i was slouching on the couch after finishing up all my chores.. jess had already gone to bed...

my mom had not come home nor had she returned my calls... was it so hard for her to just asked me why i had called...27 times..??? i was so pissed with her... i really didnt want to sleep unless i told my mom how i felt!!!

my father called a few minutes back... but i didn't want to tell him anything...he was already under a lot of stress from the divorce and everything that surrounded the matter.... plus, the last tym i told him something like this my dad began crying and the next day he had informed the childcare services it became a huge issue... and i lost my phone for almost 2 months.... i didnt really want that kind of drama in my life....i already had to much to worry about.... also jess was okaii now, so i didnt really see any reason to bring this matter up to my dad...

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i waited for another ten minutes before i headed up to my room... i changed into my comfy night clothes and got under the covers... i just randomly surfed YouTube and watched all the BTS videos which was recommended by YouTube!!! i just patiently waited for my mom arrive...

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i woke up to the sound of door unlocking in a rather disorganized and angered thud, i sat up startled on my bed wondering what just happen!!! i grabbed my phone checking the tym it was 12:53pm...

who was it at this tym i thought getting out of bed!!! i slowly approached the stairs and began down them, as i was few steps from the ground i saw something move... i wasn't that stupid to say "hello anybody there??" like they do in all movies...

i just carefully watched only to notice it was my mom!!! but she wasn't alone someone was with her... i thought maybe aunt Brenda... but once the lights came on i was deeply ashamed of the pre judgement i made!!!

it was a guy!!! my mom and him both were drunk to the nines.. they could barely stand on their own... even though it wasnt the best tym to talk... i decided to make my move..

"MOM!!!" i spoke out trying to gain her attention

"WHAT DO YOU WANT? YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING PIECE OF SHIT!!!" she yelled back almost falling off her feet

" WE NEED TO TALK!!! ITS ABOUT JESS.. PLS JUST LIS..." she cut me off before i could finish

" THERES NOTHING LEFT TO TALK YOU RUINED MY LIFE... U STOLE MY FREEDOM... U CAPTIVATED ME BY CALLING ME YOUR MOTHER... ACTUALLY U KNOW WHAT IT WAS ALL OF YOU YOUR FATHER, BROTHER AND YOURSELF.. WHY WONT YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND GO THROW YOURSELF OFF SOME BRIDGE..."

she yelled as she vanished into the dark hallways still unable to stand on her feet... the man she brought home followed her ryt away...

i sat down on the stairs unable to bear the heartbreak... a few tears escaped my eyes as i placed myself on the stairs....