I'm unwell 

I'm sick 

I have this sunken feeling in my chest 

I feel full when I'm not 

My hands were so cold they made my friend's arm go numb where I had my hand

But I feel feverish 

I'm cold and hot at the same time 

My mental health and developing ED have gotten so bad that I'm physically not okay 

I don't feel good 

I can hardly be alone without things getting worse and I just wanna hurt myself 

When everyone is eating around me I feel sick 

I can guess how many calories they all are eating and combine them while I sit there 

I'm not judging it just weighs down on me

Hell the other day I cried because I got hungry so early in the morning 

At lunch, I grip my tummy to remind myself why 

Why I'm doing this 

If I could cut myself out of my body I would 

I don't wanna be me anymore.