if everything was okay. And if they have seen something, but I had ignored, because I thought they would call anyway".

Suddenly he stopped and stood in front of me. "Tom? What are you doing?", I asked him, looking behind. Tom his bodyguards also had their guns drawn. As I look ahead, I see a person coming towards us. As this person gets closer I recognize the face and move closer. "Y/N! Get back here right now," Tom yells, but I ignore him.

Jacob?", I ask uncertainly. "Hey Y/N," he hugs me, but I was immediately pulled back. Tom puts his arm around me and looks at Jacob. "Who's that?", I look back and see they still have their guns pointed at him. I shake my head and they all put their guns down. "Babe, this is Jacob. Jacob this is my boyfriend Tom. Jacob helped us get the presents for the kids at the orphanage yesterday."

"It's unusual for someone to be out by themselves at this time of night," Tom addressed me, and I notice him tense up. "I go out for walks a lot. At night you are alone and have your peace," they both look into each other's eyes and no one says anything. "Well then, I'll be on my way. I was glad to see you again y/n", he wanted to hug me but Tom looks at him crossly.

He walks past him, but bumps Tom's shoulder again. "Nice to meet you Tom", what just happened? "We're going home," he says, pulling me behind him. "What why? You weren't done talking," he stops and looks at me. "You're freezing princess. I'll tell you the ending sometime."I didn't even notice that I had started to freeze. Tom puts his arm around me while I cuddle up to him. Arriving at his house, I feel the pleasant warmth. Tom takes off my jacket and hangs it up. Tom his phone starts to ring, when he wanted to answer it, I hold his hand and look at him. "Can't you spend the evening with me?", the phone starts ringing again. "I'm sorry mi princessa. Unfortunately not today" Sadly I nod and go up the stairs. He never has time for me. I know he works in the mafia and has a lot to do, but we only had one evening together. Mad, I throw the scarf in the corner and take a bath and try to get all my thoughts about Tom out of my head.
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