~Lay~

"I-i.." Suho breaths out a large breath before saying "oh fuck it" then his lips crash into mine urgent and heated. At the surprise of it i pull back slightly, but i have a feeling Suho was expecting this because he wrapped his hand around the back of my neck keeping me in place. Eventually my shock turns into desire and i melt into the kiss, moaning lightly at the feeling of his lips on mine, moving more tenderly than before but even more passionate.

To soon he breaks the kiss, resting his forehead against mine. An involuntary whine leaves my lips at the lost contact and I place my arms around Suho's waist.

"Kiss me" i whisper desperate for more.

Suho smiles and shakes his head slightly "if i kiss you again i won't be able to stop myself from taking you to your room"

I smirk "i don't see a problem with this"

He chuckles and pulls his forehead from mine, placing a finger where his head just was "i do"

A sigh leaves my lips "you're not going to touch me until i get cleared by my doctor, are you?"

"Not a chance" he says smiling, but his eyes hold an apologetic tone.

Suddenly the words "Sulay lives" erupts through the room, causing both Suho and me to turn our gazes toward Baekhyun who has started to do a happy dance.

I roll my eyes and groan "you could have at least done this in the bedroom away from the perverts and children" i say motioning to the crowded room not needing to specify which is which.

He snorts "well i was trying to talk to you, but you sort of ran away... and i probably wouldn't have kissed you if you had stayed"

I smirk "well then i'm glad i ran..." then a important thought brings me back into the real world "wait does this mean?" i say my eyes widening.

Suho smiles shyly "i was going to tell you the day you got in the accident, but after i discovered about your concussion, i didn't want to stress you and i didn't know how to bring it up without bringing up all of the complicated shit that comes along with it, but i still wanted to take care of you and be by your side, and i realize now that i wasn't as discreet about my feelings while i was taking care of you and... and i-i'm rambling"

I feel a warmth swell in my chest, and tears start to pool, blurring my vision slightly "you want to be with me?"

Suho sighs happily "more than anything... i'm sorry it took me so long to realize it"

I placed my arms around Suho's neck "for you, i would wait forever" then I lean in and place a small but meaningful kiss on his lips.

"Oh it's so beautiful" Baekhyun says placing an arm around a teary eyed D.O. Who had pulled out his phone and was now taking pictures.

Tao squeals and jumps up and down with Xuimin "yaay" they yell together.

Chen, Sehun, Kai, and Chanyeol roll thier eyes at the fan girls, but smile at us just the same, clearly happy for us. I can't help but laugh at them, and honestly i understand their excitement... this has to be one of the happiest moments of my life, because finally Suho was mine and i was his. I realize that in this moment i finally understand what it's like to feel true happiness, and i never, ever want to let it go.

>>>>>

It was the day before my follow up and Suho had decided to take me out for a relaxing walk through the nearby park. We pull our hoods up and walk closly to each other but are unable to hold hands, because we are still in public.

Suho had glanced at me for about the hundredth time when i finally got fed up with it "Suho, i know you're worried about me but please quite glancing at me" Suho turns bright red and stares at his feet while biting his lip forcing me to sigh "i'm sorry, i'm just a little on edge"

Suho turns to me "why? what's wrong?" he asks his eyes showing that he truly has no idea.

I breath out heavily "Suho, the past couple of months has been nothing but one large tease and now you're mine, but you're not officially mine yet, and it's driving me insane"

His eyebrows knit together for a second before his eyes widen "oh.. ooh... i had no idea it was that bad"

I bite my lip "it's really bad Suho, is there any chance of you reconsidering?"

Suho stops walking and looks around to make sure we were alone before he places a hand on my cheek "Lay my darling, when you were being brought into the hospital room after you had blacked out, i saw your body... the way you looked..." a shiver pulsed through his body but he continued "i thought for a while that i had lost you, that i would have to live my life without you... and to be honest Lay... i don't think i could do it"

"Don't say that Suho, if something did happen to me i would want you to move on, and live your life as if i was still by your side" i said feeling tears staring to brim up.

"I would live, for you i would... but it wouldn't be living, it would merely be existing... Lay i was a stubborn ass and it took me forever to realize that i don't want a life without you in it... but now i know that i want you, and only you for the rest of my life... which is why i'm going to do everything possible to keep you safe and healthy... even at a risk of increasing your sexual frustration" he says smirking at the last part.

I suck in a large breath "i could make you, if i wanted to. You know that right?"

