Chapter 16- From Hate To Obsession

You placed Tenko into your cell bed, and you leaned against the wall to sleep. Although you couldn't sleep yet.
'What is troubling you?' The second voice asked.
'I sense it's the new emotions they are feeling. Remember? Lack of sympathy and other emotions?' The voice pointed out.

"These emotions... I don't know... what they are," You breathed heavily, gripping your pants, and feeling your nails dig into your skin through the fabric.
"I... I need to know..." You muttered with shallow breaths.
'(Y/N),' The second voice warned.
'Be careful of what you're going to-'

SHANK

From the inside of your boot, you pulled out a fork you stole from the cafeteria, and you thrusted it down on your thigh. Tenko was fast asleep, so you knew he wouldn't wake up to the sound to the squishing sound of metal hitting flesh, and blood quitting out from the holes.

You closed your eyes, taking in the pain from your now bleeding thigh, trying to pour out those unwanted yet unknown emotions.
"Hmm, Hmm, that's what those are. It's... the first time I'm feeling like this," Drool dripped down your mouth and through the holes of the muzzle as you felt your face feeling really hot.

"It... it..." Your once dead eyes now were filled with blood lust, and more other unexplained emotions as you felt your lips twitch up every so slightly.

"Feels so good,"

"What the hell are you doing?"

You just turned your head to see Eren, glaring down at you, disgusted at what you're doing.
"Clearing my mind," You managed out, pool of saliva dropping down on your shirt.
"What the absolute hell is wrong with you? You show up, brain washed this kid, eat one of our fallen soldiers, impersonate a soldier, threaten a squad leader, and expect that everyone would treat you nicely?" He spat out with venom and hatred.

"You said it, not me," You rolled your eyes, wiping your mouth as you got down your blood lust high.
"And... you do that when Tenko is nearby. What if he woke up and sees you like that? He'll be even more scared of you." You merely raised an eyebrow, slowly letting go of the fork, still on your leg, and slowly got up.
"Who says that he's scared? At this point, he could be just like me," You shrugged, eyes still dilated and blood dripping down your pants.

The sheering and firey pain coming from your thigh barely felt like a pinch. You were used to it, where else did your scars and burn marks come from?
"You're an absolute disgusting and vile person, if you think that just because captain Levi allowed you to be part of this squad it means that you could be yourself, your fucking wrong-"

"You know what's the problem with you people?" You interrupted his little hate speech, making him stop and stare at you with disbelief. How could you have such a bland and calm tone after what you did?
"You think what you're doing is right, you think that I'm a monster, that I will never be viewed as anything but a monster, that if I could just show you that I'm just like everyone else, I'll live," With each sentence, you took a step closer to the bars and to see his horrified and angered face.

"Isn't that what you're living through right now?"

CLANG

You felt the aggressive tug on the collar of your shirt and the cold, metal bars of your cell press up against your body, seeing the fury in Eren's eyes.
"I am nothing like you, I don't eat people, I don't kill innocent lives, I don't feel empty inside, I don't feel like I could "cleanse" this world. I. Am. Not. A. Monster," He spat out each word with venom and gripped your shirt tighter.

God dammit, why aren't your reacting?! Why are you not scared, surprised, disgusted, anything emotion that could be seen in your eyes or face?! Eren wanted a reaction out of you, and he will get one. He wants to see you cower in fear, he wants to see you cry as he towers over you, he wants to lick the tears off of your face-

Wait... why does he want that?

Noting that the voices aren't around to protest, you slowly lifted up your arms, still making eye contact with him. Instead of the sounds of the chains tugging on your skin, Eren's eyes widen at the sound of the clanks of the chains hitting the ground.

Your hands are free.

"Another problem with you people," You hummed and lifted the muzzle off of your face, pulling it down so it'll be wrapped around your neck. Eren could finally see your scar again, your little peach fuzz, your entire dead look.
"You always watch the mouth, but never the hands," The situation was revealed. You were taller than him, your chains and muzzle are gone, Eren still doesn't know how to control his abilities, and he can't defend himself with his training if his arms are being pulled harshly. So by any means,

He is completely at your mercy.

In a quick flash, you were gripping his wrists tightly, pulling them through the bars so his body is pressed against the bars like you were.
"I could easily snap your neck, I could easily kill you right now, see your blood leak on the floor as your organs will give me a good feast," You listed off, looking dead into his now scared eyes.
"But," You let go of his wrists, but kept your gloved hand caressing his face.

