I was shocked, shattered, exploded and smashed into smithereens...

Hmmm...

I took another kit and tested again..

TWO DARK LINES..

I was so annoyed..

I wondered what made us to go without protection...

One single time and I am screwed for life..

Why me always?

There are people in this universe who are craving for a baby..

And, here Iam having zero idea about having a baby now is carrying one and the most funniest part is Iam just 20..

Freaking twenty..

Iam carrying a baby which I never expected..

I was standing so stupefied until I hear the knocking sound on my door..

I was not even crying..

My tear glands went dry I guess..

I went and opened the door..

Amma was standing there..

Enna di panra oru manneramaa..
Kadhava thattinaalum thorakala..

Illa ma, adhu.. my eyes went roaming around the room and I felt them moist..

And I started sweating profusely..

Amma thought that I was still pondering in the memories of Athai..

Gladly..

So, for the first time, she talked to me in a nice way..

She patted me on my shoulder..

Vidu ma..Enakkum varuthama dhan iruku..

Idho ipa dhan veetuku vandha maadhiri irukaa.. Adhukkulla poye sendhutta.. Varuthamaa dhan irukku.. Unga appavum odanju poi dhan irukaaru..

Aana enna panradhu.. Treatment edukaama illa.. Nammalaala mudinja vara ellame pannom.. Aana, poi sendhutta maharaasi..

Adhuvum oru vidhathula nalladhu dhaan.. Kadaisi kaalathula ava patta kashtatha paakum bodhu ava irundhu mela mela odamba rana paduthikama ponadhum nalladhu dhan nu thonudhu.. Enna seiya.. Namma kaila edhuvum illaye maa..

Okay, Amma was in a different thought.. I didn't want to break it then.. So, I went out with her..

We had our lunch and appa was unusually so silent.. We sat in the living room..

Amma started.. Enna nga romba amaithiya irukeenga.. Ipo dhan avalukku sonnen.. Aduthu ungalukku sollanumaa.. Ipdiye evlo naal iruka mudiyum sollunga.. Aduthadutha velaiya paakanum la..

Appa opened his mouth..

Mulla oru paiyana kaadhalikiraa.. adhu theriyuma unakku.. He asked with almost zero emotions in his voice..

Enn... enna solreenga.. amma was shocked..

I didn't have the courage to lift my face or to see them..

I was fidgeting my salwar top..

Enna di solraaru unga appa..She roared..

I was silent..

Enna di amaidhiyave iruka.. Enna nu solli tholayen vaaya thorandhu..

Ava epdi solluva.. Naane kettadhukku apram dhane sonna.. Appa interfered..

Ennadhu ungalukku munnadiye theriyumaa? Neenga yen nga sollala enkitta..Aama ungalukku epdi theriyum, amma was so anxious..

Hmmm..solren.. Susi kaaga doctor ah paaka chennai ponen la.. Naan poi romba neram iva anga illa..

Sari nu vaasallaye poi paathen.. Paatha iva oru paiyanoda car la vandhu eranguraa.. Angaye vechu kettu, edhachum prachana aana namakku dhana asingam nu anga vechu edhum pesaama vandhuten..

2 vaaram aachu..Ivala edhuvum solluva nu paathen.. Onnume solala.. Adhan iva ooruku vandha anniku saadharanama irukumo nu nenachu ketten..

Aana, iva appa naan avana kaadhalikiren pa.. School lendhu theriyum ndraa.. Apram inga veetla susi poyaachu.. Inniku dhana apram onna ukkandhurkom.. Adhan ipa solren..

Omg, appa asked me in a normal tone to which I messed up.. Anyways, my whole life was messed up then..

Amma started beating me.. Enna kandraavi di idhellam.. Idhukku dhan andha college poven nu sonniyaa.. Apave avlo college la edam kedachidhu..

Maaten nu vidama idhukku paritcha ezhudhitu ponapave enakku purinjurukkanum.. She started hitting her forehead and started crying..

Appa calmed her down.. Inga paaru.. azhudhu ragala panni oru prayojanamum illa.. Ava enna panna poraa nu kelu.. Yen na paritcha irundhuche nu dhan edhuvum pesala naan apa..

Ipa adutha semester padipu iruku.. vishayam engaluku therinju unna apdiye anupa mudiyaadhu.. Unna anga anupi vechitu nee enna panriyo edhu panriyo nu vayathula neruppa kattitu iruka mudiyadhu engalala..

Athunala idhukku oru mudivu pannadhukku apram kelambikalam nee.. Nee amaidhiya iru Parvathy..

Inga paaru di..Indha kaadhal, kandraavi laam namakku venaam.. indha vayasula idhellam ipdi dhan.. Apram sothukku vazhi illama pona apram uraikkum ellam..

Adhunala idhellam ipdiye vittutu  poi ozhunga padikradhu naa padi.. Illati nee padikave venaam.. Veetlaye irundhuko..Padichu kizhicha vara podhum.. Enna solra..