Suho grins at me "i'm very aware, but i'm trusting you to respect my wishes"

I place my hand over his "you're lucky, if i would have been any of the other guys, i would no longer be a virgin right now"

Suho's eyes widen as he processes my words "you're a what?"

I turn bright red and look away from him "i always knew i was gay Su, and i didn't want my first time to be with someone who didn't care about me... so i waited, and now here we are, I'm so ready i would force you up against a tree if i wouldn't get scolded about it later"

Suho chuckled "i'll be your first" he looked deep into my eyes and i could tell that this was something very meaningful to him.

"Yes, and you're the first person i've ever wanted to be my first" i say my face getting hotter.

Suho leaned in closer to my face "i really want to kiss you right now"

"So do it" i say huskily.

"I can't, i think we are gaining attention" he pulls away from me and puts distance between us, just as a couple of girls ran up to us asking for autographs and fangirling.

I catch Suho's eyes and he looks over to me before winking and going back to talking to our adoring fans who really know how to ruin a moment.

>>>>>

"Aren't you going to sleep with me?" i ask watching Suho take his pillow and place it on the other bed.

Suho pulls back the covers "i don't want to make it more difficult on you. You were ready to mount me today at the park, let alone sleep in the same bed together... it would be disastrous" he says sitting down on the edge of the bed "i'll be over here if you need anything"

"I need you" i say pouting.

I hear a chuckle and the room goes dark when he turns out the light "goodnight baby"

I smile at the endearing term but still feel sulky "night" i say shortly.

"Aw don't be mad" Suho says "it's hard on me too, trust me"

I snicker "what having more dreams?"

"What?" Suho asks and i heard his bed creek slightly "how do you know about that?"

I smirk but somehow a blush finds it's way to my face "you kind of woke me up, you were talking in your sleep"

I hear him swallow hard "how much did you hear?"

"Enough to let me know that you were having a sex dream about me" i say, then a thought crosses my mind "did you want me even back then?"

I hear a frustrated sigh leave his lips "i've always wanted you Lay, from the minute i met you"

"Really?" i ask surprised.

"Of course, i mean i'm told that i get to lead an idol group one day and then in walks one of the cutest boys i've ever seen, with a smile that could break hearts, and he's in very tight pants might i add" i hear the smile in his voice as he adds "i wanted you bad back then, but you really didn't understand a word of what i said to you, and by the time you learned Korean... i felt that i had to be the perfect leader so i kept you by my side and stayed at a safe distance... but eventually it all caught up with me and you just had to be home that day"

I flinch remembering the day in the shower "i guess i didn't make it easy on you either"

"Thank you for that, if you hadn't have been so persistent, i would have never come to my senses and realized that i had chosen you long time ago without even realizing it" he says and i hear the bed creak again.

A grin takes over my face "Suho?"

"Can you control yourself?" he asks sounding a bit closer than before.

"Yes" i say raising my blanket while he slips under quickly wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me close. A content sigh leaves my lips as i snuggle my head into his chest "i choose you too Suho, before I even knew your name"

>>>>>

I was nearly dragging Suho to the hospital Friday morning for my follow up appointment.

Suho was cracking up by the time we reached the doctors office "calm down Lay. It's a hospital, it doesn't close."

I glanced back at him and narrowed my eye, he was teasing me, i knew he was. He knew why i was in a hurry "walk faster Suho, or swear i will leave you right here" i say almost growling causing Suho to laugh harder.

"Ah Mr. Zhang, here for the follow up?" the Doctor who took care of me before asks.

I smile politely and bow "yes, i'm ready to get cleared so everything can go back to normal"

The Doctor chuckles and glances back at Suho "hello to you again Mr. Responsible"

Suho bows and shakes the doctors hand "hello again Doctor"

The Doctor smiles warmly and shakes his hand as they begin a small conversation about unimportant things.

"Can we please get this over with?" i ask surprising myself at how whinny i sound.

Suho and the doctor look at me pulling themselves out of the conversation they were having, sharing a similar surprised look. The Doctor composes himself and smiles brightly.

"Of course Mr. Zhang, being an Idol, i'm sure your eager to get back to work" he says grabbing my chart and leading me to a room. "we'll do some blood work and another CT to make sure that everything is working properly and if everything clears then you have the green light, of course i would still like you to take it easy, no over exerting activitys and keep your stress levels to a minimum... oh and no sex for at least a month"

My jaw drops "what? a month?"

