(warning:  this chapter contains major spoilers from the book Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard. Read at your own risk.)

"But there was no denying her smile. That smile could end wars and cure cancer."
— John Green, An Abundance of Katherines

Lunch time came and I was trying to cover my face since I just cried a minute ago. The period before lunch tim, our sub-teacher gave us a free time.

"Do whatever you like," she said. "But keep quiet." She sat down on the teacher's seat and I went to my bag to get my book titled, Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard.

I didn't really care what our sub looked like, because all I thought was: YES! I WILL READ A BOOK!

The left side of the book was getting thinner whereas the right side was getting thicker. And then, I got to the part when Maven was revealed as a traitor. I was starting to cry, silently covering my sniffing a few hiccups, and read further on.

I hate it when I read in public and my feels get shown. I feel like the people around me are judging me, silently concluding that I'm a crazy person. Which I guess, I am. But I hate the looks that they give me. Those "what the hell's wrong with you" looks.

I tried to keep my feels in but it became too much, so I didn't finish the chapter. Therefore, I went to excuse myself and hurried to the restroom with my book.

God! I hate it when this happens. Sobbing uncontrollably.

It's just that I trusted Maven and he just... RAZIEL! I did not expect his betrayal! To be honest I was all Team Maven.

The moment I was ready to go out, the school bell rang and I went back to the classroom to get my bag back and head to the cafeteria.

"What the hell?" I heard someone yell in front of me.

I was startled, I was half-conscious when I sat down in my usual table since I was thinking of the book. I looked up to see who it was, it was Luke.

"Why are you crying?" Luke demanded.

I still was? Silly me then. Gods! Why do I always get so emotional about this stuff.

Why can't I just be normal?

"I-i-it's nothi-i-ing." I hiccuped.

"No it's not nothing! Tell me who did that to you!" His voice was getting louder.

"It's ju-u-u-ust," I started saying but I lost my words.

"Just what?"

"H-h-he... he betrayed me."

"WHO?! SON OF A B---!" He exclaimed and I was shocked. He stared me and held my hand. Calmly comforting me.

"He's not worth the tears, Gwen! Please stop crying," he begged. I almost smiled because of his reaction. Luke didn't know who I was talking about yet he thinks the worse already.

"I want to! But I ca-a-a-an't!" My eyes were puffy now and I can't seem to breathe.

"Tell me how to fix this, please. Please tell me." He gripped my hand tighter.

"You can't. He's gone mad. He went there. I'm not going to forget about it."

"I'm sure there's a way."

"I'm telling you... You can't... Only Victoria Aveyard can." I sniffed.

"Wait," he said and released my hand. "Are you talking about a book character?"

"Yes..." I mumbled.

I was waiting for that face.

You know, that face a person makes, chuckling or laughing uncontrollably, because it was just a joke. I was waiting for him to laugh at me. To tell me I was crying over a silly thing.

But he didn't do any of that.

"Oh Sweetie," He looked at me with sympathy and held both of my hands. I was too surprised over the fact he didn't laugh to notice that he brought it to his mouth and kissed them.

I wanted to laugh at him for not laughing at me.

"I'm going to get you ice cream and mourning fries—" he started to say but I interrupted him.

"But I'm not mourning..." I protested. I was still a little outraged upon his actions.

This wasn't how it supposed to be. He should stop caring for me. And start looking at me like I should be locked up in a mental institution.

There's a whisper in my head saying I should stop overthinking this.

I hate that part of me, that makes me think I'm literally insane. That I am not normal. I hate thinking of that. But, it's sometimes hard not to.

"You kinda are. He betrayed you, didn't he? Then you lost your trust towards him. There's something to mourn about." He stood up and he was ready to got to a stall.

I wanted to cry. Not because of Maven— though I am still not over that. I wanted to cry because of Luke.

"Wait," I stopped Luke. "Why?"

"Why what?" He asked in confusion, he slightly crooked his head.

"Why are you reacting like this? I'm crying over someone fictional and you act—"

"They are real. Gwen, to be honest I thought you were crying over a jerk. Well he is a jerk but someone who I can punch in the guts. Yet, here you are crying over not someone I can't punch. I feel helpless. So let me get you some comfort food."

I stood up and went with him. I didn't think of anything, I just made the move without thinking. I held his hand tightly and kissed his left cheek.

"Thanks Luke." I mumbled to his ear.

❤️❤️❤️

I was so ready to go home. But my last period was taking so long. I groaned.

"Yes, Francis, that is why we should always take note of..."

Those were the only words I heard Mr. Condé say. I looked at my wristwatch and counted the minute 'till dismissal. After a thirty minutes, I can finally go home. It won't take forever but this subject is so boring!

I don't need Mr. Condé's subject, home economics, in the future. I rolled my eyes and pulled out my phone from my pocket. I only texted Esme between classes, but today I'll try something new.

Gwen: This class is soooo boring!! 😩🔫

Three minutes later, I felt my phone vibrate in my hand.

Luke: Subject?

Gwen: H. E.

Ten minutes later, a familiar boy came in my classroom, bursting in the door and yelling, "troll in the dungeon!"

I looked at the boy and it was Luke. I could not believe it. Grinning at him, I shook my head in disbelief and bit my lower lip.

Is this truly happening? These kind of things only happen in Tumblr!

Luke continued shrieking, "TROLL in the dungeon!"

And then, just like in Harry Potter, Luke collapsed onto the floor, "Just thought you oughta know."

Not only Mr. Condé was laughing so hard with the whole class, he let us go early. A thing that you should know about our teacher, he loves the harry potter novels. So he clearly got the joke immediately.

And that is how Monday went well, then sucked, yet it ended as a good day.

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