I made up my mind and lifted my mind.. Amma, Naan avana dhan kalyanam pannipen.. Ungala madhikkama laam naan idha sollala.. Enakku Rajesh ah 7th lendhu theriyum ma..Romba nalla paiyan.. Neenga oru vaati pesi paarunga.. Apram sollunga..

The argument went on and on and I somehow convinced them to meet Rajesh..

No decisions were taken but they accepted to meet him.. Which was a great deal to me atleast..

I dialled him up and told him about the fiasco happened here and asked him to come to Kunnakudi to which he accepted to come after 2 days..

The next days went in a jiffy.. My focus was on how he would impress my parents and I temporarily kept the baby matter aside..

If my parents accept our wedding, then things would go easily was my thought..

Which was obviously stupid..

I procrastinated the issue for temporary being..

Rajesh came home on a sunday..

In a formal attire and a pleasing appearance..

My parents didn't give him a warm welcome..

I begged him to be patient..

I spoke with my parents as well..

First there was an awkward silence..

I broke and made them to talk..

Appa was asking about his family background..

Even if they are from different caste,they are well off..

I mean really rich background..

So, they had a good point to get convinced..

Further, Rajesh was sooooo patient and respectful which was a second shot..

When asked about the hindrances from his side, there were no such as they were not against love marriages and intercaste marriages..

So, almost everything was okay for my parents..

Appa has asked him to bring his parents to talk about the wedding..

And then the real issue started..

Rajesh said that he could not get his mom then as he wasn't mentally prepared for a wedding then..

Uncle, ungalukku theriyuma nu therila.. Appa poi 2 years dhan aagudhu.. Innum enakku neraya commitments iruku.. Ipodhaikku wedding venaam.. Enniku irundhalum enakku ava dhan..

Enakku oru 6-7 years time venum.. Apa dhan pannika mudiyum.. Enakku thangachi, thambi laam irukaanga.. innum naan padiche mudikala.. Love vera.. Aana kalyanam laam panna mudiyadhu ipo.. Enakku time venum uncle..

I was the one who got shocked..

The argument went on and on and I myself tried convincing him atleast for an engagement..

But he was so stubborn.. Venaa ezhudhi venaalum kudukren uncle.. Aana ipodhaikku commitment ennala mudiyaadhu.. Sorry..

After sometime, he left the home..

The situation was again a confusion.. Amma and appa were so silent to me.. They were continuously discussing among themselves..

The next two days I was refraining myself from texting or calling Rajesh as I myself didn't have any idea of next step..

The next day, he himself called me and we both were angry.. I got irritated with his casual talks as if nothing happened..

I asked him again to which he responded like, Adhan mudinju poche Mulla, adhaye yen pesra.. See, I love you.. I love you so much.. Aana, wedding late ah pannikalam nu solren.. Adhula enna thappu iruku.. Why you people are making a fuss ipo? I don't wanna get married at 20..
Avangaluku dhan purila.. Unakkuma purila..

I disconnected the call.. And the next days, the talks got reduced and that sunday he called again..

See, you are overreacting.. Ipa enna aachu unakku.. Yen ipdi panra.. Talk to me.. He was pleading..

Enna pesa solra Rajesh..Iam pregnant.. That's why I'm pestering you to get married.. Illana yen adhe pesa poren.. Enna panradhu ne purila..Innum  Pavi ku edhume theriyadhu inga enna nadandhuchu nu.. I have started getting the morning sickness.. Amma didn't notice..

Enna enna dhan panna solra.. Neeye sollu.. Give me a freaking solution..

I stopped at last..

He was definitely shocked..He disconnected the call.. After 2 hours, he called again with a possible solution..

That I should get myself aborted.. I said a clean no.. The fight went bigger.. He wanted a baby but not then.. He wanted to have a baby at the age of 30.. I couldn't think of destroying a baby's life..

Namma panna velaikku oru uyira ennala kolla mudiyaadhu Rajesh.. We should get married is all I can say.. I was stubborn and he was stubborn in his stand..

Purinjiko di.. Ipa veetla reason ketta ava preggy adhunala kalyanam pannikren nu solla mudiyuma..Enakku mattum illa di.. Unaku dhan mukkiyama romba asingam.. Adhunala dhan solren.. Atleast 4 years time kudu di.. We shall get married.. Yen ipdi panra..

Sorry Rajesh.. This baby is the sign of our love.. I cannot abort this baby.. Inime un ishtam..

And, that was our last call.. so many calls went unanswered and texts went with no replies..

As time passed, we had no other go that we ended up by making a modern breakup by blocking each other by sipping our evening tea in our respective places..

--Will brew..

Thank you for the response for the previous chapter darlings.. The next chapter will be based on the response for this chapter..Thank you for understanding..