"You'll be an entertainment for me. I want to see how far you'll go into believing that you're a hero like your idols, only for you to realize that no matter what," You let go of his face and your lips forms a sickening smile.

"The only monsters here are both of us,"

Eren quickly took steps back, breathing heavily and eyes widen. He felt everything so closely around him. The silent noise that filled the chamber, the breathing of Tenko, the husky and gruff voice of you whispering basically in his head as he felt his face grow hot and-
'What the hell? I shouldn't be thinking about that. The killer just threatened me, ate my comrades, and is free from the chains that held them! Why... why am I thinking about such crude things?!'

"Although I don't blame you for thinking that I am a monster," You sighed, lifting the muzzle back on your mouth and crouching down to pick up the chains.
"I have been viewed like that since my younger days, so you're nothing special," You heard the clicks of your chains and you hummed, turning your head to see Tenko still sleeping peacefully, with a soft smile on his face.

You turned back to Eren, who still was against the wall, just staring at you.
"I'll tell you one thing. We have something in common, ya know?" One swift movement, you took the fork out of your thigh, and took a piece of the bed sheets to wrap it around your leg.
"Answer me this, have you had your mother killed right in front of you?"

Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Eren flinch. Hard. Which meant you struck a chord.
"I mean, of course you haven't. I mean, it's not like you saw a monster eat her in front of you, and you couldn't do anything but watch in fear, frozen and just simply watched, and now you have this guilt in your mind saying that you should have done something." You huffed out what seemed like a laugh.

"That could just be a coincidence for it to happen to two different people in different worlds," You paused, looking over to see him looking at you with wide eyes, filled with shock.
"... how did you feel?" You asked him. You already knew by the look in his eyes he experienced the same thing.
"I... I-I... I felt heartbroken, and anger toward those Titans. They were the reason I became a soldier, I wanted to kill each and every one of them." He hissed out.

"Then... I discovered I was like them... but that's going to change! Because I am nothing like those Titans." You hummed, staring at the ground.
"What about you?... What... did you feel?" Eren asked, for once his voice wasn't filled with hate and venom, but genuine concern.
"... Shocked, then... nothing really. I was 3, yet remember it so clearly. The monster who killed her made me watch, the monster stuck to me ever since," You felt tears in your eyes, and breathing was shaky.

"The monster did this to me," You showed him the scars and burn marks on your arms.
"No matter where I went, the monster was there," You managed it say, tears falling down your face. Eren watched as you finally broke, you were vulnerable in front of him. This was his chance! To use this against you!

Yet... he just can't. He can't help but watch with sympathy and sadness, and also shock. A killer, who for the long time he met them, was finally showing emotions. Such strong emotions, coming out of a dead face killer, who went through the same experience just like him.

"I... I never felt safe..." You hiccuped, hugging your knees. The mere sight of you breaking down, it hurt Eren for some reason, he... wanted you to be safe around him for some reason. Whenever you cry, it felt like some tune was in his head, like a song. A song which tells him to be near you.
"Hey," You looked up to see Eren smiling softly at you.

"I promise you, nothing is going to hurt you again. The monster is won't get to you as long as I'm here." Eren reached out through the bars and you hesitantly reached over too, hand covered in blood from your thigh.

"I'll protect you," He said with determination and confidence. You nodded, wiping tears away.
"Thank you..." with one last hand holding, Eren let you go and went to his cell, leaving you alone and looking at the floor.
'What... a dirty move (Y/N)!' The second voice finally came out.

'I'll say!! You just had to use that death card! What a manipulative bastard, you are!' The voice laughed. You rolled your eyes, wiping the fake tears away from your face.
"He got the message. Now I have one more person under the impression that I'm vulnerable," You muttered, wiping the blood against the wall and sighing.

"What an absolute idiot,"

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Eren stared at his blood stained hand, sitting on his bed and gently rubbing the tips of this fingers with the blood.
"They're so vulnerable inside... and so... cute when they're like that," Eren slowly leaned in to his fingers, and licked your blood off of him.
"They... taste so good." Lust filled his eyes, and he continued to lick your blood off until his hand was cleared from anything else.

"Don't worry (Y/N), I'll be there for you... my prey,"