The Doctor laughs "just kidding, doctor joke. You two can go nuts once i give you the go ahead, just keep it safe"

My stomach lurches "what w-were not..."

"Oh please the way you two look at each other, it's obviously that you two are crazy for each other... it actually reminds me of the way my husband and I looked at each other when we first started dating, actually i would like to think that we still look at each other that way" the doctor smiles and writes down a few things on his chart "ok, now these results should take a few hours, so relax and don't let yourself get to stressed"

A huge grin takes over my face at the Doctor and his words, even in the heart of Seoul a man like this, has a loving marriage with a man "how long have you and your husband been married?" i ask.

"Four years in March, but we've been together since we were teenagers... a word of advice... keep the faith in the love you two have for each other, and nothing will be able to pull you two apart... as long as you have each other, you can make it through everything" he says then nods at us and leaves the room.

Suho comes to my side and wraps an arm around me "well that was unexpected" he says kissing my temple.

"But a nice surprise, i mean he has a successful career, everybody here loves him, and he still has a great marriage with his husband" i say finding Suho's eyes.

"It really gives you hope that we might actually make it for the long run, doesn't it?"

I nod resting my head against Suho's chest "i wonder what it would be like to be married" Suho tenses but doesn't pull away "sorry, jumping the gun aren't i? i mean we just officially started dating two days ago"

He sighs "no, i want that for us, and honestly one day i can see us married... i'm just not ready for that yet... with anyone"

"It's alright, we can just live together, eat together, spend almost every bit of alone time together, and sleep together... no need for marriage" i say rolling my eyes.

"Oh god, we're basically already married, aren't we?" he asks in a fake horrified tone and i punch his arm playfully.

"Oh good playfulness, i like it. keep that up, it helps to keep things interesting" the Doctor says walking in "sorry to do this, but i need to take your boyfriend with me for the CT"

Suho nods and steps back "i'll be right here waiting"

A sigh leaves my lips at the loss of contact "promise?"

"Promise" he says winking at me.

>>>>>

"Ok Mr. Zhang... the moment of truth has arrived" The doctor says coming into the room, taking way to long of a pause "you are cleared of restriction and are free to do what you please, but i still recoment plenty of water, rest, and keeping yourself from to much stress... but, i recommend that even without a concussion. Still just take care of yourself" he smiles at the both if us and winks "now you two have fun, and keep it safe" he points a stern finger at both of us, then he leaves the room.

My eyes find Suho's and he turns bright red "any chance i can convince you to wait for tonight?"

"What? why?" i whine.

He holds up his hands in defense "i just have something special planed since its your first time and everything, i want it to be special"

I snort "Suho, we can do it in the back of your car in the hospital parking lot and it would still be special because i'm with you"

Suho pouts "i just want it to be perfect, just like you"

I huff out a breath "yesh... fine, you have till this evening, and then I'm striping you whether were in public or not"

>>>>>

I was sitting on the couch flipping through channels waiting for Suho to get back. He had been gone since we came home from the hospital and I was feeling restless.

I huffed out a breath and decided on a Christmas movie. Honestly Suho not being here was kind of a good thing because it made it easier to ignore my urges but I also missed him, I just wanted to cuddle into his side while we watched this movie.

"So he really didn't tell you anything about tonight?" Xiumin asks noticing my increasing announce at Suho's absence. I had told Xiumin of the situation because I really needed to vent to someone.

"Nope, all he said was that he would be back to get me when he was done... I have no idea what he's planning" I say staring at but not really paying attention to the tv.

"Well look at it this way, at least he's willing to make it special, you could be in love with a guy who just sees you as his goofy best friend" Xiumin says giving me a look that explained his frustration.

I couldn't help but chuckle "oh Yeah, how's it going with that by the way?"

Xiumin groans and throws his head back on the couch "aweful, he doesn't even see me like that, and no matter what I do... I will forever be stuck in the friend zone"

I smirk "we could fix that you know" I say and quirk an eyebrow up at him.

"Really? You would help me?" He ask surprised but also hopeful.

"Of course... I got my happy ending, you need yours now" I say and ruffle his hair.

Xiumin tucks his knees under him and starts bouncing in the seat "thank you" he says wrapping his arms around my shoulders and crushing me into a tight hug.

"Hey, no suffocating my boyfriend" Suho says from behind us and we separate giggling "are you ready?" He asks offering me his hand.

