I picked up my phone. "Truly Kang Designs, Kang Taehyun speaking." It has been 3 weeks since my housewarming. "So formal..." I rolled my eyes going over my sketches. "Who is this ?" I knew who it was, but I didn't want to deal with him yet.

            "Come on. You've been avoiding my calls." I sighed. I wasn't going to exhaust myself with arguing, "do you have an appointment ? Or do you want to set something up ?" I knew me ignoring Beomgyu was wearing him thin. "Taehyun, come on. Eunjin didn't mean any harm."

           
        I scoffed. Was he serious ? She meant no harm ?! "Beomgyu, that scheming fiancé of yours called me an alcoholic. I don't take that lightly." I could hear him on the other end of the phone, "She didn't mean it that way. Can you please move past this ?" I was angry. Why should I be the bigger person ? "She called me an alcoholic, Beomgyu. I won't just forgive that kind of behavior."

                 I thought he knew well enough to know that I won't let this go. "Would you at least join everyone for dinner tonight ?" I sighed to myself. At least it was an effort, right ? "Fine, see you at dinner."

         I wasn't exactly thrilled about dinner. I took my seat next to Beomgyu & Kai. The boys were already deep in conversation. "A few more months, Beomgyu. How are you feeling ?", Yeonjun asked him. I was glad that the attention wasn't drawn to me at the moment. I ordered for myself. For the most part staying quiet. "Eunjin & I are in good place. I can't believe I'm going to be married in a few months."

                   Soobin chuckled, "have you both spoken about plans for the future yet ?" I was happy for Beomgyu, but I couldn't bring myself to be all too thrilled about who he was going to marry in a few months. Beomgyu flashed a smile, "so far we've both decided to take breaks from working. Eunjin was very enthusiastic about traveling for our honeymoon plans."

                Kai suddenly brought me into the conversation. "Ah, hyung. How have you been ? You've been M.I.A for three weeks." I gave a smile to the maknae. I didn't want to spoil the fun because I wasn't in the mood to be excited about Eunjin marrying Beomgyu. "Just been busy."

            I feel like they all could tell that I still was a bit bitter about my housewarming party. "Taehyun, how was your design unveiling a few months ago ? Your line came out a few months ago, right ?", Soobin most likely asked to ease the tension. However, I noticed Beomgyu shoot him a pensive guilty look. "It went well. Working on some new sketches now..." Yeonjun then suddenly said something that shook me to my core. "Weren't we all at Beomgyu' at that time to help him ask Eunjin to marry him ?" Kai then had a look of terror cross his face, "hyung !"

            I calmly wiped my mouth, but I was fuming. "You all didn't come support me a few months ago so you could support Beomgyu' engagement ? Not one of you ?" Beomgyu reached for my hand. I snatched my hand away standing up, "Some friends you are..." I left a tip & rushed outside to catch a cab.

             I can't believe them ! Kai caught my arm before I got in my cab. "Hyung, come back inside." I sighed ruffling his hair. "I'm sorry, Kai." I gently removed my arm from his grip, "I need my space. Can you at least give me that ?" I could see the hurt , as well as the understanding in his eyes as he backed off.

       Once home let the tears fall. Was this to be my life ? Why did my friends end up treating me like this ? Like an outsider in our friendship. Suddenly, my phone rang. I picked up, "hello ?" The voice was warm. Made me feel somewhat calmer. "Hey, it's Maya. Have you been crying ?" I sniffled letting out a dry laugh. "What's up ?"

      I talked with Maya until sunrise the next morning. I filled her in on everything. "So what did you initially call for, M ?" Maya laughed. "I wanted to see how you were. It's been a while since we talked at LAX." I looked out window. "Any advice for me ?"

           Maya sighed, "just keep your space. Focus on yourself. Overwhelming yourself with your friends issues won't make you any happier. You moved back for a break, right ? Make the best of it. Ultimately, you control your own happiness." I smiled to myself. "Thanks again, Maya." There was a lot of commotion on her end. I assume Michelle was being an energetic child after waking up. "Call me anytime, Taehyun."

                      What Maya said really got me thinking. I did move back for my friends & for a break.  I needed to let go of all my anger from last night & three weeks ago. I need to focus on myself. It's what was best for me at the time.