Okay.

I'm at university now and did my first ever gig and I have to say it was the most liberating feeling ever. I also did some stuff here which in hindsight I probably shouldn't have but I don't regret it because it's part of the experience right?

1) So it was a bad combination now that I think about it but I did balloons (filled with laughing gas), brownies and smoked the stuff all on the same night at this flat party where there was only one other girl. To be honest the balloons were fun but its safe to say that my mind was a little messed up after that. Anyway, I went dancing at this place and I didn't realise at the time but one guy was paying for my stuff. 

Later on, he wanted to dance with me so I said sure. It gets a little heated. Then he turns me around and basically invades my mouth - it was disgusting, honestly I just want to forget it altogether. After that, he grabs my hand and takes me somewhere. When we reached the hallway I asked: "where are you going?"

Then this guy says "my room," and I look him in the eye and reply "I'm not sleeping with you."

Can you believe this boy has the audacity to say "why not?" What is wrong with them, bloody hell.

2) I got asked out by a girl! So officially went on my first date on Saturday and it was great but it was a little bit awkward because we haven't really known each other long so understandably we weren't that comfortable with each other. That same day I had to meet someone at a studio to record something and the guy who was producing was 20 (I'm 18) and after we were done he asked me if I was hungry and we went out. So I think that was 2 dates on one day? I don't know if it counted actually, did it?

Truthfully I felt more relaxed with the guy even though I just met him. There were really relaxed vibes and we're both into music so that's a bonus, but again, I'm not too sure if he likes me...

3) So one of the girls I got to clubs with loves the way I dance and was grinding on me last night because she said: "you know how to do it right." I don't even know how to feel about it but it's a little funny, wonder what she'll say if she finds out I'm into girls.