"God yes" I breath and take it, popping off the couch so quickly I left the ground for a second.

Suho laughs "Someone is excited" he says leading me out the door.

"You bet your boots I am, I've been waiting for this for forever" I say and squeeze his hand once more before letting go when we get in the elevator.

"You know, I was so scared of this when I first started having real feelings for you" Suho says looking down at his feet.

"That you would have to keep your distance from me in public?" I ask quietly.

He nods "but now I understand what the others were saying, the distance makes the moments that I get to hold you in my arms that much sweeter"

He brushes his hand lightly against my cheek and I swear my heart stops for a second "Suho, unless you want to shell out a bunch of cash to the security personel for their silence, I suggest you keep your hands to yourself right now" I warned.

Suho snorts but does as he's told, and I find myself looking at the red numbers indicating which floor we were on.

"Wait, why are we going up?" I ask turning to Suho with an eyebrow quirked up.

He smiles brightly making my breath catch in my throat "you'll see"

Just then the elevator dings and the doors open in front of a small set of metal stairs leading to a door.

"We're going to the roof?" I ask confused.

"Come on, trust me" he says offering me his hand once he steps out of the small metal box.

I sigh, my stomach doing flips and take his hand. He leads me up the stairs and opens the door for me. Cold air hits my body suddenly, viscous and unforgiving. I hiss and take an involuntary step back as the cold air blows against my face. Suho wraps his arms around my waist and ushers me forward quickly till we reached a small door a couple of feet away attached to a small white building.

I wasn't paying attention to where we were or where we were walking into, I just kept my focus on getting to some type of warmth. Suho opens the door and pushes me inside, closing the door quickly behind him. Immediately the welcoming warmth of a summer like quality surrounds my body and hugs me tightly.

"Oh, it feels great in here, like a little piece of summer in the middle of winter" I say looking around but unable to see much because of the lack of light "Suho, I can't se..." Before I could finish my sentence thousands of little lights blink on illuminating the room. I gasp and take in my surroundings, feeling tears starting to brim up.

We are standing in a green house, full of hundreds of brightly colored flowers and beautiful greenery. The whole room was surrounded in white twinkling Christmas lights, making it look magical and breathtaking... but the most amazing part was the small pathways lined with small glass jars holding tea-light candles leading to a small table in the center of the greenhouse, set with a white table cloth, a small vase with two roses in the middle of the table, and two plates with delicious looking food set on them.

"Suho..." I whisper, my voice catching.

Suho wraps his arms around my waist from behind me "do you like it?"

My lip trembles and a tear slides down my cheek "it's perfect"

Suho chucks and takes my hand leading me down the path to the table "I figured we could have something to eat first, we should at least have some type of a date before we jump into bed with each other"

I blush at his words suddenly feeling shy "you did all of this in the short time you were gone?"

He pulls out my chair for me and I sit down "well I had a little help from Chanyeol and Tao, who was all over this... believe it or not Chanyeol is quiet the romantic" he says taking his own seat.

I giggle "who would have thought... but there is one thing I don't understand Suho... why are you doing all of this?... why is it so important for you to make this special for me?"

He sits back in his chair and sighs "I think I started to plan this the moment you told me you were still a virgin... I was just planning on going and seeing a movie then taking you back to your room, but when you said that, something clicked in my head"

Suho pauses before continuing without much emotion in his voice "My first time was... less that satisfactory, and I want more than that for you... I don't want you to feel any type of regret when you look back on it" after he finishes speaking he takes a large drink out of a glass full of what looks like wine and crosses his legs.

My curiosity peeked "will you tell me about it?" I ask quietly.

Suho looks up at me and I see something cross his eyes before he looks away from me. He slowly starts to speak "I was young, and I had just started getting the feeling that I liked guys as more than friends. I had terrible self confidence and depression issues because I didn't fully understand myself... all I knew was that, what I felt was not accepted by my family."

While he spoke I picked up a hand full of grapes off my plate and started eating them, needing something to concentrate on other than The look on Suho's face, so I could still pay attention to his story.

"My friend that knew of my confusion dragged me to a party one night at his house. I stayed in the corner and watched everyone else have fun for most of the night, until a really cute, and popular boy started talking to me... he was nice, and he was paying attention to me, so of course I was wrapped around his finger from the start. At first we just started making out, but then he lead me to a bedroom and started getting handsy... I tried to tell him to stop, but he got mad and was going to leave. I was so afraid that he would stop paying attention to me, so I did it... it hurt like hell because he didn't really take the time to take care of me properly and it didn't last long"

Suho closes his eyes tightly letting the memory take him over. I got out of my seat, and rounded the table, sitting in his lap. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled his head against my chest, "you dont have to tell me any more"

He just shook his head and kept talking needing to get the whole story out "After it was over he left me alone, I was so ashamed that I curled up into a ball and cried myself to sleep... Everyone had crashed at my friends house that night, and in the morning the guy was surprisingly still there... but he wouldn't even acknowledge my existence in front of everyone... it turns out that he had made a bet with his friend that he could get into the little rich fag boys pants"

"Oh Suho... I'm so sorry" I said pulling away and looking into his eyes, horrified that somone could be that cruel to my Suho.

To my surprise he smiles lightly "it's ok, I kept him quiet about the whole thing after I found out about the bet"

I raise an eyebrow "how did you do that? Please tell me you didn't pay him off"

Suho barks a laugh "no, I told him that the whole school would find out just how small his dick was if he told anyone"

I nearly choke on my laughter "you did not"

He nods almost proudly "i did, I actually surprised myself at how confident i was when I threatened him, and I guess he was too because he never said a word to anyone"

I clapped my hands laughing "that's amazing"

He smiles but it fades to quickly "that's why I want this to be special, because I want it to be something that you won't regret or be ashamed of"

I grasp Suho on each side of his face, looking deep into his eyes "Suho, I will never be ashamed or regret being with you... in any way or form"

"Really?" he asks his eyes becoming teary.

I nod "and I promise you, I will make you forget that the awful boy ever touched you" I whisper and lean in sealing my promise with a kiss.

>>>>>

~Suho~

The rest of the meal, we talked and laughed about everything and anything. Lay and I once again had create our own world and we had gotten lost in it. I'm not sure how much time passes but eventually we both know that it's time.

"Lay, I think it's time we head back downstairs" I say catching Lay's eyes after I say those words and a fire immediately sparks in them, scorching my insides.

Lay nods and smirks "I think you're right"

I stand up and take Lay's hand in mine leading him back down the small path to the door. He stops right before he grabs the door handle and pulls me in for a quick kiss, that sets my body aflame.

"I need something to keep me warm till we get back Inside" he says in a husky tone and opens the door, the icy wind surprisingly welcome against my burning face.

I hold Lay close as we make our way back inside to the elevator. I push our floor number and Lay leans against the far wall staring at me with piercing eyes. Lay bites his lip suddenly and let's it slide slowly out of his mouth while looking up at my through his eyelashes.

My breath catches and it takes every ounce of willpower I have not to pin him between the wall and myself. "Lay" I warn feeling the tightness in my pants becoming increasingly unbearable.

Lay smirks and takes a step toward me till he's inches from me but doesn't touch me "want me to stop? Then make me"

I hiss out a breath and thank God when the elevator dings and the doors open. I grasp, not so delicately might I add onto Lay's wrist and nearly drag him down the hallway to the dorm.

When we reach the front door, I stop finding a note attached to the door.

You have 2 hours!
Have fun!! ;)
-B

I chuckle and wad the note up in my hand. Continuing inside and not stopping till we reach Lay's room.

I look back at him and hesitate suddenly feeling slightly nervous "are you sure you're ready for this?"

Lay rolls his eye "Suho I swear to god, open the door or this is going to happen right here in the hallway... and that's something I don't feel like explaining to D.O. later"

My eyes widened at the intensity in his voice and decided not to tease him anymore. I open the door and pull Lay inside after me.

Once inside Lay stops and his jaw drops "oh Suho... but, how?"

The whole room was covered in white twinkling lights like the greenhouse and some candles were lit on the desks and dressers. The bed had some rose petals sprinkled over it and some slow sexy music was playing in the background.

I smiled at how nice it had came out "Chanyeol and Tao did it while we went upstairs" I said letting Lay admire the room. "do you like it?"

Lay laughs in awe "it's like a dream"

I blush "speaking of which, I never got to finish that dream... and it was just getting good to" I pout, letting my eyes roam over Lays body.

He turns and catches me in the act "oh really? ... Then why don't you show me?" he steps closer to me and places his hand on the back of my neck pulling me in for a small kiss which quickly deepens making my body explode with heat.

I pull back "well first off, you didn't have this on" I say tugging at the hem of his shirt.

"Well we should fix that" he says motioning for me to do so.

I slowly slid the shirt up his body and over his head making a point to let my fingers brush against his bare body the whole way making him shiver at my touch. Once that was discarded I grabbed the waist line of his pants "these weren't here either"

Lay blushes scarlet "were you fully clothed?"

I shake my head "no" then I slip out of my coat and pull my shirt over my head "better?"

He's still blushing but nods. I take a moment to admire the milky white flesh that is pulled tight over his prominent muscles across his arms, chest, and torso. "so beautiful" I say running my hands across the smooth, flawless skin hearing a light sigh when I brush over the sensitive buds on his chest. "that sounds familiar" I say smirking.

Lay's hands find their way to my hips and pulls our body's together before letting his hands travel achingly slow up my back to my hair where he grabs a handful and pulls gently.

My mouth is on his instantly heated and needy. I brush my tongue across his bottom lip causing him to moan and grant me entrance. My tongue dives into his mouth, not leaving a single inch unexplored. One of Lay's hands drops from my hair to my neck pulling me closer into him making my crotch brush against his. I let out a small moan and push Lay back till he's pressed against the wall where I start to grind my hardened member into his.

I break away from his mouth at the need of oxygen and start moving down his jaw to his neck causing him to gasp and moan loudly. His hand pulls on my hair trying to get me to release his sensitive neck, but I reach back grabbing his hands and pin them against the wall above his head with one hand while I let my other hand travel down his chest, slowly venturing lower.

I attack his neck again and he starts to whimper at the sensation. I place butterfly kisses all over moving from his jaw to his collar bone and repeating before I choose the spot I want. I slowly start to suck on the white unmarked flesh claiming it as mine causing Lay to squirm against me, then I lightly nip at the overly sensitized flesh and he gasps loudly, followed by a little squeal.

"Ah Suho, please" he says panting heavily, but I ignore his complaints and continue teasing him a little further.

I pull away from his neck and let my hand slip into his pants slowly sinking lower till I find his very hard member pressing against my hand tightly under his boxers. Lay slightly thrusts his hips against my touch and closes his eyes, biting his lip.

I smirk and take the advantage of his distraction and slowly start rubbing him, creating friction with my hand and the boxers, but I dont stop there, I place my lips back on his neck and suck on the bruised area looking up under my eyelashes waiting for his reaction.

Lays eyes fly open, wide and panicked before they melt into a heated desire that had me faltering for a second. Lay quickly becomes a moaning mess and starts to roll his hips against my hand.

His breath quickens and his moans get louder, "please Suho, not like this"

I take pity him and pull back, halting my attacks and drop to my knees still watching his face. I unbutton his pants and pull them down, helping him step out of them and throwing them across the room.

Lays eyes are wide as he watches my every movement. My hands starts at his calves and slowly start to slide up twisting my wrists so I end up with my hands on the inside of his thighs "we don't need these either" I say and slide his boxers off throwing them with his pants.

Lay shifts slightly and looks away from me like he's embarrassed. I chuckle and grab his hand forcing his attention to me "don't baby, you're beautiful"

He smiles down at me shyly and I grab his hardened member starting to pump. Lay hums in response and throws his head back against the wall. I take the moment to lean forward, swirling my tongue around the head.

My name leaves his lips in a moan and I take that as a prompt to continue. I run my tongue up and down the shaft, then eventually take him in my mouth making him hiss and grab onto my hair. I start bobbing my head up and down, hollowing my cheeks and starting to push more of him in each time till his member was hitting the back of my throat.

"Oh god Suho" he called out his voice high pitched and breathy. "I'm about t..." but he didn't get to finish that sentence when I took him in quickly sucking hard forcing him to come in my mouth and I swallow it all. Lay calls out and nearly collapses but I catch him in my arms, picking him up bridal style carrying him to the bed.

"I'm sorry Suho, I didn't mean to..." he says panting, as I lay him down and kneel with one knee between his legs and my hands on either side of his head.

I laugh huskily and whisper in his ear "don't worry, you taste good"

Lay sucks in a sharp breath and his eyes met mine reigniting the fire in them. His hands find my body and quickly slips his hands down to my pants unbuttoning them and sliding them along with my boxers off my hips. I stand up and help him take them off, throwing them in the pile with the others.

I sighed in relief once my almost painfully hard member was free. Lay stares at my exposed body eyes wide and mouth slightly agape "Suho.. you're... So big"

Concern seeped into my bones, the last thing I wanted was for him to be scared "you don't have to do this if you don't want to yet" I say. "There is no shame in not being ready"

"No... I want this" Lay says then places his hand on my hips "please, I want you, now"

My breath hitches and I regain my position from earlier on the bed claiming Lays mouth with mine once again. A loud moan flows out of my mouth when I feel my member rubbing against Lays and I start to grind my crotch into his.

Lays hands fly to my back digging his nails into me "Suho quit teasing me" his voice shakes slightly but I don't have be told twice.

I offer him three of my fingers and tell him to suck, he gives me a quizzical look but does as he's told, turning the act into the most erotic thing I've ever seen; sucking on my fingers, swirling his tongue around, and moaning. I hiss and pull them quickly out, forcing his legs apart and kneeling between them, placing my finger at his tight entrance.

My eyes find his and he nods, but looks terrified "don't worry baby, you won't feel pain for long" then I push my finger in.

Lay winces slightly and twitches his hips around at the discomfort. I curl my fingers around looking for that one spot that would make him forget about any pain or discomfort. I add the second finger and lay sucks in a breath and grits his teeth, but I still keep searching for that spot while stretching him out.

Abruptly Lay's back arches off the bed and he gasps "oh god, there Suho" he says and I knew I found it.

I push in the third fingers while continuing to pump the other two brushing repeatedly against his prostate. Lay starts to meet my thrusts and is quickly becoming a moaning mess "I want you, now" Lay says and I don't hesitate.

I grab the bottle of lube off the bedside table and coat my member in a generous amount wanting to make this as painless as possible for Lay. I pull my fingers out of Lay and he whimpers at the loss but quickly quiets when I position my head at his awaiting entrance.

"Ready?" I ask

He bites his lip nervously but nods, and I push myself slowly inside of him, feeling his tight walls squeezing me.

I groan at the feeling "you're really tight babe" a small cry leaves lay's lips and I notice he winces below me as tears begin to brim up.

I lean forward so my body presses against his, but don't move inside of him so he can adjust to me. I kiss his lips tenderly and my hand finds his member beginning to stroke slightly. Eventually he starts to arch into my hand and a rushed whispered "move" comes from his lips.

I slowly pull out then thrust back in moaning at the exquisite feeling, and Lay grasps my arms for support. I pull out again and thrust back in a little faster, when his back arches off the bed again and his eyes roll back for a second signaling that I had found that spot.

I quickened my pace making sure to hit that spot every time. Lay starts to make a high pitched moaning sound, that encouraged me to go faster and harder. Before I knew it I was pounding into Lay so hard the bed was creaking loudly in protest, and Lay was calling out my name loudly.

I started to get that tightening feeling in my lower abdomen "Lay, baby I'm close"

"Me to" he gasped moving his hands to my back and scratching hard at the flesh across my shoulder blades making me moan at the delicious pain/pleasure of it.

I started to pump Lays member again so we would have a better chance at coming together, and then Lay's back arches off the bed as he screams loudly and thrusts faster with me, riding out his orgasm. His tightening walls, and thrusting made me come hard and quickly into him seconds later.

"Oh god" I said panting harshly and collapsing on top of him.

Lay wraps an arm around my back and runs the other through my hair holding me close "please tell me it's like this every time" he says breathlessly.

I shrug "I don't know, you're only the second person I've ever been with"

"Then how did you know what to do?" He asks raising his head up slightly to look at my face.

I chuckle "I read a lot of fan-fiction" i say and he slaps my arm "what?" I say laughing "that was the one place I could read story's about us loving one another without having to cross that line... it kind of became an addiction"

"But you crossed that line" he says smiling warmly at me.

I nod against his chest "and I'm so happy I did... I love you Lay"

His breath catches and he smiles that dimpled smile of his "I love you too Suho"

Lovely Chickens!!

So that just happened, you let it happen, and i regret nothing!! hooray for sexually frustrated Lay though, and i think for his first time that was pretty freaking romantic!! if only the world was filled with Suho's then we would all be as happy as Lay!!

Anyways, i'm so happy that this chappie turned out well, i was worried about doing smut.. i've never done it before and i didn't think i would make it that detailed, but that's the way it came out and i couldn't be more happy with it! I hope you liked it, and if you didn't... well um... sorry that you suck? haha Jkjk

As always i love you guys!!

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